Not edited. Gawd I love you people... I really really do! MWAH!!! Your comments... omg I can't stop laughing! I wish this app was more comment friendly for authors because I would sooooo be having a ball right now. Not using any of the good words in this because I don't want it going private though there may be an f word or two with an accent over it to avoid the autobots.

Lucas looked at Tara with a nervous expectation. This wasn't how he planned to have their first time. In a little motel on the side of the road? No, he'd planned that once Tara said she was ready he would be the romantic that she deserved. The dinner, the wine, the build up... all leading to her feeling pampered and relaxed. No. This wasn't anything like that at all.

This... this was Tara taking control for herself... and he loved it. He loved that even though she was obviously as nervous as hell she was also reaching out to him... how could he not help but fall in love with her all over again?

"Baby?"

"Yes."

"Yes?" his heart quickened.

"Yes Lucas I want..." she blushed and Lucas grinned.

"You... want?"

"I want to be with you."

"With me how? Baby I need the words from you. Do you want to go further in bed with me without going all the way? Or do you want to make love with your adorable husband?"

Tara giggled as his facial features reflected every ounce of cheekiness in him.

"I..." she drew in a deep breath and looked him directly in the eyes before speaking "I want to make love with you."

He was sure he heard angels singing and harps playing as soon as those words were out of her mouth. Hell if heaven didn't have some sort of influence in this situation then he'd cross over to the side of the devil.

He moved her backwards slowly and stood up from the bed. Her eyes never left his and he was overwhelmed by the love he saw in them. At that very moment he realised once and for all... Tara was his.

His hands took hers and slowly traced upwards on her arms to her shoulders.

"Are you sure?" he asked softly.

"Yes" she whispered while moving her hands to hold his waist.

"I love you baby" his fingers wove their way into her hair and he lowered his head to hers.

"I love you too Lucas."

His eyes sparkled as they closed and his mouth found hers. With gentleness often only found in dreams Lucas kissed her. Teasing, stroking and with complete and total longing.

Tara wrapped her arms around him. She wanted him close. She wanted to feel his body warmth down the length of her body. She wanted... to feel.

Lucas sensed Tara's almost urgent touch as her hands roamed his back and with matching desire he pulled her into his body with both arms around her and one leg behind hers. His hands moved with tenderness over her and with a smirk he let himself touch further down and squeezed her backside while fighting the urge to push and grind into her.

He jolted as Tara's hands followed the path of his own and he felt tentative squeezes on his butt. He moaned and slid his tongue into her mouth, pushing through with no resistance at all and just moments later he devoured her taste with relish and abandon. Her mouth sweet from the hot chocolate Barney had given her for warmth. Together with her own taste he savoured the combined flavours and he couldn't get enough. He wanted what she was giving and more. He needed to sample everything.

He pulled away and immediately went to nibbling on her neck as his hands travelled up and under the shirt and her thin lace panties had her shuddering at his touch. So damn perfect. Her backside snuggled perfectly into his large hand and he began to massage against the lace and began to follow the lines of their hem.

Tara shivered in his hands and gasped with an accompanying groan as Lucas' finger slipped under the hem.

"Please... please Lucas... "

His mouth encased a heardened nípple through the thin white cotton and Tara arched up into him. His sucks were taunting as his tongue flicked in unison with his lip movements against the covered skin.

"Lucas... please..."

He chuckled and raised his head to look at her again, just staring at her reddened face.

"God you're so fûcking beautiful. I want you Tara. God I want you but I'm afraid."

"What of?" she was surprised.

"During sex there's a point of no return and if you... I don't think I'd have the ability to stop if you wanted me to."

Tara looked at him with apprehension and swallowed hard.

"I want to make love with you Lucas. I know.... I know I have... we have...  history but I don't think either of us are those people any more. Am I scared? Yes. Am I going to stop you? I don't know."

"That's just it baby... I don't know if I could stop when..."

"Will it be like the first time?"

He looked at her with a horrified expression. His eyes widened as he shook his head.

"No... oh hell no baby. That... fûck... that was fûcking. Plain out not giving a fûck fûcking. I'm ashamed of how I took your virgînity... fûck of everything I did that day. I won't lie and tell you that at times rough séx isn't great because it is. I won't tell you that baby for one reason and that's because in time I hope you and I get the chance to play rough. I would love to hold you against a wall and drive you hard. I would love to bend you over my desk and take you. Those and more... but baby... that's for the future... for when you feel comfortable with me and want to try different things. Today baby... you and I... we're going to make love and..."

"Lucas?"

"Yes baby?"

"Has anyone ever told you that ad sweet as you are you seriously need to learn to shut up and just make love to your wife?"

"Uh... no?" he answered with his face reddening.

"Consider yourself told."

Lucas grinned a wide grin and waggled his eyebrows.

"So can we get naked now?"

Tara started to giggle and then stoppes to inhale and exhale a deep breath.

"Yes."

"Thank God!" He went to open his mouth and she held her hand against it.

"Nope. No and uh uh. I want this Lucas. Stop over reaching for reasons why it can't happen. I honestly never thought you'd be as scared as me about this but I'm glad you are."

He looked at her briefly before pointing to her hand and in effect asking permission to talk.

She grinned and nodded as her hand fell to her side.

"You're happy I'm scared?"

"Yes. It shows that you're a softie at heart..."

"Oh please... I'm not..."

"Lucas?"

"Yes baby?"

"Shut up."

"Yes ma'am... but can I ask one more question?"

She rolled her eyes "and what would that be?"

"Do you think Mari's readers would mind if we close the curtains?"

