Emily

Now, that I'm a little older. I have a different perspective when it comes to the answer to London's question about Love.

I know there's endless way of describing love. Love can be seen, touched, felt and shown, but when your thoughts blinds you and only allow you to see and think what it wants you to see and think. It's difficult for you to feel and understand the real love because now it's all illusion and the love you are expecting and want to be shown is the one that you made up in your head- and no matter who shows you love in their own way, you won't be able to accept it because you have a different idea about love and if you are not ready to accept the way someone else shows the kind of feels, that they call love. The relationship goes downhills.

Now that I think of it, my parents showed me love in every possible way they could have. They give me every basic necessity and beyond, to survive in this world. They may not have been affectionate like the other parents, but they tried everything they possible could. They supported me in every possible way they could and I didn't see it until, now.

When it came to friendship with people. I always had this idea that Morgan and London will be my best friends forever and I could proudly tell people we've been friends since elementary schools. I had this idea, that I didn't need to make any new friends because I always have London and Morgan, but I was wrong and I'm glad I was wrong. I got to made new friends, friends that went beyond- to make me laugh and smile, be there for me when I needed someone the most, and I couldn't have been much more happier than that.

When it came to love life, I've always been a hopeless romantic. I like the idea about two people falling in love and then rainbows and sunshine. I forgot that there's pain, there is laughter, there's sorrow, there's joy.. just like any other relationship. It's not easy to love and of course it's not easy to get the love back. Everett may not have felt the same way I've felt for him, and that's fine.

They said, there will always be someone who will love more in a relationship and I'm glad it was me who love him more. There were times when I didn't know how to describe my fondness and likeness towards him, but now I know. I'm glad I told him how I felt about him.

Even though I have walked into Everett's life with a little embarrassment and awkwardness, but then he made me feel comfortable around him, about me and everyone else.

Everett is beautiful in so many ways. He may not know it, but people around him can see him. He fight for what he thinks is right and for people who can't defend themselves. We may not have ended our relationship in the way we wanted or expected, but that's life. We all will make mistake and that's okay, that's life, but we shouldn't let that mistake come in between our present. We should learn from it and move on and be better.

Everett have been my first love and will always be my last love. He have taught me to accept things. Denying things won't lead me anywhere. I accepted the fact I was not perfect and I know life is like sun and rain, but there's rainbow if you look at it closely.

I hope Everett find rainbow in his life as well. He had seen too many rains and I think it's time for him to see some sunshine and rainbow.

Loving someone is never easy. You have to give your time, energy and effort. Sometime, it's difficult to show love to people, and it's difficult to understand love. Not everyone love you the same way and neither can you show love in the same way as everyone else.

If I do get a chance, I want to tell Everett again that I love him and listen to what he wanted to tell me, I wanted to tell dad and mom I love them. We never said that to each other, but we knew how we felt.

I gasped for air and coughed out water.

"Emily." I heard Dad's voice. I see people gathered around us looking relief.

"I'm okay." I coughed. I could hear sirens and overwhelming of shouts and next thing. Everything around me was confusing and I was so lost and I feel myself getting unconscious.