Aaliyah
Five days Later

"Ima put u back in therapy" my momma said as I fed Naomi with my functioning hand.

"I don't need therapy" I told her.

"Yes u do" Nadia said.

"No the hell I don't. Damn shut up about it!" I said.

"I got it" Toosii said as he grabbed Naomi bowl out my hand and I got up and sat on the couch.

"U need therapy and u hate to admit it" Meme said.

"You don't take ya damn medicine so u need therapy. Either take the medicine or take yo ass to therapy" Kaliyah said.

"You tried to kill your self the other day" Stephanie said.

"And you acting like I won't do it again" I said as I got smart and laughed.

"That's yo fucking problem, u crazy. U need help!" Bandz said.

"Therapy" Amp said.

"Ima shoot the next bitch that say I need fucking THERAPY" I said as I got up and stormed away upstairs.

"YOU CANT KEEP SMOKING IT AWAY" My momma yelled.

"Guhhh fuck off" I said as I slammed the door.

I don't need fucking therapy, I'm just fine. I had two Damn flashbacks from when I got shot and my nightmares now they pushing me to mfn going to therapy.

Shit I already got to go to physical therapy for my shoulder, they do too much I swear to god.

I smoke to control my PTSD. Ofc I don't smoke with my child around me like most hoes do.

I tried to kill myself the other day when I didn't have my weed, then bitches took my weed from me and I was bored. I tried to drown myself.

I moved back in with Toosii so he can help take care of Naomi while my momma at work. Everybody been over here since I been out, I wish they would go home damn.

I grabbed my blunt and walked into the bathroom and locked the door.
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"My PTSD startin' to kick in so I gotta get high
Trey shot that nigga out my car so now I gotta get low
I ain't no city boy 'cause I love my bitch
Nigga, but that don't mean that I don't love my hoes
Niggas tried to smack me up so now I'm raising hell
Don't try and dap me lil' nigga you are not my bro
Trey shot that nigga out my car so now I gotta get low
They know we bend blocks, welcome to the party"

I smoked my blunt and sat up on my headboard as Nadia,Meme, And Kaliyah got on live.

"Folks asking about you" Nadia said to me as she read a view comments.

"Oh" I said as I smoked and zoned out.

"Glock just said answer ya phone" Meme said.

"No" I said.

"Her ass on the moon at the moment" Kaliyah said to live.

I feel numb on the inside, ion know if it's cuz this damn blunt or my PTSD. I may need therapy, shit.

"Yes, she in this bitch bout to kill us with that damn blunt" Meme said to live.

I changed the song on my phone.

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"Like Club God say, throw that ass, poke it out
I ain't gay, but I'll let a bitch eat me out, yeah
Bad bitch, and my bitches too
Take all these niggas' money what we finsta do (man, BeatKing)
Then leave, then leave
Get that bread, get that head, then leave
Then leave, bitch, then leave
Get that bread, get that head, then leave, peace out"

They looked at me and gave me the side eye.

I hit the blunt and threw up the peace sign.

My momma walked into the room and fanned the smoke out. "Why the fuck y'all ain't open a window" my momma asked as she coughed.

She walked to the window and opened it. She opened the balcony and all the smoke exited.

"Why y'all hoes didn't think of that?" Kaliyah asked and my momma smacked her neck.

"Why yo slow ass ain't do it?" My momma asked her and she walked up to me and took my blunt.

"Mane" I said as I rolled my eyes.

"No more fucking smoking!" She said.

I got out the bed and walked out the room. I walked down the stairs and everybody looked at me.

"Fuck y'all looking at?" I asked as I walked in the kitchen.

"Damn u look bad" Dre said.

"Thank you, I try hard" I told him as I grabbed the bag of Hot Cheetos.

"Eyes red as hell" Amp said.

I walked into the other living room and sat down and watched tv.

Of course they followed me. I put the tv on the animal planet.

"How many blunts u smoked?" Bandz asked me.

"All today?" I asked and chuckled as I ate my Cheetos.

"Yes" everybody said.

"Like 4 by myself" I told them as I ate my Cheetos.

"That's bad" Toosii said.

"I wonder what animal I would have been" I said as I watched the lions prey on Zebras.