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I'm kidding!!!! I just had to do it... I couldn't help but tease... but I didn't want to do another chapter... so keep reading! Mari xxxx

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"and what question might that be?"

"Why are you still dressed?"

Tara slapped his arm and he laughed loudly before reaching out and grabbing a handful of the shirt material to bring her to him. He kissed her as his fingers deftly worked the buttons and the shirt fell open. He pulled back and looked down with dark eyes as his hands went to the shoulders and pushed the material off then and the shirt pooled at her feet.

He hissed with lust as his eyes swept over her.

"Beautiful" he whispered as his hands went to the band of her panties and slowly slid two fingers under it to slide them down.

Lucas was on his knees as the lace came to her ankles and with a quick glance up at her face he saw her watching with passion filled orbs he wanted to drown himself in.

He didn't know if she realised that her body radiated a scent so powerful he couldn't resist. He moved forward and inhaled and his tongue slid between the folds of her suprisingly but appreciated shaven mound at the apex of her thighs.

He groaned to taste the sweet nectar and as Tara moaned he pulled back and at her protest he moved her back to the bed and sat her down. His body followed the path of his hands as he spread her legs open and bent back down to enjoy her sweetness.

Tara fell back on the bed and grabbed handfuls of the cover as her body rose to meet Lucas' mouth and his exploring tongue.

He flicked and stroked the swelling nub as he moved his hands underneath her bottom and raised her higher. Tara's reactions were the most beautiful he'd ever seen. Innocent realisations that her body could feel this way were plastered over the expressions of her face. Each moan and groan saw a different expression that hardened him to the point of hurting. He found his hips were matching his tongues powerful thrusts and he moaned into her. He felt her shake and her breathing became gasping shrieks as he took her over the edge and back again.

He gently removed his hands and stood looking down at her. Her beauty shining with crimson hues as she regained her breath.

"Last chance baby. If you want to stop then this is the time to tell me."

"No... don't stop. I want this."

He smiled and simply nodded while hoping to hell that she couldn't see his shaking hands as he undid his trousers and slid them down. It was at that moment that he remebered that he'd taken off his boxers and rinsed them so he had them to wear later. He did what no man admitted to doing. He blushed... and gulped. He looked up to see Tara raised up on her elbows watching him with her head tilted to the side. Her face while not stone wasn't showing him what she was thinking. He never felt so openly exposed in his life as what he did at that moment.

"Commando? I thought..."

"Drying. For later." He spoke quickly and was glad to see her nod of acceptance because standing up he knew there was no way she could miss his hard length and he was nervous enough. Why he was worrying about something as trivial as going commando he had no idea but it seemed like a good thing to concentrate on.

Tara looked calm. She felt calm as she moved back further onto the bed. Seeing Lucas watching her every move and his body's twitching reaction was almost her undoing. She was trying to be sophisticated and mature but all she wanted to do was giggle.

Lucas stood watching and realised that he wasn't this nervous the first time he'd had sex. In fact he'd never been this nervous at anything before.

He and Tara looked at one another and started to laugh. Both letting go of their nervousness as Lucas moved over to the edge of the bed and slowly crawled his way up Tara's body.

He pushed one knee between her legs and rested there so she could feel just what she did to him.

"Lucas..."

He looked up from where he'd been staring down at her breâsts.

"Mmmm?"

"Does this feel weird to you? I just... well... "

"Like a lot of build up and not being what you expect?"

"Exactly!"

Lucas moved and both his legs were between hers and he whispered.

"The circumatances may feel weird baby but I can feel how wet, how hot, how needy you are right now and I know you can feel what you're doing to me."

"Make me a promise?" Tara asked.

"Anything."

"Next time we do this you won't rave on before hand and make things weird."

Lucas' mouth dropped and Tara grinned as he tried to speak and his words came out spluttered.

"Make love to me Lucas" she whispered as his hard length teased her sleek folds.

Lucas bent down and seized her mouth and with one swift move he was inside her entrance.

"So tight baby... oh god" he pushed slowly inwards as her muscles strained to accomodate him.

Tara raised her knees, her body now at more of an accepting angle for him to enter her completely. She gasped at his foreign invasion. Although she wasn't a virgîn it had been such a long time and her body struggled to let him in.

She whimpered and Lucas moved to put his hand down between them. He played with her nub first starting with gentle swirling motions back and forth and as her body reacted by pushing up at him he added more pressure. Her own body's reactions were pushing him further into her and as she screamed out with the unabashed reaction that flowed over him he pushed himself completely into her. His slow movements backnand forth soon accepted by her body with her whispering for more until their moves became urgent  and working in perfect rhythm they rocked back and forth.

He thrust to meet her demands with a slightly held back motion until finally she demanded that he take her harder. He lost control then and there and as their moans and screams were filling the room they became stifled as they kissed with sheer abandon and glistening sweaty bodies collapsed against one another in a final act of offering a new beginning.

Each one spent. Each one tingling. Each one sated. Neither caring about the noises on the other side of the door as other motel guests returned to their rooms as they listened to each others breathing and revelled in the warmth their bodies gave each other.

They lay, wrapped in each others arms, with eyes drooping and whispers of love and promises for the future.

Lucas opened his eyes suddenly. He hadn't meant to. He planned to wait until she finished UNI. Until she was ready.

"Tara... baby... we didn't use a condom."

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Ok now I deliberately made this less involved than other scenes because this pair needed to get past this moment and I kinda like the whole awkwardness of them both.

Nope. Not elaborating on another sex scene. There is literally ONE chapter and the epilogue left. I think I wanna cry.