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"I'm not a selfish!" Jungkook screamed at the omega.

"Why you all just think about yourself and your pain! What about me huh! Why no one care what I feel, what I want and what I need!" Jungkook cried, voice shaking from all the pant up frustration.

"Why no one seems to realize that they are not the only one hurting! They are not the only one going through pain and hard times!..." jungkook look at Taehyung his eyes shading more tears.

"They're not the only one with a broken heart" he whispered.

"Why you'll just saw your emotions and your feelings, why not mine. Just because I don't show it, doesn't mean I'm not broken too" jungkook look away from the omega.

Taehyung stood there frozen, he don't know what to do now as he listen the alpha crying his heart out infront of him.

"Yes I hurt you! Yes I made you feel left out! Yes I'm the reason you're not happy! Yes I broke you!...but do you ever feel the need to know why?" Jungkook sobbed.

"Did you ever feel like to asked me why I'm doing it. Do you ever feel like to see through me, to see through those cold demeanor?"

"Did you ever do that?" Jungkook asked.

"Because you didn't!" Jungkook answered when taehyung stayed quite.

"You didn't asked me! You just assume that I'm a heartless and selfish person who just care about himself and no one! You just saw your pain, your feelings! You all just starightly accuse me for my actions, never want to go deep in it to know the actual reason! You didn't asked me that why I'm ignoring you! Why I'm not giving you the attention an alpha give to his mate! NO ONE EVER DID!" Jungkook shouted at him.

"N-No one asked me what i want, What I'm going through. Why I'm reacting that way.－no one ever asked if I'm hurt or...if I'm even alright" jungkook wipe his tears shaking his head in denial at every word he utter.

"No one asked me if I'm in pain, if I want their c-comfort, if I want them to just h-hold me. Why?" Jungkook cried loudly.

"No one asked me If I want to cry in their arms and let it all out. No one let me even cry" Taehyung feels the pang in his heart. Because he did realize something. Something he shoud've did before. He never asked the reason, reason of jungkook's behaviour. His coldness towards him or his hateful words.

He just care about himself and his pain. Now who's the selfish here?

"You all think that I'm a trueblood so I'm made of stone, that I never feel the pain, that I never got hurt, that I don't have a heart that I-I can't cry because I'm an alpha and alpha's don't cry" jungkook laugh bitterly.

"You just think about yourself! And your feelings. Didn't asked about my feelings!"

"Just like she did!" Jungkook look at the picture he was holding. "That's the same picture you saw that day right?" Taehyung look at him shocked. "Yes i saw you that day, crying onto the floor when I came home early, you know why I came?" Jungkook look at Taehyung.

"I came that day to give you a chance. Give us a chance, after making a decision to forget everything and starts a new life, with you and our unborn pup at that time" Taehyung breaths heavily listening to everything alpha has to say.

Because it's time now he learn about his side of story.

"She is the reason why I became what I'm today. Those cold shoulders and harsh words, it's all because I've gone through something which was so painful to me to handle myself. Which I don't deserve!" Jungkook has the strong emotion in his eyes when he look at the picture.

"She was my girlfriend, my love" jungkook started and Taehyung already feels like to stop the alpha but he can't seem to open his mouth.

"We were together for eight years, yes eight. We got together pretty early, found our happiness in each other and it's all happens so fast that we were going to celebrate our eighth Anniversary. Everything was fine, she was happy with me, I was madly in love with her. She also loved me." Jungkook shakily breathed.

"I was not like this before. I was a happy and ongoing person, so happy that there was not a day when I was not laughing stupidly with her." Jungkook had a bitter smile on his face while he was looking into space seemingly reliving his past.

"We were not actual mates but we act like one. She didn't let me mark her saying she wants it to be special and wants it when we married and I agreed, I can't say no to her. We decided to leave our fated mates if we encounter them." Taehyung look at Jungkook who was silently shadding tears. He feels needles pinching his heart painfully.

"But..everything changed on the day of our Anniversary. You see that box there" jungkook point towards the small box near the big box. "That's an engagement ring. I was going to propose to her that day. I just couldn't wait anymore and want to have her all mine."

