Melody
I hurried up to my room when I got home and closed the door behind me. Immediately, I ripped my dress off and tossed it into the trashcan by my desk, not wanting to ever see it again. I grabbed an oversized t-shirt and a pair of sweatpants and headed to my bathroom, ready to shower. To wash tonight's events off my skin. But I didn't.
I stopped short at the door, my mind reeling with the image of Diesel walking into the bathroom. Cornering me. Reaching for me. Putting his hands on me.
I squeezed my eyes shut and took a shaky breath as I stumbled backwards. I reached out and closed the bathroom door, not wanting to go there tonight. I put on the clothes in my hands and sat in the middle of my bed, legs crossed, staring into nothing.
For the first time, I noticed that the house was quiet. Eerily quiet, like the calm after a storm. Or before one. I didn't know the difference anymore.
My dad wasn't home for the weekend, but I was surprised Margot wasn't downstairs with a bottle of wine. Better for me regardless. I didn't want to deal with her right now. I couldn't.
It was why I went to Denny's with everyone rather than coming straight here. I sat and half-listened to their forced conversation, so I didn't have to come back to my house and deal with my fake family. Or maybe it was so I wouldn't have to deal with my thoughts.
'I told you a fat ass was better to hold to.'
My mind echoed with Diesel's voice every time I glanced at the carrot sticks on Carson's plate. I didn't have an appetite and that didn't help it come back. So, I stared at my tea and focused on what everyone was saying around me until they had to go home.
Both Carson and Emma sent a few texts wanting to know if I was okay, or wanted to talk, but I could only tell them that I was fine and didn't need anything. The truth was I didn't know what I was feeling.
So, I sat. I sat on my bed for hours, not knowing what I was feeling. Trying not to think. Trying not to think about the way he looked me up and down. Trying not to let the feeling of Diesel's hot breath on my neck and face seep into my mind.
Trying to focus on the eerie silence.
Until it was broken.
I heard the same mumbling I did back when I snuck out a few months ago. I had thought it was Mia initially and tuned them out. Now, they grew a little louder and I realized it wasn't my stepsister talking to a boy. I glanced at my phone, which read 4:08am.
I stepped slid out of bed and headed towards my door. I wasn't sure what the reason behind it was. Maybe I wanted a distraction or maybe my curiosity was getting the better of me, but I opened my bedroom door and headed to the source of the noise. Margot's room.
As I walked closer, I could hear her mumbling grow louder. It was mostly incoherent. Sleep-filled slurring. But there were a few sentences that were clearer than the rest.
"Waaaas nooooot myyyy fauuult."
I paused at that. What's not her fault?
There was more unintelligible mumbling before she it was clearer again.
"Waaaaas just aaaa buuuump."
I stood still. Listening. Barely breathing.
"Haaaaarmony. Spuuuun out of controoool."
My mouth fell open. Oxygen seemed to struggle to find my lungs as I backed towards away from her room slowly.
"Noo. Nooo jaaiill."
I rushed back to my room and pulled on a pair of socks and a sweater, then grabbed my phone before heading downstairs. I put on my winter jacket and my boots and left the house wordlessly. I didn't know where I was walking, but I knew that I couldn't stand being in the same house with someone so evil.
The bitter cold seeped through my jacket as I stormed down the street and maybe that was a good thing. I was fuming and didn't know where to put it, so I kept walking. I walked and walked as my mind reeled with the new information that I didn't know how to handle.
Margot was the one who hit my mother's car.
Margot sent the red Mercedes with my mother inside spiralling into the light post on the corner of Sound View Drive and Arch Street.
Margot was the reason I didn't have a mother.
That realization took my breath away and stopped me mid stride.
As a result of my sudden stop, I slipped on some ice and landed hard on my butt, catching myself before my head hit the sidewalk. I was facing up and noticed the sky was brightening and that I couldn't feel my fingers, my face, or my bottom anymore.
I stood up slowly and took my phone out of my pocket.
6:12am.
I dialled.
"Melody? What's wrong?" Carson sounded more awake than I thought he would this early in the morning.
"C-can I... can I come over?" I asked quietly.
"Of course. Give me five minutes and I'll come get you," he said. I could hear him getting up and shuffling about.
"That's okay. I'm already walking."
"Walking?" Carson repeated incredulously.
"Yeah. I'll see you soon," I said quickly before I hung up.
Though the sky was slowly turning from black to blue, the streetlights illuminated my path as I made my way to Carson's house. That was the only place I felt safe. I was no longer safe at home. My world had shifted under my feet for the second time that night and there was no way to land without getting hurt.
The front door opened as I stepped foot onto the White's front porch, and a concerned Carson, clad in a hoodie and joggers stood in the doorway. His forehead was creased with worry. I stepped into the light, and the crease seemed to deepen, threatening to be permanently etched there.
"Your lips are blue!" He exclaimed ushering me inside. His voice was hushed as he spoke. "How long have you been outside?"
"About two hours, I guess." I shrugged.
"Two hours?" His voice was a normal volume and he caught himself. "You must be freezing. Come here."
I took my shoes off and followed him into the living room, where he grabbed a massive blanket out of a decorative basket and wrapped it around me. I sat down on the couch and brought my knees up to my chest.
"Have you slept?" he asked. I shook my head. How could I? Not after everything that had happened tonight. Not when Diesel's face haunted me when I closed my eyes. Not when Margot's sleep-slurred confession echoed in my ears.
I suddenly felt like I couldn't breathe.
Carson sat down on the couch next to me, worry written across his face.
"Mellie," he whispered.
A sob ripped through my chest and I collapsed into Carson's arms. My face was buried in his chest as tears flowed from my eyes and soaked his hoodie. He wrapped his arms around my body and held me tightly as I fell apart on his sofa.
His chest muffled my sobs, but they shook my whole body and made me struggle for air. Carson rubbed soothing circles on my back and periodically pressed his lips to my forehead until I could breathe again. When I finally stopped hyperventilating, he sat back slightly and wiped the tears off my cheeks, as if more wouldn't follow. Tears still ran down my face and I wasn't sure if they'd ever stop. It was like something inside me had broken and the side effect was leaky tear ducts.
"Do you want to talk about it?" Carson asked. I knew he wanted me to give him some indication of what happened, but every time I thought of one thing or the other, tears welled up in my eyes. I wasn't sure where to begin or even of what I wanted to say.
"Nothing will ever be okay," tumbled out of my mouth shakily and saying it out loud made my head spin. My eyebrows knitted together, and my tear ducts started to overflow once again. "Nothing will ever be okay." I repeated, crumpling into Carson's chest once again.
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Author's Note: The End.
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