Kiara's POV:

****beginning of August****

I still hate my alarm clock and nearly smash it against the wall when it sets off. The only thing I don't mind to wake me, are my babies or Dean's kisses and his superior body. And god knows I'm lacking sleep right now, with the twins crying half the night and me being excited on top.

Getting up for breakfast I feel like I'm going to puke. Luckily, I can have breakfast in my suite, so if I do need to puke the toilet isn't far away. No, I'm not pregnant again, I'm simply feeling totally nauseous due to my wedding in a couple of hours.

A wedding is a big and very emotional deal anyway. And it occurs if you're marrying THE man, the super rich and hottest CEO in the UK, you can't go with a normal wedding. This thing is going to be totally insane and apparently epic. You'd think it's a royal wedding.

If someone had asked me, I would have married Dean in some side street or industrial area with a mass of cars surrounding us instead of a mass of people I don't even know. There are going to be reporters from magazines there including the photographers. A load of important business partners, people from work, some high society guests and well I don't know a crazy shit amount of other people I have no idea about.

The only thing calming me, is the fact that our friends are going to be there too. As I don't really have close female friends, I had Sean stay the night with me. What shall I say, Dean nearly stormed this place when he heard about it last night. Even with Sean being as gay as can be, Dean worries about our closeness till today. The only person who was able to stop him, was Tyler.

Tyler's quite smart he put it in a way, that Dean couldn't argue too much. With me being in the wheelchair, I needed help with the twins during the night and it was the choice between either Tyler or Sean seeing as Gale was occupied with preparations.

From what Tyler texted me, he said something like: "Not that I would mind spending the last night before she is married to you with her. I'm sure I could teach her what real fun is. But I think you would rather have her near a gay guy before she realizes what she's missing out on."

Knowing Dean he still wasn't too pleased about it, but he wouldn't risk Tyler spending the night here. In fact, Dean even had a full-blown argument with Gale a couple of weeks ago about us spending the last night before the wedding appart. According to her there are simply some traditions we have to stick to.

Gale has gone full out on this wedding anyway. Even with her organizing a wedding planner, I'm nearly sure Gale did more planning as the wedding planner. A huge society wedding is something which needs good planning both kept on telling me each time I lost it, because I felt they were going way over the top. What didn't help either, was the fact that Dean said no matter the costs, he wants everything to be perfect.

Who the hell would have thought what kind of things all need to be considered? Jesus Christ people are insane. Honestly, I thought I knew colours, seems like I knew shit when it comes down to declaring every single nuance. And the amount of flavours on a cake. The thousands of possibilities on food and drinks. The decorations, the flowers everything planned to perfection and so much more. I lost count of what all needed to be planned.

With our twins, a crazy Gale and a wedding planner who brought me to the brink of crying, screaming, yelling and even needing a punching bag to let out some pent-up feelings, I was partially close to calling it all off. I had no idea it was going to take such a toll on me. And not to forget me still training and recovering on top.

Dean was my other vent, my best vent. Sometimes when it all got too much, I'd be an extra bad girl to get some spanking and really rough sex.
I'd go and visit him at the office for some sex sometimes. Sex has definitely been a good vent for me and not having any of it last night isn't exactly helping me now either. Damn I could do with some sex right now.

"Sweetheart you need to eat a little more", Sean demands while devouring a crazy amount of all kinds of things the room service brought up. Dean made sure to pre order everything.

I stare down at my plate I've had a bit of fruit and now I'm staring at my scrambled eggs, bacon and sausages. There's a whole platter with fruit and cheese, different kinds of bread. Of course I have some fruit scones amongst it too, Dean knows they're my favourite. There are pancakes, waffles, cereals, yoghurt, fresh orange juice, coffee, tea it's simply crazy. What the hell was he thinking when he ordered this?

I think he's going just as much out of his mind as Gale and the wedding planner. Talking of which I know she'll be here within the next hour. Nancy is perfect in her job and she's dealt with a lot of celebrity weddings. According to Gale we're lucky we were able to get her in the first place as she usually has a waiting list of about two years and is very picky about which weddings she accepts to plan. Guess the name Dean Arlington was enough to get her.

