"i'd lie for you."

well don't. i remember breaking your heart. i felt it. i typed the message, because i couldn't bare to hear your voice, you'd feel abandoned, like you left me for weeks, with nothing but small talk and distant chats. i found myself being able to feel it as "read" popped up on the screen. i felt your heart sink and your jaw tighten. it hurts.

this being said, don't pretend to love me, don't pretend you need me.

if you meant it, it would've worked out the first time, but now that i know you're willing to do this, maybe you just wanted someone, and everything meant nothing.

at this point i dont know what hurts more, knowing you'd willingly lie to keep me, or knowing all of this could've been some sort of sick game called 'how long can i hold on to her so i'm not lonely anymore'

k.h.