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~A.L
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"Your 5 minutes are up." Then I heard the click meaning he hung up. I stood there with my phone still against my ear completely and utterly hating myself. I groaned and threw myself on my bed. I heard a knock on my door but didn't answer or look up when someone opened my door.

"Teddy?" Mayrse asked.

"Mmhhm?" I asked, my voice muffled by the blanket.

"Can I come in?"

I turned my head. "Yeah. Are you okay May?"

"I had a nightmare." She said softly. "Can you read to me until I fall asleep?"

I really didn't want to but I can't say no to my little sister. "Come on over here May."

She smiled brightly and ran over to my white sofa. I walked over to my big bookshelf. "What do you want to read kiddo?"

"Harry Potter?" She asked hopefully.

I looked over at her. "You sure?"

"Yep! And can I have a slushy?"

"May! It's 9:00. Don't you think it's too late for a slushy?"

She gave me her best puppy dog eyes. "Please Teddy?!"

I tried to say no, I really did. But I ended up walking over to a pannel on my wall. I punched in a code and a section of the wall opened up to a slushy maker. It was a silly thing I asked for when I was a kid but it came in handy every once in a while.

I took a small cup and made her one then sat on the couch. She snuggled up next to me and I put my arm around her then opened to the first page of the Sorcerers Stone. Around the second chapter May fell back asleep but I left her there for a while. I finished off the slushy and kept reading. Around midnight I started to feel tired myself so I took Mayrse to bed and climbed into my own. I picked up my phone and stared at it but off course there were no messages, well at least not from anyone I cared about. I felt like screaming or punching a wall but I settled for punching my pillow.
I had finally gotten him. I was actually happy for once in my life like the missing piece had clicked into place and now I screwed it up.

I groaned and stared at my ceiling.
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Sunday went by super fast and I was left with a big decision on Monday. To school or not to school. I decided to not school. Seeing Johan, being bombarded by Jake who, aged this was just a strong suspicion, told Johan about Alex. I didn't want to face her either. She was devastated when I ended it with her. And if course asked the question I feared she would..."You found your soulmate? Who is it?" I couldn't tell her and made some hasty excuse to leave.

Now I was in the mood for something. I called one of my friends.
"Hey Michael," I said when he answered, "Do you still have those fake ID's?"

"Yeah, what for?"

"I need to blow off some steam. Maybe get a few drinks."

"What about school Ted? You've been serious about it the last few weeks, being all studious. Now you just want to blow it off?"

Did he just say studious? I had to check the phone to make sure I was talking to Michael.

"It's not your place to worry about my motives Mike. You in or not?"

"Hell yeah I'm in. Drinks over school any day."

This my friends is where I went downhill. I won't give away all the gory details, but I will say it was horrendous. The works. Drunk off my ass, stupid choices that ended with a broken nose. Not mine, but what I realized is that I'm violent when I'm drunk.
Tuesday, I skipped again. And Wednesday and Thursday. Friday I went to school and wished I didn't. Every sound made my head rattle and I just felt so spent.
It didn't help that Alex kept pestering me.

"We told each other we would be together until one of us found our soulmate. So who is she?"

"I can't talk right now Alex." I sighed.

"And why not?"

"I have to get to class."

"Bullshit." She said. "You weren't worried about classes this whole week."

"Enough, Alex!" I said infuriated. "It doesn't matter if I found my soulmate. I broke up with you, we are done so drop it and leave me alone!"

I stalked off with intention of getting to gym and then going home but I was stopped yet again. "Ted!"

I groaned and tuned around to find a very pissed Leandra coming towards me.

"What the hell is your problem!" She yelled.

"Your loud voice." I said holding my head. "What do you want?"

"I want to know just what the heck my brother did that caused you and your jerk friends to beat him up."

"Your brother? Who is your brother?" I asked.

"Don't play dumb. I know everything."

"Then why are you asking me about it? I have no idea what you're talking about."

"You broke my brothers nose for no reason!" She said, get face turning red.

"Sorry Leandra but I have no recollection of such an occurrence." I turned and walked off. I did have a really faded memory of punching someone but the alcohol that was in my system diminished my memory.

I shook it from my head and continued to walk toward gym.... but I turned a corner and there he was looking so sweet and I felt my heart crack with the weight of how much I missed him. I started to walk toward him, I didn't want him to know how messed up I was without him, but I needed to see him, apologize again, get him back if it's the last thing I do. But when he saw me walking toward him, he turned and walked away. It felt like something broke in me as I headed toward gym. I can't and won't explain how I became after that but I didn't like who I was becoming. I was mad all the time. It was the way I was before the anger management classes.

One night I just put my head into my hands and just questioned my life. I stayed that way on the floor of my bedroom until my phone rang. The caller ID said Cassidy and I rushed to answer.

"Hello?" I said, my voice cracking from lack of use.

"Ted? What's gotten into you?"

"What do you mean?"

"Why are you acting like you've relapsed 2 years. You said you were done with this behavior."

"I was never this bad." I said squeezing a stress ball I found under my desk.

"So you admit it."

"It was like Johan kept me grounded Cass. Now that he's gone I'm falling apart."

"Well how did you manage before him?"

"Partly Alex, partly the notion that I was still searching for something in my life and that kept me focused. But now I've found him and he doesn't want anything to do with me anymore."

"He's no better off than you are Ted. He is miserable."

"B.s. he doesn't care about me. How could he. Look at what kind of person I am."

"But you can be a better person and we all know it. He's still your soulmate so he fell for you just as hard as you fell for him. But you cheated on him."

"I didn't mean to damnit! And I broke up with her."

"Yeah but not soon enough. And we all know this is more than just about you breaking up with Alex."

I feel back on my floor and pushed back the tears. "I'm afraid."

"Think of it this way. Its either your fear or your soulmates. Start with you parents. Your dad already knows, and he was gay before so I'm sure your mom isn't going to have a panic attack either." Cassidy said

"You don't know that." I groaned.

"I don't, but the only way you'll find out is by telling her."

"And if I don't want to find out?"

"Then leave Johan alone." She said then hung up.

I threw my phone on my bed and got up. I grabbed a towel and headed toward the hot tub on the roof. I rarely go up there but I needed something to help me relax. I picked up a book on the way and my headphones. I needed to figure out what to do...but I think I already knew.
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"Mom?"

"Hmm?"

"I have to tell you something."

Mom looked up at me, as did my dad and the look in his face told me he knew what I was going to say. He smiled at me and nodded.

"Mom...I'm gay." I rushed out.

"That's fine dear." She said and went back to her magazine.

I stared at her in shock until she spoke again.

"The rules still apply. If you have a boyfriend we must meet him and your not allowed in your room alone unless there is an adult upstairs, and you must leave your door open." And that was all she said.

I felt like my mouth fell open a little. That was not the reaction I was expecting at all.

"Um...okay then." I said and got up. I told myself the first thing I would do when...if...I got Johan back was introduce him to my parents. I picked up my phone and texted Cassidy.

Me: I told my parents

But she never responded to me.