The following day I was wandering around the deck as Taehyung was steering. at the end I saw Namjoon sitting. He was different though; something was bothering him, there was this anxiety and sadness in his eyes. I hadn't talked to him in a while, not like really since our "fight" in yoongi's ship. I approached him

-'hey how are you?' I said while sitting next to him

he shrugged -'I am alright I guess what about you? happy you're back here?'

-'hmm yeah but it's not okay that it was at such costs'

-'it was destiny I guess' Namjoon sighed

-'I am sorry about your ship'

-'yeah I know, it takes a big toll on Yoongi, but I think especially the whole Jimin thing. I mean I suspected something but I didn't know it was this serious' Namjoon indicated

-'No, I know what you mean, like Yoongi plus also Jimin'

-'I am worried about him, I have never seen him this way' Namjoon said with this sadness in his voice

we both looked over our shoulders at Yoongi, who right at that time was taking a big sip of his whiskey.

-'I know, did you try to talk to him?' I asked

Namjoon nodded 'he doesn't want to talk about anything that happened'

It was obvious Namjoon was also having a hard time with this

-'I will try to talk to him' I indicated placing my hand on his arm as a way of comfort.

-'thank you y/n'

Taehyung pov

As I was overlooking the ship I saw y/n again with that guy. who was that?

I walked towards Yoongi, who was as usually just drinking and sitting.

-'Yoongi'

-'aye captain' he replied sarcastically, he was drunk I think since the moment he got here but he never failed to pronounce words accurately. it was kind of a magic power I suppose.

I nudged towards y/n and the other guy

'who is that guy?'

Yoongi chuckled while taking another sip from his bottle

-'that's Namjoon, my right hand man. why?'

-'uh nothing, just wanted to know'

Yoongi laughed

-'the jealousy is written all over your face, maybe you should be as well, they have some sort of connection. if you did not attack my ship maybe that connection would have turned into something more'

-'shut up' I growled

-'oh I was just providing my captain with information' Yoongi again said sarcastic

I couldn't help but notice that eerie feeling inside of me. I did not like that guy for sure.

Yoongi pov

it had been already more than a week since that day but the pain didn't fade, nothing made me feel better. why was he, or rather his absence, able to make me feel so fragile so broken.

Flashback

I was sipping my whiskey, not really doing anything else. It had been a tough day, I was a captain and three of my men died I couldn't feel but as it was partly my fault and therefore getting wasted with the men didn't seem appropriate.

I thought about them though, the crew who were drinking together

Well no in honesty I thought about him

Would he be there and would he be drinking?

 As I was about to go to bed there was a knock on my door

-'yes?' I asked confused wondering who that might be at this hour

Jimin appeared as he opened the door

-'what are you doing here?' I asked

'why diwdn't youw join us?' Jimin asked stumbling in

'Look I had the burial of three of my man today so I am not in the mood for drinking and that sort of things'

'i am sworry about you men' Jimin came closer and he had a sort of sincerity in this voice. I was still confused about what he was doing here, hence I repeated my question

-'what are you doing here?'

-' I uh I thought iwt was nwice toee playw chess'

-' you're in no state to play, we can play tomorrow you should go to bed jimin'

I stepped closer to help him towards the door, feeling some electric shit when I touched his arm.

 -'pwease downt make me leave, I don't want to go' his eyes turned down 'I want two sway with you'

I was surprised by his words but then again he was drunk,

-'youre drunk jimin you don't know what you're saying'

-'yes I do, and I don't even understand it, I mean this feeling in my heart, but are you saying you're not feeling whatever this is' he gestured with his hands to the empty space between us

-''i uh: I didn't know what so because obviously I did but he was jimin, everyone knew him to be the womanizer so this didn't make sense

-' jimin it's late pl..'

I couldn't finish my sentence as the most surprising thing happened, he put his arms around me.

My flashback was interrupted by y/n's voice.

She subtly took place next to me

-'how are you doing?' she asked

-'how do you think I am?' ' I lost the ship, I lost Jimin' at mentioning Jimin my voice cracked

-'I am really sorry Yoongi'

-'yeah well nothing can be changed about it, if I hadn't taken you I still had my ship but then I wouldn't have met Jimin so I guess I wouldn't change that, I just wish that I had spent more attention to him when we were attacked'

-'I know but we will find a way to free him as soon as we know where exactly they hold him'

-'yeah and until then whiskey will be my best friend your boyfriend doesn't mind me drinking his stash does he?'

She rolled her eyes 'alcohol isn't the answer'

'well it is for now' I said taking a another sip