"Wait" Eliza said, for about the twelfth time. "The plane, it's delayed?"

I rolled my eyes "No Eliza" I began "It says delayed across the fucking screen for no reason"

"Language!" Aunt Jen interjected scoldingly, from the seat across of me.

I rolled my eyes, huffing before crossing my arms across my chest. "She deserved it"

Let me just clarify the exact events of what had happened, and explain why I was in such a bad mood. It had all started when we were all ready to leave the house. Finally, everything was packed, all the bags were in the cab and miraculously, we were able to leave the house early for once. Of course, I should have known better. Eliza was supposed to be the last one to leave the house, we handed the keys to her and everything. That's when things took a turn for the worse.

Eliza was supposed to wear her favourite red pumps to go with her outfit, why she was wearing five inch heels to the airport I had no idea, but I decided not to question her anyway. But when she found out that the heels she planned on wearing had a streak of mud on them, she broke down. It literally did not matter that she had five other heels in the exact same colour, she was determined on packing an entire new outfit altogether. This situation would have been perfectly fine considering we still had time, had it been any other person. Of course Eliza being, well Eliza, it meant that it took another hour of waiting for her to pack another outfit.

We had to drag her out of the house.

We were all sprinting out of the cab towards airport security in hopes of catching the goddamn flight, but to no avail. The flight had already set off, almost an entire minute before we had reached airport. Of course, that meant we would have to catch the next flight, but that was delayed.

It was safe to say that none of us were happy with Eliza.

"Can you cool it with the sarcasm?" Jordan asked, placing an arm around Eliza.

"Maybe I'd calm down if we were actually on the fucking plane" I muttered spitefully.

"Juliette, language!" Aunt Jen said once again.

"I'm sorry but let's all be honest. For one second can you please pay attention to someone apart from yourself? You couldn't find your perfect red shoes, despite having five of the exact same pairs and now we're waiting for a delayed plane. You do realise that we can't be late to Isla's wedding at any cost, and that should be fine for the rest of you considering you can actually sleep on the plane, it's gonna be me who won't sleep for 48 hours." I ranted, extremely pissed off.

Everybody sat in silence for a moment, all afraid to speak before Eliza decided to. "Did you take your m-"

She started speaking but I immediately knew what she was going to ask "Did I take my what, Eliza? Go ahead, say it. You think I'm acting this was because I'm sick" I spat, for that moment, completely forgetting that Levi was besides me.

"Maybe the two of you need to be separated" Levi spoke up finally, standing between Eliza and I.

"That's a good idea" Jordan agreed, bring Eliza closer towards him.

"No, I don't care she needs to hear this" Eliza interrupted "Can you two leave us for a moment?"

They both exchanged nervous glances before hesitantly nodding.

"Hear what?" I questioned spitefully.

"I have no idea why you're behaving this way but I'm pretty sure it has something to do with your pills. Juliette I'm not expecting an apology because I know I was wrong but you will regret everything you say when you take your pills and calm down" she instructed calmly.

But I wasn't calm. "You think I'm ill. You think I'm pissed off at you because I haven't taken my fucking medication, well guess what Eliza. For once can you not just accept that I'm pissed off at you"

Before Eliza could even retaliate we were interrupted. "I can hear you two fighting from across the airport, come on, we're going to Starbucks" Levi said in my ear as I huffed

I walked with Levi towards the coffee store but when I turned around for the split second I saw Eliza cry and Jordan hug her.

I immediately felt bad

"I'm such a bitch" I muttered, putting my face in my hands

Levi chuckled "No you're not"

"How can you stand to be with an evil person like me?" I questioned

"Come on book girl, let's go get you something to drink" he said to me as I refused to look up at him.

I immediately felt guilty for shouting at Eliza. For the past few days I had basically been avoiding my medication at all costs, I had done it once before and it didn't turn out well. Why I did it again, I had no idea.

The first time was when I was fifteen, I wasn't the happiest fifteen year old in the world, let's just get that straight. For whatever 'rebellious' reason, I decided to avoid my medication completely in order to fit in. I wanted to be normal and I was aware of the fact that no other teenage girl took Xanax and SSRIs. Of course, all the medications had side effects, the worst one being migraines that would last days. Whilst I had gotten used to the migraines at seventeen, as a fifteen year old who was new to everything, I would literally do anything to avoid it.

Of course I had then discovered that the side effects to not taking the pills were worse than the side effects of the pill itself. My migraines stopped but my panic attacks increased, I couldn't even touch Eliza which was completely different, I was always agitated and I couldn't even go to school. It was safe to say I never avoided my pills again.

Until now.

Now I did it again, I thought I had everything under control. Unlike last time when I did it to be normal, this time I did it because I thought I could handle it. I handled it pretty well. Today was my third day avoiding all pills, my panic attacks were low but that didn't mean that I was any less agitated. And what had happened just now pretty much proved everything.

"Juliette" I distinctly heard Levi's voice as I came back to reality.

