State of Confusion

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[Rems POV]

I don't know what to do. I made a promise that the person who I loved would defeat them. It might not seem like a big deal but it is. Before I got my memories back I.... I was already starting to get these feelings towards him. After all he did save me from my sleep and helped me when I asked. Then after I got everything back, all of these things came back to me. When Subaru saved me from those mabeasts dogs, that memory was shadowed with Marx pushing me out of the way of the carriage. They almost act the same and have that same smile when they do something they enjoy. It makes me feel happy to see them like that, but I felt that way only for Subaru....... and now I share those same feelings towards Marx. Subaru has already admitted he only has feelings for Emilia, but I still wanted to be with him. I could act on this as well and ask Marx about it, but I don't even know if he feels as I do. At least I don't think he has feelings for anyone, but maybe he could and just hasn't said anything about it. Regardless I think I should tell him and see how it goes. Oh well it looks like I've finished working on his suit. I guess my in mind discussion passed the time for me, but I've been thinking to myself for almost two hours?! I should get this to him right now since it's already starting to get dark. I add the finishing touches and look over it one more time to make sure it looks perfect. Everything seems to be good so I fold it neatly and walk out my room to find his. As I'm walking over I start to wonder if I should tell him about my feelings. I only have a small amount of time to think it over before I make it to his room. I take a deep breath and knock on his door.

Marx: Who is it?

Rem: It's me Rem. I finished making your suit.

Marx: Oh then come in.

I opened the door and saw that he was sitting on a chair near his small table against the wall.

Rem: I hope I'm not interrupting anything.

Marx: Of course not I was just writing a letter to miss Crusch telling her about what has happened over these passed days.

Rem: Oh and does she... mean a lot to you?

Marx: What? Oh no she just helped me recover in return for defeating one of those archbishops. It's just a friendship that we formed and that's all.

Rem: Oh, I mean either is fine; here are your clothes.

I set them nicely on his bed and he stood up to examine it.

Marx: Wow amazing. This cloth feels nice and smooth. You did all this in such a short time?

Rem: If you think that's a short time then I don't know what you'd consider to be long.

Marx: Well you still did a pretty awesome job.

Then at that moment he did something that I didn't expect of him. He put his hand on my head and gently patted me. It felt nice and I smiled, but after a few pats he quickly pulled his hand back and I looked up confused as to why he stopped. His face was red and he has an embarrassed expression.

Marx: Sorry I don't know why I just did that. That was a bit weird wasn't it?

Rem: N-no it wasn't! I-I mean I didn't mind it at all so please don't feel like it was bad.

Marx: Alright then I appreciate this very much.

He started to head back to his work area.

Rem: Wait Marx before I go, I want to ask you something.

Marx: Hmm? Oh yeah, what is it?

Rem: W-well do you-?

Just then I suddenly had a flashback to what I heard Marx say before. When he told me his past, the thing he hated most was a demon. If I tell him how I feel, but also tell him about me, he will most likely not want to have anything to do with me. What if he doesn't want to even look at me anymore? I... have to ask him.

Marx: Do I... what?

Rem: Do you... really hate demons?

There was a long silence after I asked that. He turned around and grabbed the chair to bring it close to the bed. He sat down on it beside the bed and looked at me.

Marx: Here sit down.

I walked toward and took a seat on the bed so we were now facing each other.

Marx: Rem, have you ever hated something? Have you ever wanted to just rid the world of something because you truly believe that without it, the world would be a better place?

Rem: W-well yes, I bear hatred towards the witch cultists because they took... something from my sister when we were both young and my family was killed as well.

Marx: So tell me Rem, if I were a witch cultist in the past, would you still be my friend? I'm a changed person and act differently.

Rem: I-I um....

Marx: I helped out many people and saved them as well. I killed people so others can live and I did it because I felt the need to. So would I still be your friend?

Rem: .....I ......don't know. I would like to be your friend still, but I would still feel like I'd despise you for being a witch cultist.

Marx: I see. Well to answer your question now..... I truly hate demons. They're nothing but cunning and evil. They showed me that there are things in this world that have to be put down. I'll stop them from hurting anything in this world even if it means I have to die.

Rem: I thought so.

A small silence was held once again before he stood up.

Marx: sorry if I got a bit too serious there. I just felt like you should know how I felt.

Rem: No need for apologies, I did ask after all.

Marx: Good, well I think it's time for the both of us to get to bed. Looks like it's already gotten dark.

We both look out the window and see the black outside. It was only being illuminated by the bright moon.

Rem: I guess you're right. Goodnight Marx.

Marx: Goodnight Rem.

I stood up and walked out of his room closing the door behind me. I stood there in the hall and sank down to the ground on my knees. I guess there goes my hope to finally getting that life I wanted. If what he says is the truth then I don't think I can do anything to change it. The best thing I can do is just not tell him about it and we can at least still be friends. I picked myself up after reassuring myself and went to my room to get ready for bed. As soon as I finished I crawled into bed and went to sleep.

[12:00 pm]

I was having trouble sleeping that night as I had a bad dream and kept tossing and turning. I decided to sit up and look out into the night, but then I saw something or rather... someone out in the front. I got out of bed to get a closer look and saw that it was... Marx? What is he doing out in the middle of the night? He was wearing his uniform, so Could he be sleep walking? Whatever the case was I got myself ready and went to investigate. By the time I got out he was outside the fence and I hurried to catch up. He walked deep inside the woods and I was bit behind him careful to not make myself present. He got to an open space pretty far from the mansion. He looked around almost as if he didn't want to be followed.

Marx: I guess this is far enough.

I heard him say just barely, but what is going to do? Was something bad going to happen if he didn't go out here? Just as I was thinking about it, the ground began to shake and a great wind started to surround the area. I looked to see that Marx was the cause of this and a black and white aura surrounded him. What's happening? Is he just releasing his power? But I was wrong.....as I saw him again. Two large horns sprouted from his head and his whole person changed. I saw a crazed smile appear on him and his face turned to a pale white. Marx was a Demon?! I couldn't process the thought. In his story I thought he was just mind controlled but I think he left out that piece on purpose. The demon started to go wild and break trees in a single punch and he fired all different types of magic spells. I think all the noise attracted some monsters since they soon surrounded him and went to attack. But they were almost instantly killed by one attack. He laughed maliciously as he licked his had from the blood of the beasts. If this is how someone acts after turning into a demon. I wonder how I first was when Subaru saw me become one. I was about to get ready to leave until I saw one mabeast going for an attack on him. It was poisonous one that could kill almost 50 people with its poison. If that bit him, even his power wouldn't stop it from killing him. I rushed out from my hiding place and pushed him out of the way and luckily I was only scratched by the beast. We both hit the ground and I think he was angry at first as he saw me but then realized what I did. He shoved me off and turned to the beast as it charged again at him, but this time he was able to kill it. After he saw the beast fall, his gaze turned to me and I couldn't help but feel a bit scared.

Rem: M-Marx, is that really you?

He didn't say anything as he just kept looking down at me. But then I light emitted from him and his horns disappears and he turned back to himself.

Marx: Rem.. I...

He was only able to say those words before he hit the ground unconscious.

Rem: Marx!

I don't think anything is wrong with him, but wait I think something did happen. I heard a sort of sound coming from his back so I turned him over. I couldn't believe what I saw. How could it have happened if I pushed him out of the way? A sharp needle was in his back and the poison was melting his clothes. I quickly pulled it out and began to heal him so I could try and stop it, but it only stopped the poison on the outside. The poison inside of him was slowly but surely going to travel everywhere inside him until he would..... die

-End of Part XIV-

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