I woke up with Shyla laying next to me with a worried look on her face. I guess I fell asleep while I was crying, I'm kind of getting sick of everyone looking at me with worried looks. I'm not going to break, I'm just tired of all the pressure and drama going on.

"Soph, can you please tell me what's going on? Blake is downstairs worrying his ass off because right after you asked him to give you some space and closed the door after him, he heard you crying. He didn't want to come back in because he was scared that you would get mad at him and he wanted to give you your space and time to think. He looked like he was about to break down. I can see that he doesn't like to see you like this." Shyla asked in the softest voice I have ever heard from her. I feel bad for letting Blake feel this way, and worrying everyone like this. 

"It's all just too much right now Shyla. Me going to the hospital, staying there for over a week, not being with the twins when they needed me. I just can't stand to be away from them for that long again." I said tears welling up in my eyes again because I still haven't seen them since I got home. Oh my gosh, I really am a terrible mother. 

"Soph, this wasn't your fault. The doctor said you would be fine, there's nothing you could've done to prevent that. I know this isn't all that has been bothering you. You need to open up to me so I can know where to try and help you." she said knowing very well that I was holding something from her.

"Shyla, Blake asked me if we could complete the mating process" I finally told her soflty.

"OK, and what is the problem with that Soph? I can see that he won't hurt you, nor leave you for that matter. That boy is madly, head over heels in love with you. What is stopping you from doing it?" she asked, adding a little smile, bumping her shoulder into mine slightly.

I giggled wiping the stray tear rolling down my cheek. "You really think he won't hurt me again? Is he really in love with me? Shy, what if this is all just for show ? What if he is playing us all? I want to complete the mating process, I know that now and I know Sapphire wants it too, but what if we do it and he ends up hurting us again you know? I'm just a little scared." I replied knowing damn well this girl will smack some sense into me if I don't get some myself.

"Oh my gosh, Sophia, get over it ok? He isn't like that, not anymore. He loves you too much to do anything like that to you again. Get over that fear of yours and go get your man waiting worriedly for you in the living room with your twins" she almost yelled at me pushing me slightly off the bed.

I laughed got of the bed and gave her a big hug."Thanks Shyla, what would I have ever done without you?"

"I don't know, rot away from life?" she replied sarcastically. We both laughed and headed downstairs. When I got into the living room I spotted Blake sitting with the twins in his arms. I walked over to him gave him a big smile and took Nova from him, giving him some loves and cuddles first, before grabbing Nevaeh and doing the same with her as well. 

I looked up at Blake and looked deep into his eyes,"We need to talk, got a few minutes to come with me?" I asked with a small smile. His eyes lit up and he stood quickly taking the twins and placing them in both of their rockers near the couch we were sitting on. He held his hand out to me and I took it. We went to talk on the porch in the backyard.

"Look Soph, I'm sorry if I pushed and pressured you into something you weren't ready for" Blake started, scratching the back of his neck not looking at me. I went to stand in front of him, making sure we make eye contact.

I gave him a huge smile and wrapped my arms around his waist, still not breaking eye contact." Blake, you didn't pressure me into anything. I am ready for anything as long as it is with you. I was just scared that you would leave again, or hurt me. I know now that you will never do that again. I want us to complete the mating process. I want to know what you are thinking, what you are feeling, and what you are going through at any moment in life." I said, knowing every word coming out of my mouth was all the truth.

He looked shocked for a bit before he said something that made my heart fall more and more in love with him. "I love you so much Sophia. I won't ever leave your side again, and I'll never hurt you again. I need you in my life. Life would be pointless without you in it."

"I love you too Blake." I barely got my words out when I felt his lips on mine. I kissed him back with so much passion that I got light headed. Throwing my arms around his neck so I won't fall because of the light headedness. I felt his tongue swipe across my bottom lip and I immediately gave him access. When his taste exploded in my mouth I moaned and gripped his hair in my fist tugging slightly, which made him moan and growl and the same time.

I think we need to stop, because if we didn't we'd jump each others bones. I started pulling  away, and I think Blake just didn't want to at that moment because he started backing me up against the wall and kissed me harder. Smiling into the kiss knowing we both don't want this to stop, I push hard on his chest just so he could let me breathe. 

He leaned against me with his forehead to mine, the both of us breathing heavily. The tingles kept running through my body, my lips tingling the most, missing his against mine. I gave him a small peck and just hugged him.

"I guess we should head back inside right?" I asked while pulling away from him. "Yeah, but before we do that I have to talk to you about something." he said looking like he doesn't actually want to talk about it.

"Blake, what is it?" I asked getting a little bit worried. "Soph I've been here for a while, my pack needs me back. I will be leaving within this week. If I don't leave my pack will stay unprotected. I want you and the twins to come back with me. Soph, will you be my Luna ?" he kind of mumbled.

Ok now I know this might be the wrong move, but I need to go back home. I miss being with Katherine and Shyla. I would miss Jake and Blaire, but they can always come over and visit us every once in a while. "Ok Blake. We'll go back with you, I just don't want to be away from you." I said hugging him.

He let out one huge breath, probably of relief, and hugged me tighter to him. When we were ready we went back inside, to the living room where Shyla had Nevaeh on her lap making my little angel giggle. The three of them noticed we came in and waited for one of us to speak.

"Shyla, Blaire would you guys please come help me pack our stuff? We're moving back home, where we should be." I asked with a huge smile on my face. The girls jumped up and started squealing, running past me directly up the stairs and into the twins' room to start packing their things. I looked over to Jake and saw that he looked both furious and sad about the news.

"Jake, I need to be with him. You know that mates can't go long without their mates, I would've gotten worse after the birth, and eventually die. We both need each other to be strong. The Blood Rage pack needs me as their Luna, the pack is still vulnerable without a Luna." I explained going over to give him a reassuring hug. "I promise you both are always welcome to come and visit whenever you want, and I'll try to visit here with the twins as much as I can." 

"Fine, but just promise me this is what you want. This isn't something he pressured you into doing?" he asked giving Blake a little glare. I giggled at that "I promise this was completely my choice" I said heading for the stairs.

As I was heading upstairs Blake and Jake both sat in the living room with the twins having an actual normal conversation with each other. That still surprises me to this day, I can't believe Blake has changed this much, and all just for me. 

A few hours later we were all packed and ready to leave. It is a few hours drive back to the Blood Rage pack. Let's just hope it'll go smoothly with the twins and all. Blake is taking his truck loaded with all of our things. The twins an I will be in my car with Shyla following after Blake. Shyla is driving so that I can keep an eye on the twins.

After saying our goodbyes to Jake and Blaire, we got in the cars and were on our way. And so begins our journey back to where I grew up, back to the place where I have been mistreated for most of my life. I'm not sure I'm ready for this, but I know I have the twins, Blake, Shyla and Katherine.

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