"What do you think he's going to do?" Quinn asks as she sits next to me on the front bumper of my car, grinning at a couple of jocks that walk past us.

I shrug as I chew my gum. "Dunno."

"Why are you playing hard to get?"

I look at her with narrowed eyes, frowning slightly at her question. "Why can't I?"

"Because I think you guys are the perfect match." I begin to protest but she talks over me, smirking as she crossed her arms over her chest. "And I think that you don't want to let him in after what Daniel did to you two years back."

"Of course not." I scoff, flicking my hair over my shoulder. "Why should I?"

"You have to let someone in besides me." She scowls with another roll of her eyes. This girl seriously loves rolling her eyes.

"What if I don't want to?" I whisper, quietly as I look at my best friend.

"You need to stop thinking about what if and start thinking about the what now."

"Paris!" My head turns away from Quinn and I look at Jay, a smirk on his face as he holds a ball in his hands.

"What?" I scowl, clearly not in a good mood.

"Catch." Suddenly a ball shoots towards me and I panic but I catch it, frowning at Jay. "Read."

I turn the ball and read the black words that was marked onto the ball. My eyes furrow as I look back at Jay, who had a clear and cocky smirk on his lips,wiggling his eyebrows suggestively. Quinn snickers slightly and nudges me in the side.

I'm not that easy.

I lift the ball up and throw it back to Jay, who surprisingly catches it without getting harmed. Obviously the idea was Travis', seeing as he's done it to plenty of girls but I'm not an easy lay. I'm Paris Gold. Queen of this high school.

Damn him.

"Well?" He asks, his pretty eyes, pleading as he gives an adorable pout, making me reconsider my decision.

"I'm not that easy." I slip off the bumper and enter my car, watching Quinn giggle as she enters after me, smirking at the lost boy in the car park.

"Awe, bless him." Quinn coos, winking at him while putting her belt on.

"I'm so mean." I grin and pull out the carpark, driving away from the confused Jay standing in the empty parking lot.

I sit on my bed doing my homework when I hear taps against my window. I frown and cautiously head up to the window, grabbing a pillow in case it is a killer. I open the window and peer over the ledge to see Jay smirking at me and God, he looks sexy.

"What?" I scowl and his smirk grows wider, creeping me out a little.

"Come out, my fair Paris." Jay shouts in a Shakespearian voice.

I refrain myself from giggling like a school girl and roll my eyes at him. "Why Romeo?"

"Because I need to see you my Juliet." He mocks and I stifle a laugh and sigh.

"But you can see me tomorrow?" I suggest, rolling my eyes.

"I could." He smirks. "But this won't last long."

He glances over to the side and I follow his gaze, cupping my mouth in awe and shock when I see it. Candles all lit up, set out to form the word 'Date?', and I swoon, pouting adorably at him. He winks at me and I nod happily, trying to hold back my excitement even though it's clear on my face.

"I'll be down." I walk over to my closet and change into a white soft jumper and black ripped leggings with white adidas trainers. Lastly I tie my hair in a rough French plait and keeping my makeup to a minimal.

When I'm done, I tiptoe down the stairs, careful not to wake up Dad, then open the front door to see Jay leaning against one of the tall pillar, all the candle blown out and tided away. He holds a single rose in his hand and I grin as he passes it over.

"I was waiting." He says and I hook my arms through his after placing the rose into a vase on the drawer besides the front door.

"So was I." I reply. "Where are we heading to?"

"This way."

He leads to his car and I slip inside, anticipation running through my body. Jay smiles at me before starting the car and diving us to who knows where.

I tap my fingers against the window to the same beat as the music that is blaring out the speakers. As we drive, we pass the restaurants that guys usually take me to, the cinema and my most favourite place, the mall.

I frown and look at Jay, who still had a smirk attached onto his lips. "Where are we going? You're not killing me right?"

He chuckles and shakes his head. Again he falls silent as I watch the building fade away and trees come into view. He drives up a curve towards a cliff and my frown deepens once Jay parks in the empty space near the cliff. Around the cliff are gates but near the edge of the cliff is a blanket with a basket on top of it.

