You're asking me that when you will also do the same thing?!

Aren't you a hypocrite?

"You don't understand. I'm not planning to die," I told him. I glanced at his face before dropping the bomb. "This is the only way for me to survive and this is the most beneficial action for me and the other orphans."

"You don't know what you're talking about," He said. "Do you think we need your sacrifice? How will you be able to survive those things?!" He shouted. I took a deep breath. Ray is really angry. "You said you wanted to survive!" He shouted.

I closed my eyes hearing those words.

"Stop doing idiot thing!. You're only going to get yourself killed!" He shouted. "Mom is not someone you can trust. Whatever you wanted to do, you should stop it. If you got in her way, she won't hesitate to eliminate you."

Aren't you planning to sacrifice me in the first place?

I tugged his clothes with both of my hands. "Ray..." I uttered. I gripped his clothes tighter before raising my serious eyes at him. "Can you please listen to my explanation first?! Calm down will you?" I shouted at him. 

I pulled his clothes which made him bend down his body. When his body bends down I quickly grabbed his collar as I stared at his face to face. "You are nagging me about that! But you didn't even want to help me make a plan! Can you stop being a hypocrite?!"

"You call me an idiot? Do you think I wanted to do it in the first place?! I also wanted to survive! and this is my only chance!" I shouted. I could feel my face turning red because of anger and frustration."I was the lowest grade of cattle on this farm, will you even try to save me if I didn't turn into this?"

The dark expression on his face disappeared. I pushed him back while gritting my teeth. 

"The top priority of escaping is Norman and Emma. If I won't take over Norman's adoption, don't you think your plan would be a waste?" I asked him. "I know that you have your own plan inside your head."

"You became Mom's spy because of this."

His eyes went wide. "You knew..." He uttered.

"I'm not that idiot. You hinted at me," I told him. I raised my hand and placed it on my ear. "You hinted at me when you told me about this thing," I pointed my index finger at my ear while looking intently at him. 

"I..." Ray uttered before taking a deep breath.  I'm sorry," He said. The boy averted his eyes from me. "I didn't mean to shout at you," Ray touched his forehead before returning his gaze on me. "But it doesn't mean that it will justify your idiocy."

"This is not idiocy," I told him. "You don't even know my plan. I don't know if you're becoming irrational or something."

"Then what is your plan?" He asked. "Why does involved getting adopted? If you're planning to escape through the gate. I am telling you, that gate is surely not the way out---"

"I will become a Mom," I cut him off. The shock was evident on his face when I told him my plan. "I want to become like Mama Isabella."

I will lie again.

"What?" He halted. A dumb expression on his face appeared. "What are you talking about?!" He asked with fury. There was a terrified expression on his face.

"When I sleep in Mom's room..." I paused. I glanced at his face before touching the numbers on my neck. "I noticed that there was also a tattoo on the right side of her neck."

"Just like us,"

"Just like me,"

"and just like you, Ray," I uttered before pointing at his neck. His expression didn't change but he continued to listen to me.

"I realized that Mom is also an orphan," My hands clenched before placing it on my chest. "I also realized that I can be like her. That becoming a Mom will make me survive. That's why If I convinced Mom to make me like her, then I will survive."

"You'll be like her?" He asked in a cold tone. I bit my lips when his aura suddenly changed. A dark expression on his face appeared once again. "You'll be like Mom? Abandoning her children?"

I stopped when I heard the word abandon from him.

The word was too deep for me and for him.

Conny is abandoned and Isabella is willing to abandon Ray.

Her real child.

I quickly shook my head before looking at him with determination. "If you will fail to escape with the other kids. Then I might really become like her," I sigh when he remained silent. "That's why you have to escape and survive."

"What do you mean?" He asked with a cold tone.

"Once you escaped, I will wait for you on the other side," I replied with a soft smile. "I will put my trust and fate to you. I will wait for you to save me."

"Can you save me, Ray? Can you save me with Norman and Emma?"

•••••••

I secretly observed Ray who was sitting on the corner of the library. We went here after we finished talking about the plan. He'd been thinking deeply and it looks like he doesn't want to be disturbed.

I took a deep breath while thinking about our conversation a while ago. It was such a bold claim.

I'll become a Mom.

I'll just become a Mom.

It was a decision that came up just an hour ago.

As Conny, I don't know if I have a qualification to become a Mom. My previous grades are low and I don't have an athletic physique like Emma. What I decided to do was such a bold claim. I don't even know if I will succeed since I am not yet at the right age to take the training.

But if I showed Mom that I am hiding some capabilities, then I might have a chance to execute my plan. If I need to act like a fake genius in front of her, they might accept my deal. 

I am only a 6-year-old child, but if I can trick them. They might exempt my age.

My biggest advantage in this world...is I know what will happen in the future. I know the characters' secrets which I can use to do this plan. Besides, if I become a training Mom. I am definitely sure that Norman, Ray, and Emma can save me.

The big three can save this world.

It was meant to happen.

I immediately stopped thinking when I suddenly heard a humming voice. I glanced at the boy who was singing a familiar song at the corner. He was closing his eyes resembling a calm night sky with peace and sadness.

A smile appeared on my face. I remembered that this is one of my favorite songs.

Although I know that his voice wasn't as good as Mama Isabella's. I continued listening to his voice until he finished humming that Lullaby.

"Ray," I called him. Ray glanced at me. "What are you singing?"

•••••••

My heart is melting while browsing at Pinterest. I want to have a baby Ray 😭 (Gotta make a fanfic 'bout this if I can)

Ps. Don't misunderstand. I am a Mom fan.