Jessica's POV:

When I woke up this lovely Saturday morning and checked my phone, I was surprised to see that I had a text from Brianna asking if we can talk. I was very hesitant to even reply back, but I agreed. I'm very curious to find out what she has to say. I have no idea what it could be, knowing her. She's quite an unpredictable person. She always has been since the day I met her.

I got my license last week, and couldn't be more happy about it. I don't have my own car yet or anything, but my dad has been very generous sharing his with me. He's just the greatest, and I'm starting to feel more independent then I ever have, despite still living with him. Driving just makes me feel free. It's awesome really.

My dad let me borrow his car to go meet Brianna, I was beyond nervous but a little excited at the same time. Even though I'm with Kelsey and she's amazing, it's nothing compared to what I had with Brianna or felt... Well feel for her. I miss her a lot, more then she or anyone could ever possibly know.

I knock on the door to her loft, and take a deep breath, not knowing what to expect.

"Hey." She greets me, a smile on her face upon seeing me. "Come in."

I go inside, noticing almost nothing has changed with the place since I was last there. "So what do you want to talk about?" I say directly, as I sit down on the couch.

"No how are yous?" She sits down next to me. "Okay..." She begins. "I don't even really know how to explain everything. My brain is just all jumbled with thoughts... And emotions... And all that bullshit." She looks at me as she speaks. "Jessica..." She starts out strong, but then slowly begins to tear up, which surprises the hell out of me. "I miss you." She admits. "Words can't explain how much I miss you." Tears roll down her face as she talks.

"You miss me?" I ask, shocked at her revelation.

"I do. I made a mistake letting you leave. I need you. I need to be with you Jessica. I don't think I can go on without you." She begins to bawl at this point. "It's killing me."

"Brianna..." Seeing her cry like this was breaking my heart all over again. "It's okay." I lean in and wrap my arms around her. "Don't cry..." I pause. "I'm here."

"You don't know how good it feels to be in your arms again and for you to be in mine." She's still bawling. "I don't know if I'll ever be able to let go."

"I know how you feel... This feels umm." I pause again, searching for a word to describe the feeling. "This feels almost right." I tell her. "Like I'm home or something. If that makes sense."

Eventually after much hugging, we manage to pull apart. She looks at me, tears still streaming down her face. "I want you to stay. I know it's a little late, but I want you to come back. Please Jessica, give me another chance."

I couldn't believe this was the same Brianna Steele that I've always known. I know some things will never change about her, but this was an unexpected miracle. That Brianna has finally shown me just how much she cares about me and just how much I mean to her.

I still don't know really what to say or do, so I just sit there in silence, my brain overwhelmed.

"I know I won't ever be able to treat you as good as she does. I won't ever be able to give you all that you want or be exactly what you want." She tells me. "But I know that I can't possibly let you go. I can't be without you. I've been without you for 37 days now." Even though I stopped keeping count, she still was. How adorable. "There may be other girls, there may not be. I don't know what's going to happen, Jessica. I don't want to promise something only to break it. I just know that I want you. That's the only thing I know for certain."

"I don't want you to change for me Brianna. You are who you are, and that wouldn't be fair to you."

"I didn't say that I was going to change. I already have in so many ways. I'm just saying that no girl can compare to you or even come close. You're not only everything I want, but you're everything I need."

Brianna isn't perfect, despite looking like it on the outside. I know she has her flaws. I just don't think I can walk away. I'll probably regret it for the rest of my life if I do. She has changed so much since we were together. She's grown, and I can tell she really means everything that she's saying.

"I want there to be rules. There needs to be rules. Things can't be exactly the way they were last time, I deserve better." I make her aware of that.

"I know. Jessica I'll do almost anything to have you back." She begins to cry again. "Please. We can negotiate anything."

My relationship with Kelsey was simple and normal. I know that going down this path with Brianna again, it would be the opposite. I know that we would never have the typical relationship, but honestly I think I just want her back.

I lean in and wrap my arms around her again tightly. We pull apart, our faces just centimeters apart from each other.

"I really missed you Jessica." She whispers.

"I missed you too Brianna." I lean in and kiss her.

"I missed these lips." Tears begin to fill her eyes again.

"Don't cry, babe." I kiss her again.

"I almost lost you. I won't ever make the same mistake of doing that again." She kisses me.

I couldn't be happier at what has come from this talk, but I'm feeling sad at the same time. I almost had completely forgotten about Kelsey for most part of the conversation. I forgot that she was still my girlfriend. I care about her and I don't want to hurt her, but I have no choice. Brianna is who I want to be with. It's always been her, despite all my efforts to get over her.