"That's it. U going to therapy" my momma said.

"I wish y'all would leave me the fuck alone . I feel good, ion need therapy. Weed is my aromatherapy" I said.

"Who the hell keep giving her weed?" Stephanie asked and everybody looked at Bandz.

"Shit not me" Bandz said.

"Yeah I heard she got surgery I still wanna clap from the back to see if her ass soft" I said a random lyric from my head and laughed. "Stunna so fine"

"Girl, on god" Kaliyah agreed they smacked her forehead.

"He my next baby daddy" I said as I chuckled. "What he said?? She soakinnnggg I get her wet like the ocean. Quarterback I put the play in motion"

"Go to sleep" Meme told me.

"U my assistant, email Stunna manager and tell dem i want a feature. 15 Bandz" I told meme. "He need to come change my life".

"Hell no" everyone said.

"I'll do it myself then" I said, I rolled my eyes and I got up and walked into the kitchen with Nadia as she was on live.

"Alexa Play Animal by Stunna" I said.

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"Hey hoes, I'm high right now so don't mind me" I said and laughed.

"Embarrassing" Meme said and shook her head.

"Ayy, I pop a Perc', it give me more stamina (Uh)
I hit that nat like an animal (Ooh)
She ate that dick like a snack, D-Danimals (Thot, thot)
Go get some racks what you better do (Lil' thot)
Lil' bro on yo' head for a band or two (Come here)
I know he'll handle you (Gone)
Lil' nigga, I'll cancel you (Uh)
You would get left like a vegetable
(You would get left like a vegetable)" Me, Nadia and Kaliyah rapped.

"Y'all go tell stunna I said to hit my line" I said to her live and I pulled a blunt of my bra and was getting ready to light it and Toosii snatched it from me. "Mane what the fuck?"

Amp grabbed Nadia phone and ended the live.

"U already Zooted, no more" Bandz said.

"I hate it here. Bruh I can't fucking drive now y'all trynna take my fucking weed" I said as I got mad.

"You know why u can't drive no more" my momma said.

"Mane at this point, ion give no fuck. I want my life back, I can't even fucking hold my child that shit hurt bad" I said as a tear fell down my cheek. "Y'all crowding me, I can't deal with this shit. I'll rather be high and numb then be sober, empty, and fucking depressed"

"That's why u need therapy and Ya medicine" my momma said.

"U know what, I'm done!" I yelled and walked out the fucking front door and slammed it behind me.

I walked up the hill to the gate.

"Where the hell you gon go?" Toosii asked on the intercom.

"Bruh let me the fuck out" I told him.

"No, bring yo ass back in the house" he said.

"Ima climb the grate then"

"How u gon climb with only one functioning arm?"

"Mane y'all blowing my fucking high I swear to fucking god" I screamed as I walked back down the hill to the house.

"Mad ass!" Kaliyah said as I walked back in the house.

"I wanna die" I mumbled under my breath as I walked up the stairs and locked the door.

I laid on my back and I watched the ceiling fan.

They banged on the door.

"Open the fucking door" I heard my momma.

I turned on kentrell.

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"Would it all get better, yeah
Tell me was it all worth it?
No fortune teller make me clever, yeah
Deep inside I been hurtin'
Tired of tryin' and I'm sick of crying-ing
I'm searchin' mind-inds, baby I been lurking, yeah
You left me clueless time after time
I'm behind the blind-inds, I open up the curtains, yeah
Did you do this shit on purpose?
Did you do this shit on purpose? Yeah
I ain't do that shit on purpose, yeah
Swear I ain't do that shit on purpose, yeah"

"OPEN THE DOOR" I heard them yell as they banged on the door.

"It's the Father up in the sky, I be stressin' at night
Livin' life up in the wrong and I know it ain't right
Always said that love is poison, take control of my life
I'm immortal, I never die, I'll never let go my pride
I got them racks on me now, drive-bys, nigga I make the news
My past is haunting me now, run away, last thing for to do
Young nigga reckless, I don't follow rules
Never a change that never I'll do
Committed to you so I never'll choose
Deep in that ocean, my love is for you" I sung and turned the volume up louder.

It's gon be a long night.