Chapter 66: Moving Forward

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Ryzen POV

Before I could meet with Zaynah and that person, there were several things that were arranged first.

My family were hesitant to let me go out, especially since they became wary of the 'friends' that I had and at the same time, I haven't introduced Zaynah to them. Thankfully though, Lennox vouched for Zaynah's character, which made them feel at ease.

On the meeting day, there were several bodyguards with me. Now, they were not allowed to leave my side at all, even if I order them to.

Upon arriving at the restaurant, I immediately saw the two familiar faces sitting in the VIP room.

Instantly, Zaynah's face brightened as she waved at me. On the other hand, Rose Ferrada tried to give me a small, polite smile.

Even though I am in a different body now, I still can't deny that these two people are are dear to my heart.

I have found a new family in Millen Yu's family but it doesn't change the fact that for me, these two people are still my family as well.

Seeing them right now makes me a bit sentimental about my resolution.

I greeted them quickly before sitting down on my seat. They were in front of me, seating next to each other.

"Sorry, Millen. This was supposed to happen before, right? My mum never told me about the sudden revelation she'd confess on her show...."

"It's fine, don't worry about it. I am thankful for you, since I am able to meet Dr. Rose, who is an inspirational figure in my life."

I smiled at Rose Ferrada and although she was hesitant at first, she greeted me politely and also gave me a small smile.

Seeing her right now like this, the feelings of pain, guilt and discomfort have all subdued.

Maybe, it is really all thanks to the way the heavens have consoled me.

All these years, Rose Ferrada have raised me, even though she didn't necessarily have to. She let me stay in her house, sent me to good schools and never deprived me of any material thing.

Even though she was not able to provide the maternal love that I was yearning for, I managed to live a comfortable life...

It's more than enough for me, really.

Because I knew her interests already, it was easy to strike up a conversation with her. Surprisingly, instead of dwellings on the complicated feelings I thought I would have, I enjoyed my time talking with her.

But suddenly, Zaynah said something that almost stopped my heart.

"Mum, doesn't she remind you a little of Sister Ryzen?"

What? Why would Zaynah suddenly say that..

I held my breath as I looked eagerly at Rose Ferrada, a bit anxious on how she's going to reply.

"Indeed. Her posture and her mannerisms when she speaks reminds me of her. If I didn't think so clearly, I would think that kid reincarnated through her..."

Zaynah nodded at her mum, before shifting her gaze at me.

"Millen, I don't think I've ever told you this before but I got so comfortable with you quickly because you remind me a lot of my sister! Even your handwriting is kind of similar to hers. Maybe, it's because you're both a genius? My sister could easily digest all that medical stuff too, just like you."

Rose Ferrada looked at me in a wistful expression and smiled a little.

"I'm glad to have met you, Millen. You have a lot of potential as a medical researcher... That kid was also into medical research, just like you."

Upon hearing all their words, I actually do not know how to control my emotions. I feel like if they say anything more, it would be the end of me.

I tried to give a polite smile, but my brows frowned and my mouth twitched.

"For the rest of this lifetime, I'll spent my life repenting for my mistakes.. I'm basically living in regret now, since I never once showed appreciation to that child. I hope that I told her, even just for once, that she's doing a good job in her career. That, I'm very proud of her. But then, I couldn't do that anymore. I spent too much of my life being bitter. I just wish that she could forgive me."

Ah, I really could not take this. My hold on my emotions seemed to heave weakened considerably.

Tears welled up in my eyes as they began to fall slowly.

Mother, I have forgiven you already. You don't need to say sorry to me from the start...

It's okay, I understand your pain...

I bit my lips, since I wasn't sure what exactly to say. I never expected that I would hear her say that directly say it to me, even though she is unaware of the fact that it is me that she's talking to...

Zaynah looked at me in confusion while Rose Ferrada seemed to be startled.

I tried to smile, to assure them that I am fine, but the tears wouldn't stop falling from my eyes.

"I'm sorry... I heard the story that day and as your longtime fan, I got carried away." I murmured, trying to save face.

Zaynah frowned her eyebrows a bit, but smiled at what I said. On the other hand, Rose Ferrada's eyes got a bit misty.

I looked away from them, embarrassed at my little outburst. I sniffled a bit just so I can calmly talk to them.

"Since you guys remind me of that person, Ryzen, is this okay for me to say this to you? I feel like if she was still here, she'd want you two to be always safe and happy. She doesn't want you to wallow in guilt and grieve forever. Who knows, maybe she is resting in a good place right now?"

While I said that, Rose Ferrada was looking straight into my eyes. Then, she looked away and wiped a tear that suddenly fell from her eyes.

On the other hand, Zaynah looked startled at what I said. Her mouth widened to the point where she had to put her hand over her mouth.

It was actually a bit strange for me to say those words, referring to myself in an outsiders' perspective. But I am actually proud that I was able to say those words in a composed and clear manner.

I got lost in my thoughts as Rose Ferrada and I exchange small smiles, dwelling into the soft silence.

But then, when I gazed over Zaynah, she still had a startled expression on her face. She even blinked a few times and rubbed her eyes.

"Right now... I feel like I just saw an image of my sister in you. It's not that you guys look alike, but I feel like I saw her spirit somehow."

Eh?

In a way, I feel like I could imagine what Zaynah has seen. Did the heavens or Sorcellerie do something?

I smirked at the thought. The heavens really have a way of doing things, hmm...

I wiped my tears and smiled at both of them, trying to ease their feelings.

"Perhaps, your sister's soul agrees with my words." I murmured softly.

After we all calmed our emotions, we continued with our talk.

It seemed like after that sudden conversation, Rose Ferrada seems to be more ease, talking to me more in an enthusiastic way.

By having this meeting with Rose Ferrada and Zaynah, I am really assured that I made the right choice by staying here, in Millen Yu's body...

If I chose to go back to my original body, it will only be a parallel universe, which isn't real, right? And while living in that parallel universe, I would lose all the memories I had during the transmigration mission.

That means, not only losing the truths I've found out, but also losing the way I am now...

I cannot go back to the stoic person I was before, who was unaware about her origins. I cannot stand wasting my life there, hungry for affection and destructing myself in the process.

Even though I don't have my original body right now and could not be with them with my name as 'Ryzen Ferrada', I do not regret anything...

Because now, as Millen Yu, I was able to find out Rose Ferrada's sincere feelings. I was also able to be pampered with an affectionate family and most importantly, I am able to stay with Lennox...

Yes, everything definitely worked out for the best.

This is more than the resolution that I asked for...

"You should visit our home so we can have a talk like this again with Zaynah." Rose Ferrada stated, greeting me with a warm smile.

I don't think my smile could be any wider than this. I nodded at her sheepishly, more than happy with the meeting that we've had.

From now on, I won't allow the pains of my original life dictate the way I live now. Just like I've been told, I will just treat it as remnants.

I will forgive others and myself, as I move forward in my life.

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