The same as Gale she's been guiding this wedding all the way through. The look on her face, when she found out she only had a little over five months to organize the wedding was hilarious. She even panicked because I didn't have a dress yet, next to the location that was the first to do on her list.

"Hey Sweetheart, stop dreaming. You need to eat now and then get underneath that shower. If you're not ready by the time Nancy comes, I swear I'm leaving this room. No way am I getting in the way of that crazy lady", I can't help but chuckle at Sean's words. Yes Nancy is great but insane and infuriating at the same time.

Anyone who knows me, knows I can stand up to anything, but seriously if anything goes wrong today, lord have mercy on that person who gets Nancy's wrath. Sure as hell I'm not getting in her way today either, even if she makes me feel special all the way through.

When we went to choose the wedding dress, I got a little emotional and kept on crying. First of all I realized I had no mum or dad there to pick it with me or who would even give a shit. And choosing a dress only four weeks after giving birth to twins wasn't exactly ideal either. Gale and Nancy both were assuring me I still look beautiful even if I felt like I had just given birth to an elephant and my tummy was more like one of a sumo wrestler. Ok maybe not quite as bad, but I felt like that anyway.

The dress was one of the biggest issues for me. Besides the other reasons, it wasn't easy to choose just any dress either. As someone marrying Dean Arlington the dress had to be superior. Once I found my dress, I cried again falling in love with it. A dress that had to be altered about five times, due to my weight loss and physical progresses. A dress I'll be wearing in less than five hours from now.

Once I've finally eaten enough to please Sean, he dismisses me for the shower while he takes care of Phoebe and Leo. Those two have become a handful since they've started crawling about a week ago. Phoebe our lively bundle was the first one to discover it and it didn't take Leo long to copy her.

Now I also know who was the lively and who was the calm one during the pregnancy. Phoebe was definitely the lively one, she sleeps a lot less than Leo, she's always active and trying to push herself to explore new things. She's also the one to fuss a lot faster if she gets bored, Leo is a little more easy going and it seems like he watches his sister a lot to copy what ever she is doing.

Dean says Phoebe is like me, stubborn, full of willpower and a tiny loveable spitfire. Even if they're only half a year old, you can clearly see the difference in character between the two of them. But also how much they love each other. They only go to sleep in their own bed, if we put them in one together. And it's so god damn cute to see how they snuggle up to each other.

Phoebe tends to steal Leo's dummy though each time, while putting her own aside.

While I'm in the shower I try to sooth my nerves by simply thinking about all these small special moments we've had with our babies in the last half a year. Two weeks after the birth we were allowed to leave the hospital. Dean took as much home office time as possible in the first couple of weeks, which went fairly smooth thanks to Gina's support.

Images of Dean with our little ones on his bare chest flash through my mind. It's possibly the cutest and hottest thing I've ever seen in one. Then the look of pure love everytime Dean comes home and looks at us, the happy look on his face whenever he looks at either one of us.

All the doubts I had last autumn are washed away with just one look into that gorgeous man's face.

And when ever Phoebe or Leon giggle while Dean plays with them, makes my heart speed up everytime. They're babies, but he knows exactly how to handle them. Knows where they are ticklish the most or how to get their attention with the rattles or simply talk to them in a calming way. That's the man I'm marrying today.

After thinking about all these small things I feel a little calmer and start looking forward to today.

Wrapped up in my sexy wedding lingerie and a silk night gown I enter my room again. Knowing the hairdresser will be taking care of my hair in less than an hour I don't blow dry my hair either.

I laugh when I enter the main room again and find Sean playfully crawling behind Phoebe and Leo who are giggling. Leo seems a little too exhausted already, turns to lie on his back and instead sticks his feet in his mouth while his eyes follow his sister who is now crawling around him. Hopefully they get exhausted enough now, to sleep through the ceremony later on.

My phone buzzes and a message from Dean appears causing me to smile just at the sight of his name. Seems like we aren't keeping totally to Gales rules of no contact before the wedding.