Kelsey deserves better then me, I know that. She deserves someone who will be fully devoted to her, and not be thinking about another girl. She's amazing, and if it weren't for Brianna I'm sure we would have had a really amazing relationship. There's not a doubt in my mind that she won't find the girl that's right for her.

"I need to go talk to Kelsey." I frown.

"You're sure that this is what you want, that I'm what you want? You know who I am Jessica, and I just want you to be 100% certain." She takes my hand.

"I'm sure. I've never been more sure about anything in my life. I know who you are, I've known it since day one, but I can't help the way I still feel about you." She kisses my hand. "I don't want to always wonder "what if" you know? I want to give this another shot. Whatever this is to you."

"To me, this is everything." Brianna presses her lips against mine, kissing me passionately.

I know how she feels about love. I don't expect to hear it from her. I don't expect her to always show it. Sure, I would love all those things. But, it's just something I'm going to have to learn to accept. I won't put up with all of her bullshit like I did before, but there's some things I'm willing to let go. Just as long as it's not like last time. I have a strong feeling it won't be, I'm sure it'll be better then ever.

Brianna walks me to the door, holding my hand the whole way. "I'm so happy Jessica." She wraps her arms around my waist and pulls me close. "I'll try my best to make you happy. You've made me the happiest person in the world today." She kisses me.

I kiss her back. "I'm happy too, trust me." I smile. "I'll be back later, okay?"

"Wait, one more kiss?"

I wrap my arms around her neck and kiss her deeply.

As I walk to my car, I take out my phone and text Kelsey. "Hey are you busy?" I send it, and wait for a response.

While I'm getting in my car, I feel my phone buzz. I take it out and see she replied. "No. You want to come over?" She asks.

"Yeah. I'll be there in 20." I text back.

Driving to her house, I felt nervous, and even more guilty. I couldn't help my feelings for Brianna, I love her. I've always loved her. It's always been her. I still feel bad of course. I've never liked hurting people. Kelsey has just been such an incredible girlfriend, I just hope she'll understand.

I ring the doorbell, and she answers shortly after. "Hi." She smiles at me.

I smile at her before coming inside. "Hey..."

"What's up gorgeous?" She asks.

"Umm nothing much." I take a seat at the table, and she does the same. "We... We need to talk Kelsey."

"No..." Her smile fades to a frown. "Please don't do this." She begs.

"I'm sorry. I don't want to. You've been so perfect, and I'm just so sorry." I tell her.

"It's Brianna, isn't it?" She asks, tearing up.

"Yeah..."

"I knew this was going to happen. I fucking knew it." Tears begin to flood down her face.

"Kelsey, I'm sorry. I hope that you understand. You'll find someone way better. I know it." I try to make her feel better.

"Just get out." She responds.

"Kelsey, come on."

"GET OUT!" She yells.

"Okay... Okay fine." I get up. "I'm sorry again, just so you know."

When I get back in my car, I take out my phone and call Selena.

"Hello?" She answers.

"Hi..." I respond, trying not to cry.

"What's wrong?" She asks. Just as I start to say something, she cuts me off. "Okay, don't tell me. You dumped Kelsey for Brianna, didn't you?"

"How did you know...?" I sniffle.

"I think everybody saw it coming, Jess."

"I feel so bad." I confess to her.

"Don't. If Brianna is the person you really want to be with, then you had to do it." She comforts me a bit, making me feel the slightest amount better. "Come over okay?"

"Okay, I'll be there soon." I hang up and start the car.

The first thing Sel did when she saw me, was give me a big hug, before slapping my arm.

"Ow, what was that for?" I ask, rubbing my arm.

"You're stupid, Kelsey was amazing." She rolls her eyes.

"I know, but you said it yourself. Brianna is the one I want to be with, so I had to do it." I glare at her, my arm still feeling sore. "You just don't like her, you never have."

"I know, I know. I'm still scarred for life. It'll take me many, many therapy sessions to at least be somewhat okay with what I saw." She shudders as we sit down on her bed. "But Jess, if you're happy, I'm happy. I know you really love her."

"I do." I reply. "I always will."

"So tell me in detail what happened." She orders.

"Well Brianna texted me saying she wanted to talk, and basically told me how much she wants and needs me back. It was actually quite romantic... I would have never expected that from her."

"You're never one to go into much detail, are you?" She rolls her eyes again. "I never expected that from her either. I knew she had to be miserable without you because you're just that awesome, but it's nice that she wasn't such a narcissistic bitch for once. She actually told you how she was feeling."

