rafe cameron has had enough.
though he could go on a spiel and complain about where this all began,
he's decided to stitch his lips closed and not speak unless absolutely necessary.
he's using his last words wisely.
he doesn't want to waste his limited breath on those undeserving.
only a few more hours and rafe cameron will be set free.
though he has to admit,
there are a few lingering doubts here.
what if he preserves through this and comes out more successful than he could've ever imagined?
so he decides:
someone please send me a sign to stay.
but what sign?
you need to name something, rafe.
a bracelet with green jewels.
not too rare, not too basic.
if i see it,
it will be for me.
rafe sits up a little straighter at this.
he doesn't know what he will do if this sign doesn't show.
if the sense of rejection will drive him further to release or if the knowledge his existence means nothing will only hurt a little more.
he also doesn't know why he's spending his possible last day alive tucked away in the food court seats of the mall.
"this is the sign you've been looking for!"
rafe picks his head up to stare at the girl who's just announced this.
she stands at a vendor just a few feet away from him,
waving pamphlets that are collecting in many.
he's standing now.
it seems his feet are working when his mind isn't.
"hi!"
she greets with a wave.
rafe takes a look at her name tag and tucks away the beauty of her name.
"hey,"
he says rather distractedly.
"what's your name?"
"rafe cameron."
y/n nods then introduces herself,
giving rafe time to ask,
"what is this?"
the vendor she's running is full of jewelry,
but none looking like the bracelet he now regrets wishing upon.
"it's jewelry. supposed to be selling it but...i'm having a hard time."
her confession ends in a small laugh.
"why's that?"
"you know...people want simple. this? it's too much. and not in a good way."
y/n shakes her head of these words then hurries to say,
"i'm sorry! i shouldn't be badmouthing the product i'm selling."
"i appreciate a little honesty. shows you've got no bias."
y/n looks back up at rafe then laughs quietly with him.
"that's one way to put it."
rafe is almost desperate to keep this conversation going.
he doesn't understand this sudden urge but there's a lot he doesn't understand these days.
why start questioning it now?
y/n is a beautiful girl with words of propriety.
simple as that.
"so...you like jewelry?"
the question is idiotic.
as soon as it leaves his lips,
he wishes he could gather the letters in the air and tuck them away.
instead,
he stands still with a smile of falsified confidence.
"i do, yeah. i make my own."
"oh? really?"
"yep. not-not this stuff, though. here, look."
y/n looks around to be sure her manager with eyes of judgment isn't around before she leans over and pulls out a single case.
rafe holds his breath.
when he expects the universe to give him something to live for,
but then he's reminded:
you are not worthy.
"it's a small little necklace but...one of my newer ones."
rafe doesn't respond at first.
his heart feels sore from this blatant rejection.
but what had he been expecting?
y/n notices this boys blank expression and closes her jewelry box.
she's seen that look before,
only in her own eyes though:
an unspoken ache.
so y/n does what she wanted someone to do so long ago,
when she wore this very expression,
"you want to hang out? figure i should be spending less of my summer inside."
rafe looks up with an empty stare and forces his best smile.
he goes to decline her offer on the account of his earlier plans now being solidified,
but there's something in her smile that makes him say,
"yeah. okay."
y/n wears an even brighter smile,
if possible,
then cheers,
"great!"
rafe nods his head,
still in his saddened stupor,
but y/n says nothing of it.