Dean: How are you my Love? I'm missing all three of you like crazy. Can't wait to see you in a couple of hours!!!

Kiara: We're missing you too! You still have time to do a runner now

Dean: Now I know what the sports car in front of the door was meant for

Kiara: Last chance Dean, after this afternoon you're stuck to me

Dean: Stuck to or in you? Either way I want both. No chance of getting rid of me anymore, later on you'll be fully mine, even by name

Kiara: Don't get stuck, I rather like it when you push in and out of me. You can make me fully yours when I scream out your name

I smirk at sending him this tiny dirty message

Dean: Oh Honey, you'll be screaming out my name as my freshly wedded wife all night

Kiara: Promise??? Because right now I feel desperate for you to fuck me. Feel you making me yours

Dean: Do you have any idea how fucking hard I'm over here, just thinking about it? You're in for the night of your life Kar

Kiara: Can't wait. Need to go Nancy will be here any second

Dean: You'll find me at the end of the aisle later on

Kiara: What colour is your tux? Not that I accidentally marry the wrong man

Dean: Hahaha, don't you dare even think about it

Kiara: Just in case you wonder I won't be hard to miss either, you'll see when I get there in my bright pink dress. I love you! See ya later

Dean: Love you more, can't wait. Later hun

Only minutes later I hear the knock at the door Nancy and Gale have arrived. Apparently, Nancy has already been to our location where we're marrying, making sure everything is being prepared as it should be. She scares the shit out of me when she yells through the phone because the wedding cake hasn't been delivered yet. And there was me thinking I could be a badass and impatient.

Gale gives me a huge smile and hug. "How are you feeling darling?"

"Excited and nervous", I lower my voice for only her to hear. "And a little scarred of Nancy to be honest." Gale looks across to Nancy who is still yelling orders through the phone and laughs.

"You should have heard her ramble away beforehand. She was beyond pissed because the table clothes apparently now are an off white instead of an eggshell white like she had ordered. Honestly, I couldn't tell the difference but for her it was a huge desaster and she's saying the whole colour scheme has been messed up through it. She's the best but I admit she is scary. Guess you could do her job very well too, you can boss around and infuriate people too, if needed."

I laugh at her statement, guess Nancy and I are both powerful women but I'm sure not made for her job. All this fancy stuff isn't my world, the only fancy thing I'm into are fancy cars.

Nancy goes the whole schedule for the day through with me once more, which only stresses me even more. I'm afraid I might pick up a spoon or whatever at the wrong time the way she is acting at the moment. Even if she keeps on telling me to relax and it's all in her hands now.

"Well Darling, you enjoy Emilio and Shirley taking care of you they'll be here any minute. Drink some champagne and relax. I'll be heading to the location already and I'm going to make sure everything is going to be as it should be. You just enjoy your day now and don't worry about anything. Oh and your flowers will be arriving in about an hour here too."

"Thanks Nancy", I say with a smile before she rushes out of the door again.

I stifle a laugh when Sean lets out a heavy breath he was holding. Guess he was afraid she would lecture him once more about how to take me down the aisle and all that. Yes that's going to be Sean's job today. Not only will he take me down the aisle, but as I don't have a female friend I trust, I don't have brides maides but I have Sean my man of honour. Nancy wasn't exactly pleased about it, but once she accepted it she kept on briefing him.

The knock at the door tells us Emilio and Shirley have arrived. Gale goes to let them in all excited. Yesterday I already had a spa day with Gale, massages, face masks, getting our nails done, I had my waxing freshly done and later on we sipped some alcohol-free cocktails at a pool bar.

Alcohol free as I'm still breast feeding but for tonight I've pumped off enough milk to feed the two and still have a few drinks.

Emilio and Shirley are ever so sweet while they take care of my hair and make up. Alone taking care of that takes us two and a half hours. A part of my hair is braided up, while soft curls fall out of it in an elegant and beautiful way. Giving it a romantic flair, just as I wanted.

"I love the colour of your hair and they are ever so soft", Emilio gushes while pinning more needles into my hair to secure them. "You're going to be a stunning bride. Those magazines are going to go crazy over you. Oh and your husband to be even more."

