It was almost 11 p.m. I was getting ready for bed. Dara was already in bed, she switched off like a light as soon as her head hits the pillow.  I sat on my bed, brushing my hair and putting it up in a bun. I glanced at my phone. I picked it up and looked through it. I wonder what Caleb is doing right now. When I went up the stairs, he was talking to my dad about buying a car. I wanted some time alone with him, but I was too shy to go to him. I mean, he couldn't possibly come here with Dara in the room. I even wore a simple slinky white teddy for him. I suddenly felt ridiculous. What if he laughed at me since I look weird in it. I'd probably die of embarrassment.

I have this problem where I usually find it hard to tell Caleb what I want. If I miss him, I would rather suffer in silence than tell him so. If I want a hug or a kiss,it's so hard for me to make the first move. I guess it's because I feel inferior with how I look compared to Caleb. No matter how many times Caleb tells me he wants me or that I look sexy, I still find it hard to believe him. It was like I was worried he might reject me. He never did but that still doesn't make me feel secure enough to make the first move. I mean, imagine how horrible it would feel if I want to kiss him, but he turns away. Oh God. I would die. I dunno why I have these irrational thoughts. I guess it's down to me being aware that in terms of looks, Caleb is sooo much more better looking than I deserve. He deserves to have a hotter girlfriend. Not a fat schlep like me. So, yeah. This is something that I have to work on. Especially now, since it's been 5 months since the last time we touched, or kiss or hug. And I really, really want to. I'm not like horny for sex and all that. Just to hold him. I miss holding him and have him hold me.

Maybe I should text him. I mean, I can't just knock on his door. It's too embarrassing. But I want to be with him. Fine, we're in the same house, texting each other is weird. I took a deep breath and put on my dressing gown as I walked out of my room and headed towards dad's study downstairs, where Caleb was staying since all the other rooms were occupied.

I stopped in front of the door and squirmed. I don't know why I should be shy. Well, I guess,since me being there kinda means that I am telling Caleb that I want him, it is a little embarrassing. Yeah, yeah, me and my huge ego...

Suddenly my phone vibrated. It was obnoxiously loud in the silent hallway. I fished it out of my dressing gown pocket and read it. It was from Caleb.

Baby, are you asleep?

I stared at the text and smiled. Taking a deep breath, I knocked on the door. Almost instantly, the door swung open. I was greeted with a shirtless Caleb, wearing his most gorgeous smile and a pair of drawstring pants Damn.

Wordlessly, his arm shot out and he pulled me into the study. I followed with anticipation. Caleb closed the door. Then he turned to me and pulled me in a hug. I hugged him happily. I sighed in contentment. God, I miss holding him.

"Baby, you feel so good. I missed you." Caleb murmured into my hair. I smiled and buried my face against his collarbone.

"I missed you too." I murmured as snuggled closer, inhaling his gorgeous sexy scent.

Caleb slowly  slipped his hands around my waist to hug me closer. He suddenly jerked away and looked at me. He smiled that smirky smile and looked at me teasingly. I was like, uh-oh.... Caleb slowly slipped off the dressing gown from my shoulders and it fell to the floor in a silky heap around my ankles. Caleb pulled away a little bit to get a better look at the teddy I was wearing. As cool air hit my bare shoulders, I shivered a bit. Caleb's warm, pleasantly rough hands touched my naked arms and shoulders as his eyes drank my whole body.

"Wow...you look so sexy..I like this a lot..suits you perfectly.."Caleb murmured as he kissed me from my temple to my jawline. I shivered. Damn him. I turn to mush when Caleb did this. Especially when the last time he touched me was 5 months ago. I didn't know how I survived without Caleb near me, but I did. Somehow.

"I was waiting for you. I thought you're not coming"Caleb said as he looked at me, his hands all over me. Goosepimples prickled my skin. I took a ragged breath and looked at him. I bit my lip and looked sheepish.

"I was..um, too shy to come here on my own." I blurted out before I could stop myself. Caleb frowned as he looked at me.

"Why would you feel shy? It's just me. And I thought I told you to always, always tell me what you want. I mean, if you want a hug, or a kiss or if you want me, for any reason, just tell me." Caleb said as he cupped my face and then kissed me softly.

"I just feel like if I asked for it, or make the first move, and you're not in the mood, you'd reject me. And I will die if you reject me asking for a kiss." I said, not meeting Caleb's eyes. He peered at me and chuckled in disbelief.

"Baby, have you seen how you look like?! You're so crazy gorgeous and sexy as eff that it took all I have not to just eat you up! And you asking for a kiss or any kind of intimacy, is a huge turn on. Like, really huge...There's nothing sexier than a woman who makes it obvious that she wants  you. Seriously baby...you have nothing to worry about me rejecting you. That will never, ever happen. Never, okay? So, please,tell me what you want me to do for you." Caleb pleaded. I looked at him and we hugged.

"Ok." I said quietly against Caleb's neck.

"Okay, so tell me what you want me to do now." Caleb whispered in my ears.

"I want you to kiss me," I whispered as I looked up into his face. Caleb smiled and kissed me softly. I closed my eyes and enjoyed feeling him with me. Slowly, I felt Caleb pushing down my spagghetti straps and kissing my neck and shoulders and I was lost....
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Later when we were in bed, I gathered my courage. I had to ask him. It's eating me from the inside.

"Um, Caleb, so you're pretty close with Cassie huh?" I asked carefully, but casually. I sneaked a peek at Caleb who was lying with his arm around me. His eyes were closed at first. When he heard my question, he opened one eye and looked at me. I didn't meet his eye and just stared at his chest.

"Baby, we just train together. That's all. Plus, she's in a relationship. Like me. With her girlfriend back home." Caleb said in a sleepy voice. I sat up suddenly and accidentally pushed too hard against his chest. He groaned and chuckled.

"You mean, she's gay?! Seriously?!" I asked excitedly. Caleb chuckled sleepily with his eyes half open, looking at me.

"Yes, Baby. But keep it a secret. She hasn't come out yet. I'm telling you this because I don't want you to go crazy making false assumptions about me and her. Okay?" Caleb said as he held me tighter.

"Okay.." I said dutifully.

"Goodnight Baby...love you" Caleb mumbled sleepily and held me tight. I snuggled closer and felt relieved.

"Goodnight, Caleb. I love you too. And I'll never leave you. Ever." I mumbled as I held him tighter and closed my eyes.

"Me too, Baby. Me too..." Caleb murmured as he drifted to sleep.
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A/N
And that's it for another chapter. Sounds blissfull and happy huh? Well, if you have been reading this a while, you'll know I have to stir up some trouble sometime...so, next chapter will be up soon, too. TGIF, people! Yeay! More time to update! So, guys, please vote and comment alright..love you!