"i'll meet you back here, okay?"
rafe, again, nods then stalks off to his car in which he arrived to the mall in.
he doesn't move an inch.
the truth is,
y/n has never really been good at anything.
she's never been a natural,
everything she knows has been taught from trial and error.
she is alone in this learning.
from a family of achievers,
y/n is an odd phenomenon.
she is not her brother,
who was bathed in optimistic opportunities since his first breath.
she is not her sister,
who found perfection in the length of her limbs.
or her parents that seemed to sip success from the teat of their mothers.
y/n has always had to try.
in school,
she spent hours hovered over textbooks, notes, and homework only to receive a mediocre grade in the class.
in sports,
y/n was always the last picked because of her decent ability to score for the right team.
though she is great fun,
there is just nothing she excels in.
there is no niche for her to claim,
no ability to show off,
no where for her to fit in.
so she picks up job after job in hopes of being able to find something she both loves and is good at,
but all she really enjoys is the simple pleasure of making her jewelry.
her mother looked at her with kind eyes one night when y/n spoke of pursuing this and said,
"oh, honey, nobody would ever wear that."
her mother claims tough love is the best love,
but y/n feels her tongue can be rather cruel.
y/n doesn't know what it was about rafe that made her reach out the way she did.
if she offered her simple company to every sad soul she came across,
her schedule would be filled day in and day out.
she's calling it chance.
he needs someone to distract him from whatever is sucking the life from him and y/n needs an excuse to stay away from home.
at the sake of sounding like an awful daughter and sister,
y/n hates being at home.
while her family gushes over their accomplishments of the day and of the beauty of their perfect lives,
they lastly look to average y/n and fill her up on sympathy she doesn't need.
so after her oh-so boring job is done,
y/n heads home and hurriedly changes before her sister can shake her head at y/n's choice of outfit.
she slips on her favorite pieces of jewelry she's named good luck,
and even spritzes herself in the perfume she'd been gifted for christmas.
sweet and expensive.
y/n heads back to the very shopping center and waits for this mystery of the man she's stumbled upon.
as she waits,
she begins to second guess herself.
y/n is not famous for her intuition,
so what if she's gotten this all wrong?
but before she can think further ahead,
she sees him sitting as still as humanly possible in the drivers seat of his very expensive car.
y/n carefully walks up to him and waves her hand to catch his attention.
rafe sits up when he sees her and unlocks his car for her to enter.
how long have i been in here?
he wonders.
she's dressed and looking completely different,
somehow more beautiful than before.
rafe hopes he hasn't kept her waiting for long.
when she climbs into his front seat,
he's met with the wave of her light perfume.
is there a single flaw about her?
rafe is being blessed with the greatness of the goddesses,
he's sure of it.
but still...
his death certificate is being printed as he waits.
"you been waiting long?"
he asks when she's comfortable.
she shakes her head.
"just got here. you?"
"nah."
rafe shifts in his seat then turns the car on.
"where to, y/n?"
y/n decided on somewhere public at first.
so her and rafe took a stroll down the length of their city park that's rather larger than y/n realized.
they talked as much as rafe could without feeling the impeding weight of his mortality tighten around his throat.
y/n eased a little in his company and knew he meant no harm.
he could hardly look at her,
much less bring her to a cruel end.
so,
she eventually took his wrist into her hand and led him to the only quiet place this park had to offer.
now,
here they sit on the edge of one of north carolina's most beautiful mountains,
staring down at the people that seem so insignificant from where they sit.
"you look troubled,"
y/n tells him.
there's something about this privacy surrounding them that makes her want to beg for his truths and even confess her own.
rafe is warm in y/n's company,
warmer than he's ever known himself to be.
"i am,"
he admits.
when rafe cameron wakes up the next morning to find y/n tangled in both his sheets and his embrace,
peace welcomes him with open arms.
this is a life worth living.
i'm so glad we made it here.
but of course,
a twinge of fear crawls up his spine.
the pair had been drunk after all.
what if she comes to and find this is something she regrets?
despite her slurred words promising herself to him,
things are not always what they seem.
this has been a fact proven time and time again in rafe's live.
but all becomes well when y/n shuffles awake and rests a kiss to his collarbone.
"you're moving the bed."
"sorry,"
he says.
rafe hadn't noticed the shake of his anxious leg.
"come on, lover. let's go back to sleep."
and with their limbs entwined in hopes of getting even closer to one another,
that's exactly what they do.
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