Shirley has made sure to define my eyes and high cheek bones. Once she's finished I don't feel like she's caked me, it's very soft and natural. Only my eyes have been accentuated a little stronger with eyeliner and a decent amount of mascara. The eyeshadow applied though is very soft and natural just as my soft pale pink glossed lipstick. There's not much change, it's so natural and yet it looks beautiful and I'm for once happy with myself.

"Watch it, you're going to cover the next vogue magazine", Sean says softly.

"Yea, right", I laugh but do feel very happy about his loving words.

My heavy breasts tell me, it's about time to feed Phoebe and Leo, which is ideal once more before I need to get into my dress. With their current size it's impossible to feed both at once, so I take Leo first who is already a little cranky. His soft two different coloured eyes look up at me while I gently stroke his cheeks. I can watch the eyes getting heavier by the minute until he is finished feeding and gives into a slumber. After letting him give a burp softly against my shoulder, I lay him in the cot.

Phoebe looks up with the same unusual two different coloured eyes. Something they both have from their daddy. The difference is, Phoebe is still quirky and keeps on stopping to drink, just to give me a huge grin while she holds on to my thumb on my free hand. No idea why, but she seems to find it very amusing today.

"Come on my little cutie pie, you need to drink. Mummy needs to get ready to make your daddy hopefully speechless for once", I say softly, only causing her to stop again and give me a huge smile. She loves when I talk to her, they both do. Let's see how long we can keep this up.

Once Phoebe is finished, Gale comes into the room. She is now fully dressed and made up herself.

"Come on Darling, let me take care of these two. I'll get them fresh nappies and changed into their clothes, while you get into that beautiful dress of yours."

Like I say, the dress was a real issue. Nancy told me if I want to be all up to fashion I'm to choose a mermaid dress, which I wasn't fond of in anykind of way.

Somehow, I always imagined to marry in a princess dress with tons of tulle and a wide puffed skirt. Well I had to realize quite fast, a wide puffed skirt isn't exactly ideal with a wheelchair. Even the dress I chose is a little too wide with still a little tulle fluffing it up slightly, but it's ok. Especially as I have plans.

"Holy shit", Sean exclaims looking at my lingerie when I strip off my night gown to get into my dress. "Even as a gay guy I can say that bit of french lace lingerie is smoking hot on you Kar. Dean's lucky Tyler isn't here to help you with the dress, he'd be jumping your bones right now. Jeez even I'm tempted to smack that hot ass of yours and if boobs were my thing then you'd have me in love now. Perhaps I'm a little turned on just now."

Sean has me blushing hard. As he's gay I didn't think twice about stripping down in front of him to get into my dress. Perhaps I should have asked Gale. Normally I would come up with some snarky comment now, but I'm simply so out of mode due to the wedding, that I can't think straight.

"Alright Sean, before we find out you aren't gay after all and just need my sexy ass, let's get me into this dress."

"Ok Princess then hold on to this chair for more safety, while you stand up", and I do.

As soon as everything is in it's place and Sean has closed the unbelievable amount of buttons on my back, I stand and stare into the mirror for minutes. Sean calls the others in and Emilio places the vail on top of my head fixating it with a beautiful silver comb with tiny sapphire blue stones in it. Something old, I found it in a store for antiques.

Gale hands me a pearl necklace and some pearl earings from her. "Now you have something old, something new, something borrowed and something blue."

I didn't want any huge jewellery. Dean wanted to buy me all kinds of special sparkly and with huge diamonds jewellery. But my dress is special enough, fancy jewellery on top would have simply been too much.

I take another look in the mirror and the tears start flowing again. For once I really do like myself and feel special. My dress is even more beautiful than I had remembered and seeing the full package now is just more than I had ever expected. With awe my hands run carefully over the fabric of the dress, taking it in fully.

"You think he's going to like it?", I ask thoughtfully and a little scared now.

"Of course he will, he'll be over the moon", Gale swoons.

Sean whispers in my ear. "I'll