Chapter 60

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   When is a monster not a monster?

   Oh, when you love it.

    .Ravenna.

        I awake to a much disturbing attitude from River. He wasn't being hilarious, neither was he being annoying but he was putting up very awkward acts. Did a kiss really mean that much? Wasn't it just mere skin contact?

       "Will you be going to school today?" Riv asks when I appear downstairs still wearing the clothes Margaret had presented me with yesterday. They were both having breakfast and Riv seemed all kit up for school. Lucky him. Didn't have to wear a uniform.

      "Probably not," I stretch out, giving a loud yawn. "I should get home though, I need a change of clothes and a clear mindset."

       "You're welcome to stay here anytime, you do know that, right?" Maggie cuts in.

       "Of course I do and I appreciate that," I give a slight grin, nodding my head. "But I should get home. I don't need my dad worrying anymore than he probably wasn't."

    I notice her lips tug down at my words but I ignore that. The truth wasn't really meant to bother her.

       I trail towards the door, bunching the awful shoes from the previous day in my hands. Kat is never playing dress up with me again.

      "You're leaving now?" Riv questions, his eyes bulging.

       I lift a brow, trying to get him to spill about the big deal in that. I didn't need to be a liability to his family. I'm enough of that to most of the people around me.

          "I'll come with you then. I'm going to school anyway."

       I smirk. His awkwardness was slowly dissipating. It's not as bad as when I awoke and caught him staring at me with wide eyes or when he'd tried to get out of bed and just stumbled over the blanket while mumbling gibberish. He had gotten clumsy too.

        I thank Maggie for her kindness once again before I take off with Riv. I feel quite comfortable with the silence in between us as we walk but I'm not certain the same could be said for him. He looked like he could explode if I made the briefest of skin contact.

       "What happened to your car?" I finally ask when I'm assured we're just a few minutes away from my home.

         "Mechanics. She's feeling funky." He shrugs.

       "You okay?" I squint my eyes at the approaching morning sun when I reach out to touch his hair. As expected, he flinches and begin mumbling a bunch of words I'm unable to keep track of. "I'll take that as a no."

        I decide to keep the silence in between us after that and soon find myself staring at my house. Looked normal. Obviously. Houses didn't scream the emotions the owners had. I guess I just expected more distress to it. Maybe Klaus had stopped by and Jenna was freaking out because he had spilled the beans. Maybe my dad had punched him...or hugged him since they were co-killers. Partners in crime. Bonnie and Clyde. Just the male versions.

       "Raven?" River finally speaks up when I'm about approaching my doorstep.

        I pivot to glance at him with a cryptic expression.

        "Did–Did the kiss mean something to you?"

       I bite down on my lip to prevent from snorting at his question. "What are you? Like five? Riv, Klaus and I broke up..."

       His eyes double up in size at my words.

        "I needed to clear my head. I'm sorry I pulled you into it. If it bothers you so much, just imagine it as seven minutes in heaven. We did stuffs and we don't care."

        "I–"

     "I just need to get in right now. I'll call you, or I probably won't but forget about it."

      I pull him in for a hug before scampering off. Who got excited about kisses anymore? What were we? Preteens with a crush?

         "Where the hell were you?" Jenna approaches me, ready to bite my head off the moment I step into the house.

        "Oh save it Jennifer, this motherly figure shit is getting old." I growl, taking the steps one at a time.

      "Your father was worried sick about you."

       "There's a first time for everything and every feeling. Quick hint, it doesn't always feel great."

       I stomp away after that, going to settle myself underneath my shower. I'm almost very certain I spent at least an hour there, letting the cold water droplets hit against my skin. The first ten minutes was spent scrubbing because I may have thought it was going to be one of those quick showers but then I drifted off into thoughts and spent the last fifty minutes just standing underneath a cold shower.

       I felt numb. I'd cry so much in my life that I didn't know how to do anything apart from that anymore. I'd been hurt countless times because people either didn't have the balls to say shit to my face or because they were just heartless dick heads. Klaus had really been my breaking point and it hurt to think that I'd thought we could have something good together. He saw the sunshine behind my thunderstorm. The light in my darkness. The hurt in my attitude. As cheesy as that sounds.

         "I want a July wedding." I hear principal Ellie say when I get downstairs again.

       "Well sorry bitch, it's almost December, how does Christmas sound for you?" I cackle grabbing an apple from the fruit bowl that had been shifted to the living room.

        "Excuse me?"

      "Did I stutter?"

      "Raven..." My dad stalks in, giving me a warning look.

       I take a huge bite out of the apple, letting the healthy yet sweet pieces crunch underneath my teeth. "Whatever. I'm going to the bar anyway."

        "You let her go to a bar?" I hear Ellie say as I exit the house. My motorcycle key spins around my finger just before I climb on it. It's been a while since I took the bad girl out for a ride. I ignite the engine before heading towards Izzy's bar. I didn't need to see her face but I could work with ignorance.

       "Raven. It's been a while." Cannon greets me at the entrance with a huge toothy grin. I notice the bar is packed before I even get in and I'm kind of grateful that I might not get to see Isabelle anyway.

       "School stuff," I reply with humour. "That's what I'm supposed to say."

      He lets out a chuckle before letting me in. I trail towards the bar to get a drink order and that's when I become extremely ungrateful. I was faced with olive eyes and strawberry blonde hair. We were just bound to run into each other, weren't we?

      "Can I get the usual?" I tease, playing around with my keys.

      "You don't have a usual."

      "So give me what I got the last time. Whiskey."

        She opens her mouth to object but then closes it and grabs a bottle of whiskey and a glass.

        "I'm sorry." She apologizes when I reach for my drink. She pulls it away from my reach and goes ahead to make eye contact with me.

         "I don't care." My gaze burns into hers, hopefully giving the impression that she should fuck off.

        "Raven, I get that you've had it hard as a kid," she begins with a scoff. "And that you have trust issues but still decided to trust me."

         "I'll have my drink now."

      "I'm sorry about the other day. I shouldn't have let you leave. I just always thought you were one of those teenagers who couldn't give a damn about a bottle of liquor. I mean, I also trusted you to always be that way. I have no idea what happened to unleash this part of you but I hope you get through it and I also hope you forgive me."

       She pushes my drink forward after her surprisingly touchy apology. My eyes twitch to let out more tears but I had no more to give.

       My fingers wrap around the glass and I lift to let the liquid run over the wooden floor. "I'll think about it."

      She knew that meant I was okay with her now and I'm pretty sure that's why she broke into a grin.

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