"I wish i did that way before so I don't have to go through all of it." Jungkook chocked out.

"She met her fated mate that day when she was coming to my home. She told her about us and that she wants to reject him but her mate convince her to not to that immediately and let him live in the feeling for a few days and she agreed saying it would be heartless if she won't. I wasn't happy but i don't have any other choice." Jungkook look at the sky and closing his eyes letting the wind hit his face.

"Then after that she disappeared suddenly" Taehyung eyes widen slightly.

"I was going insane, searching her here and there all day and night but couldn't find a trace of her scent. I was not eating, sleeling, resting i didn't even come home for a week just searching her non-stop. I was badly worried and s-scared. I injured myself doing it but i didn't care just thinking about well being."

"When I came home finally to found out that she came, i was so happy and run to her just to stop when I saw the big bite mark on her neck proudly decorating and showing that she was mated－with someone else" jungkook cried again. Taehyung gasped and stumbled back in shocked.

"You know how much it broke me to see the one I love and treasure the most drowning in someone else's scent. To see the only person I trust and love the most betrayed me in a most painful way. To see there was no regret in her eyes when she was looking at me." He let out the painful words.

"She told me she goes in her heat and at that time her mate came and claim him. When i was scared for her safety and was searching her stupidly－She was with him all the time, mating with him and enjoying his love" jungkook look down and sobs.

"I begged her to leave him and come to me but you know what she said? She said that now he's her mate and she starts to feel the attraction towards him not me. Saying that we weren't meant to be. In just a span of seven days she fell out of love with me, and towards her fated mate. Like those eight years were nothing! Like they were not happiest moment we shared! She just leave so easily like nothing happened!" Jungkook frustatingly says.

"I was so hurt Taehyung, so much in pain. I fucking loved her with all my heart and she leave me with nothing but a impossibly broken heart." Jungkook sniffed.

"I wasn't even allowed to cry my pain! I had to hold it in me for all the years because this soceity thinks we are made of stone and crying is a weak symbol for a trueblood! No one was there for me. I was alone－till now, I'm still alone" Jungkook look at Taehyung for the first time and the omega saw the deep pain and sadness.

"You can still mourn your pain, you cried and relieve yourself atleast a little bit but I? I can't. I wasn't allowed to" jungkook smile sadly.

"It was still a fresh wound to me when I met you. I was still as deeply hurt because it was all in my heart. I didn't let it go. So my wolf took this opportunity and marked you. I don't know how to react with you because i starts hating the mating bond, blaming it was reason i lost my love. So i took it all out in you when i can't cry about it."

"I know you don't deserved it, i realize that but－do I deserve what happened to me? What cruelity they do me was i deservable of it? Just for what? for loving someone unconditionaly!" Taehyung cried too, his heart was hurting badly.

"And just when i decided that it's enough that I can't live like this forever, I need to live my life－ I saw you with this box and every wound and my past came right infront of me and i got more furious and leave the house." Jungkook says.

"After alot of time i started realizing my behaviour towards you, i want to change my self and make you happy because you deserve it－but it was too late because you turned your back on me too－just like she did. You don't wait for me, you didn't want to know my reasons you just starts hating me for my action, you don't see i was hurting too. Your every tear effect me through mate bond doubling my pain but you didn't realize through your pain"

"You didn't see my pain"

Taehyung stare at jungkook, his eyes hold guilt in it for the alpha. "I can't handle it Taehyung, I can't! Why no one understand me! Why you all hate me for the things I'm not at fault! Why you all hurt me in the worst way! Why you all blame me alone when you're at fault too! Why I've to be a trueblood alpha! I don't want this rank! I hate it! I'm not strong, I'M NOT!" the alpha screamed grabbing his hair pulling it harshly.

"J-Jungkook!" The alpha look up, his eyes is vulnerable and deeply hurt, tears pooling around it. "Everything hurts Taehyung! It's too much! I-I can't breath with this heavy burden!" The alpha muttered clutching the fabric of his shirt against his chest.

Taehyung realize looking at those empty and vulnerable but filled with pain eyes that he was wrong. So wrong about the alpha.

He was just as broken as he is.

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