"This is somethin' I never wanted but since I met you I've been on it
I think about you all the time, can't get you off my mind
I know this can't be love but baby it must be love
Thinkin' I'm going all the way, I wanna show you but I'm afraid
I know you say it's all on me, maybe tonight I'll let you see
I know this can't be love but baby it must be love"

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Chapter 67: Must be love

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|Ariana|💕

3 weeks later

I've just been looking at my engagement ring in awe, it's been three weeks since I got engaged and I've been over the moon...

imagine my last name now, Ariana Beckham...

nah, this man is taking my last name..

sike, I'm taking his last name...

I was cut off from my thoughts when I felt Odell touch my bump...

"hey baby" he said..

"hey handsome" I said kissing up on him, "you want breakfast"

"ever since I gave you that ring, you've been touchy feely with me" he said chuckling..

"I can't believe we're engaged baby" I said, "I thought this would never happen"

"that's the funny thing about life baby" Odell said, "anyway, you have any idea where the wedding is gonna be here?"

well for starters, I really wanted it to be a tropical wedding you know but then again, I really want my whole family to be there...

"ari, can I ask you a question?" Odell asked me..

"what is it?" I said to him..

"who's gonna walk you down the aisle" he asked me...

I just stopped, like just stopped thinking, I always wanted Kyle to do it but that isn't gonna happen as you can see he is 6 feet underground..

and there's no male that is willing to walk me down the aisle except..

my dad...

I have no idea where he is, we never talk, he always talks to me when he needs something and I hate that...

I didn't know I was crying when odell was wiping a tear on my face with a thumb...

"you okay?" he asked me..

"yeah I'm okay" I said, "I just didn't know wedding planning was this hard"

"you don't have to lie to me Ari" he said, "I know it's about the question, listen, why don't you ask my dad, he probably doesn't mind"

"no, it's fine odell" I said, "I think it's time that I have that conversation with him"

"you sure?" he asked me

"yeah, I'm positive" I said

but to be honest for the first time in a long time, I might be nervous and I'm never nervous..

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I was in the lounge room, just chilling writing down ideas for the wedding..

Odell is at practice with his team mate, I couldn't go because of this damn baby, I love her or him but I need this baby, to leave asap..

my thoughts were cut off when I heard my phone ring, I checked to see who was calling me and it was none other then my mom...

I answered it..

"hey mom" I said..

"hey baby" she said, "how are you and my grandchild"

"me and your grandchild is okay, even tho your grandchild is kicking my ass, I have been vomiting none stop"

"awww baby" she said, "you should ask Odell's mom for help"

did y'all know my mom and Odell's mom are good friends, who would've thought...

"I will" I said..

"you better" she said, "but enough about that, how was the wedding planning going?" 

"uhh it's going okay, I just started writing down some ideas" I said, "uhm mom can I ask you a question"

"sure" she said, "what is it?"

okay here goes nothing...

"it's about dad" I said, "where is he?"

I really need to ask my mom this question because she probably know his whereabouts, I mean me and my sisters don't... 

"he's here in Atlanta Ari" she said, "he didn't come to the family reunion and I told him about how you're engaged and.."

"you know what forget it" I said..

"why do you want to know" she asked me..

the water works, god damn it

"Odell asked if someone is gonna walk me down the aisle ma" I said crying, "why am I so emotional"

"awww baby" she said, "I'm so sorry"

I hate the thought that my dad is gonna not walk me down the aisle, it blows my mind when I think about it...

"listen Ari" she spoke up, "let me go talk to him and I'll get back to you, I think you two should have a conversation"

"okay" I said, "thank you ma"

"you welcome Ariana" she said, "please don't cry Ari"

I nodded when she said that and with that the phone call ended...

I put my phone down and rubbed on my belly.. I hope odell doesn't do the same thing to our kid..

other wise I will kill him...

I felt a light kiss on my neck..

I turned around to see it was odell...

"hey baby" he said, "I brought you food mc Donalds to be exact"

I got off the couch and hugged him... I just wanted to hug my baby..

"woah, what's with the hug baby" he asked chuckling...

"I love you" I said while hugging him...

"I love you too baby" he said, "you still want your food or nah"

"oh I still want my food" I said laughing taking it out of my hand...

he gave me a kiss on the forehead..

"yeah, I'm just looking out for my baby" Odell said rubbing my stomach, "listen, let me go shower and we can have a movie night okay"

and with that he walked up the stairs to go to the bathroom to his thing..

I just smiled at the thought of the family life that we about to have and I honestly can't wait for that..