"Thought you'd like something new." Jay says and exits the car before coming around to my side and helps me out.

Our fingers entwine as we walk over to the blanket. The slightly warm breeze hits us as the moons light glisten on top of us.

"I got something." He grins and pulls out pizzas from the basket.

I gasp and laugh as I watch Jay set it down on the plates.

"Quinn told me you like pizzas." He answers the unspoken question in my mind.

"What about this?" I gesture around us.

"That was all me." Jay grins proudly and I laugh.

"You did well Mr Stone." I kid in approval as I take a bite into the slice of pizza. The cheesy taste lingering in my mouth once I've finish the slice off.

"Thank you Miss Gold." Jay sips on a can of beer and passes me one.

"So, Paris, tell me how you became?"

My body tenses up because it's a story I don't like recalling. However I sigh and give in, a part of me actually wanting to tell someone while the other is keeping the darkest parts locked tightly away.

"I used to get bullied around," I swallow and feel Jay's intense gaze on me while I look out in the distance. "Since the beginning, after mom left, that's when it got bad. I was upset and confused at such a young age and I would put the blame that she left on me. I still believe that because I feel deep down it's true. They were happy before I came along and now..." Tears swell up and I try blink them away but it's doesn't stop.

"So I ate quiet a lot. Of course I gained a lot and people made fun of me. Then Daniel came along and found me crying in the library one day. He took me in, made me more confident about myself." I lock eyes with Jay and frown when I see pity in his eyes, the one thing I never wish to see.

"He stole my innocence. I was ecstatic, my boyfriend took my virginity. Little did I know that he was screwing Sara behind my back."

I exhale deeply. "Sophomore year year, I found out about them. Daniel and I had been going out for a year and a half and I find out what he's been doing. That's when Blake comes in. He finds me wreaking Daniels car one night and being the dick he is, he helps me wreak the car without question.

The next day, he came over and asked what happened. I broke down because I couldn't hold it anymore, only Quinn knew what I was going through at that moment. Blake didn't like Daniel because of some other shit but he wanted to destroy Daniel. When Junior year came, I was slimmer, prettier and a player because that's what he taught me to do. Don't allow shit from anyone." I wipe away the tear on my cheek and look up at the starlight sky.

"Blake and I had hooked up while he dated other girls and I dated other boys. From there it was easy to break Daniel because of all the connection we had. I took away his football career, his popularity and his friends. I took it away from him. During all that, Blake stood by my side and Quinn was proud of me for standing up for myself. She had a lot of connections and that's how we met Travis, Leo and Rose."

I exhale in relief as the weight I've been carrying had just come off my shoulder. Jay sits in silent, probably processing what I've told him. I am fully expecting him to get up and leave because I have way too much emtonio all damage on me. This is only half of it.

"I never thought it was that bad." Jay replies, his tone soft and warm like a safe haven. "Come here."

He stands up and holds his hand out, I reluctantly take it and let him pull me up and drag me over to the edge of the cliff. I gasp at the beauty I am looking at. The city glistening from up here, the lights acting like stars in the black backdrop.

"It's beautiful." I mumble.

"My mom once told me that every star was a broken heart. Then one day the moon told them to sparkle next to him, telling them that they are not alone. That there were broken hearts all over the world." Jay explains and wraps his arms around my waist. I relax into his muscular arms and smile gently.

"You're not alone Paris. I promise you're not going to be alone." His mouth hot against my ear and I sigh in content.

I turn my body so that I'm facing him and hook my arms around his neck, feeling his arms tug my closer.

"Promises hurt. Don't promise something you might not be able to keep." I whisper.

"Can I promise to kiss you?" Jay raises his eye and I tiptoe to his height to meet his lips.

The kiss is sweet and innocent, sparks shooting through my body. I press harder against him and I feel his growl as Jay deepens the kiss. He bites on my lower lip and I moan quietly as she cups my face, his thumb rubbing against my cheeks soothingly. My arms wrapped around his waist as I leaned up to properly meet his lips.

Content is the only word I am feeling right now.

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Edited 3.2.17

My friends are so beautiful. They make me a better person and I thank God everyday for blessing me with them. They are my family and my safe haven.

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