"Yeah, I know. She's never said anything like that before."

"Did she tell you that she loves you?" Selena asks.

"No..." I answer. "But she didn't have to."

"Isn't that what you've wanted all along from her?"

"Of course I want her to tell me that she loves me. Although she didn't say it with words, she proved it today." I tell her.

"Yeah, I guess she kind of did. Maybe she'll still come around."

"I'm doubtful, but we'll see. I know our relationship will be different for sure. There's going to be rules."

"Like what?" She sounds very curious.

"I'm not exactly sure yet, I'm still thinking about it."

After I leave Selena's, I go back to Brianna's. There's been so much driving around today. Along with many emotions and tears. I never expected to see Brianna like that ever, but it was kind of nice to see her soft side. She always puts up such a tough outer exterior, but I've always known that it's just an act.

"Hi baby." She pulls me inside, and kisses me. "I just can't stop kissing you. I hope you don't mind." She kisses me again.

"I definitely don't mind." I giggle.

"How did it go?" She asks.

"Not good, but all that matters is that I'm here with you now." I lean in and kiss her again, this time a little more aggressive then before. I slide my tongue in her mouth, wrapping my arms tightly around her. She pushes me up against the wall as she kisses me.

"Jessica, wait." She breaks the intense kiss, just as things were starting to get really good.

"What?" I ask, wondering what she has to say.

"Come sit down with me." She grabs my hand and leads me over to the couch. She sits down and I sit down on her lap, our arms wrapped around each other. "Before we do this, I want to make some stuff clear."

"Okay. We should do that." I agree.

"You're my girlfriend. I don't want you to doubt that." As I hear those words, the biggest smile ever spreads across my face.

"Girlfriend?" I repeat.

"In a way, yes. If that's what we need to label it, I'm okay with that." She kisses me. "But I hope you know we won't have the umm... Typical relationship most lesbians have."

"I know. I'm okay with that. I've learned to accept it." I respond.

"Good, now I want us to establish some rules."

"Okay... Well I know that you like to "fuck" Brianna. And I know that you oppose the concept of monogamy." I say, racking my brain trying to think. "I just... I want us to establish some boundaries."

She nods.

"I don't want you to kiss anyone else but me." I tell her.

"That's fair." She leans in and kisses me.

"Like you can "fuck" okay, but just no kissing anyone else."

"Okay... What else?" She asks.

"I want you to be home to me by at least 1 AM."

"3 AM...." She protests.

"Fine, 2 AM." I negotiate.

"2 AM it is."

"I don't want to see it or hear about it."

"Of course not." Brianna kisses my cheek.

"I want people to know you're with me. Like that I'm your girl."

"I already called Michelle and told her."

I smile at her. "You're so cute."

"I know." A smirk forms on her face. "Anything else?"

"Hmmm...." I try to think.

"You can always add to it later."

"Okay, I'll do that if anything else comes to mind." I grin. "So can we have sex now?" I bite my lip.

"You don't have to ask me twice." She slides off my shirt, before kissing me roughly.

I kiss her back as she lays me down on the couch, getting on top of me. She moves her lips down to my neck, and her hands down to my pants, unbuttoning them. After all of our clothes are removed, she slides her fingers inside me, kissing me deeply.

It's almost like I had been waiting for this moment forever, for us to be together again. Nothing has ever felt this right before. She's the person I'm meant to be with, I'm sure of it. I've missed her so much, and it's so amazing to be this close to her, even closer then we were before.

As she moves her fingers, we continue to kiss. It's like our lips can't get enough of each other, which they can't. I slide my hands along her back as she increases her pace, a soft moan escaping my mouth. She moves her lips down to my neck again, softly biting it. I close my eyes, and just enjoy the feeling of her lips and teeth all over me as she moves her fingers.

After all is finished, we just lay on the couch together, her holding me tightly.

"I'm so happy, Jessica. Like really. I know I can't stop saying it, but it's true. " She kisses my head.

"I think we both are." I kiss her hand.

"You're perfect." She compliments me.

"You're just saying that because I'm your girlfriend Brianna."

"No really, you are. I'm damn fucking lucky you're mine."

"I know this is completely random, but my prom is Friday... In six days from now. I know this it totally dorky of me to ask, but will you go with me?"

"Jessica..." She starts to object. "Fine, I would love to go with you."

"Sure you would." I giggle, knowing that she would rather be doing anything else.

"It's a date." She tells me.

Things in my life seem to be better then ever, in fact they're perfect. If I only knew at the time what the future has in store for me...