"Um-what?" I asked un surely. I had realised that we were both standing in a coffee shop. Both the barista and Levi were looking down at me expectantly. How and when we got here I had no idea but that didn't exactly matter at the moment.

He chuckled "I asked you what you wanted"

"Oh" I replied "A hot chocolate please"

The barista nodded his head "Classic or-"

"Classic" I interrupted, not exactly in the mood to listen to how many versions of hot chocolate they could possibly serve.

I could tell the barista thought I was rude, and I wouldn't be surprised if he spat in my drink but I ignored him anyway.

"She's not in the best mood" Levi said politely as the barista handed back the drinks.

He didn't spit in any of them, I watched.

Levi payed as I rolled my eyes. "I have money, you know" I muttered

He laughed "I'm sure you do"

I sighed "I mean, I could have payed for the drink"

He nodded, leading me to a table right at the back of the shop. "How about, if you insinuate whatever should be payed for, then you can pay. But because I brought up Starbucks. I'm paying"

I thought about it for a moment before agreeing. "That actually sounds like a pretty good plan, next time, I'm asking you out"

He chuckled "It's a date, book girl"

I took the lid of my hot chocolate and placed it in front of me, pouring an entire packet of sugar in the drink. "What are you drinking?" I asked curiously.

"Black coffee" He stated, taking a sip of his drink.

I furrowed my eyebrows "why do you like that?"

"It reminds me of you, it's black like your soul" he shrugged

I laughed "My soul is glittery as fuck, excuse you"

He chuckled along with me "Not what I heard from the guys in my gym class. I'm pretty sure more than half the boys in our school are afraid of you"

I smiled "It's the black" I responded, gesturing towards my clothing.

He shook his head "I think it had something to do with Dylan and James"

My eyes widened when I heard their names as I cringed slightly "Yeah, I may or may not have scarred them for life"

He snickered from in front of me "Please remind me what you did to them"

I smirked "Not much, I just was able to catch the glue stick they threw at me because I have lightening fast reflexes"

He shook his head once again "Definitely not what I heard"

I bit my lip, scrunching my nose slightly "I also may or may not have threatened to find out where they lived and slit their throats whilst they were sleeping"

He burst out laughing "Yeah" he began sarcastically "I have no idea why people fear you"

I gasped "Excuse me, it's not my fault they insist on pissing me off when I'm in a bad mood"

His laughter calmed down as he offered me his drink. I took it from his hand and took a tiny sip, scrunching my nose in distaste when it touched my tongue.

He chuckled "You're cute"

I shook my head childishly "never drinking that again"

He paused for a moment, almost hesitant on asking me something before he continued "Have you ever been in a relationship before?"

I froze. Up until a few months ago, I hadn't even spoken to another boy apart from Jordan. I refused to get close with anybody apart from Jordan and Eliza, it was just easier not explaining everything about myself to every person who came into my life. Of course I hadn't had a boyfriend.

I laughed nervously "I mean, considering all boys are afraid of me, I'd have to say no"

He smiled "You've never kissed anybody?"

I shook my head once again.

"Why not?"

I paused for a minute "I'm pretty sure no boys know I exist"

"Everyone knows you exist. You're extremely hard to ignore considering you're such a know-it-all" He joked as I smiled

"Okay, let me rephrase that then" I started "I'm pretty sure no guy has actually liked me enough to want to be my boyfriend"

Levi smirked "I've known some guys who've liked you"

Suddenly I was pretty interested "Really who?"

"Jack, Blake, Connor, Jason" He effortlessly listed as I stared at him.

"Should I be afraid that you were able to list all those names so quickly?" I asked

He laughed "Jack and Connor both liked you when we were fifteen" he started "They thought you were hot"

I groaned "classic fifteen year olds"

He nodded "Jason liked you last year" he continued "Apparently you're not only hot at the age of sixteen, but you're also nice and smart"

I rolled my eyes. I swear if I roll my eyes any more times today they're going get stuck at the back of my head. "Because that's an upgrade"

He chuckled "and don't tell Blake I told you this, but he actually has a crush on you right now"

I automatically blushed thinking about how somebody could actually like me. "Yeah I think I've spoken to him a few times, actually"

"See" he said "you have plenty of guys to choose from"

I don't want any other guy. I want you.

"The only reason most of them liked me is because they thought I was hot, which by the way also means they're blind" I shrugged

Levi smirked "I think you are hot" he simply stated.

"And I think you are delusional" I retaliated

He just laughed "You're extremely different to all the other girls I have met, you know that right?"

I sighed "Something tells me that the girls you have met were terrible people"

He nodded "They were, they were self obsessed and thought they were beautiful. You are the opposite."

"I don't do it to be noble" I automatically said it "I genuinely believe that you are delusional"

He chuckled for the hundredth time tonight "I might just be. It doesn't change my opinion about you though"

Originally written: 3/10/15
Accidentally deleted: 23/10/15
Angrily re-written: 29/10/15
Posted: 8/01/16