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PHIWAYINKOSI

Damn! that was easy, I didn't think she'd say yes to coming back with me.
We driving in my drive way,we in the BMW 2coupe right now, I get out the car, quickly open the door for her and Jomo takes her bags Jomo is my head of security, I trust him with my life, I take him everywhere.
We settle in and she's admiring my house, she seems impressed I'm glad.
now I need to tell her this secret,jerrr I'm scared ASF!
umam'Gladys made lunch but we not hungry so we take a walk around the Golf Course.
ME:MaZulu?
THANDO:yes?
she's blushing and she looks really cute right now, oh and we still haven't had that conversation about her dreams and all that stuff.
ME:Thando baby?
THANDO:I'm listening Gumede
ME:baby, indaba le ndaba ithi UKBA'BCAYI, just promise you'll be calm
THANDO:ok, I promise
She looks like she's slowly starting to panic but I'm just going to drop it, if I die, I die and I'll die a happy man, I died next to the love of my life
ME:I HAVE A DAUGHTER MaZulu and she's 10years old.

She looks like she's about to cry, her cheeks are turning pink,I'm shit scared it's just not looking good right now.

OLOTHANDO
I don't think I heard Phiwa correctly.

ME:come again, uthi ubani unani Phiwa?
PHIWA:a child. I have a child.
Phiwa isn't serious, he just ruined this moment for me. No! fuck I was never ready, a 10 year old at that even?
ngise'hlane impela Weh!
ME:cela singene endlini.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not against the child, I'm just not ready for everything that comes with the child, if you get what I mean.
We get into the house, go to he's study and he closes and locks the door, we sit on the 2 seater office couch and now I'm ready to have a serious conversation with him, not just about the daughter but about everything else.

PHIWA:baby you okay?
He says giving me a bottle of water
ME:I'm good, can we talk now Phiwayinkosi, like actual talking before everything piles up.
PHIWA:I was still a student at UCT, I had just met Londeka the mother of my daughter.
The way he says it, I just know that he's proud to be a father.
PHIWA:Everything started out chilled, we were hanging out, I knew her because of my friend
Sisekelo,they are cousins,me and Londeka met at a chilled braai the next time I saw her was at a night club, we went back to her dorm and shit got retarded, her excuse was that maybe the condom burst I still don't believe that but I am  over it now.
When Nandipha turned 3years old Londeka dumped me Nandi, I was still not ready for her so I took her home to live with my pare....
ME:wait, wait. Why she's your daughter, what do you mean? You weren't ready for her

PHIWA:listen please. I wasn't ready to be a father to her, i was okay with financially supporting her,that's all I could do, I was way too busy building my companies,Londeka is a D
J somewhere in Cape Town, living it up she decided to forget about Nandi

I can tell what Londeka d I did makes him livid.
ME:I'm sorry.
PHIWA:Why, it makes you feel angry and I'm sorry she left.
He pulls me in and kisses me on my forehead.
PHIWA:Well, that December I went home and I made time to bond with Nandipha, I gave her my love and ever since then I never looked back from Nandi, she's my world.
He's saying all of this smiling like a retard, it's cute and I love seeing him talk about Nandi, the smile suits him.

PHIWAYINKOSI
She pulls me in for a hug and let's go, and says "I'm proud of you and I'm glad that Nandi has a father like you", I really love my daughter I love her so much, I actually miss my princess and I think I should take her out of the boarding Royal Academy School I'm miss being with my daughter.
She sits facing opposite the couch, so she's facing in front of her.
I have a feeling I'm not ready for what she's about to tell me and it's about her past.
THANDO:just hold my hand Phiwa, don't let go please.

Am I Really Ready?
I'm scared of my own reaction after hear this.
She squeezes my hand.

OLOTHANDO

ME:I was living in the St Louis orphanage in Durban all my childhood and when I turned 11 years old I was taken into a fosta home, The Cason Family there were other girls too and only two boys when I moved there, there was something so weird about that household, every night one of the girls would go MIA and come back in the mornings, just found it weird Mr and Mrs Cason never found anything wrong with that.
When I turned 12 my body started developing and Mr Cason was starting to undress me with he's eyes, very uncomfortable looks, he's wife never found anything wrong with that. One night MrCason gave me a bath, dressed me up in a new night dress with no underwear on, I was so confused and she left me in the guest room and about 15 minutes later her Husband walked in.
I was so confused he was touching me, I felt so uncomfortable, he made me face the other way he bent me over and...he...he lubricated in my anus with he's saliva and he put it in, it was so unexpected I cried so hard, he was so lost in what he was doing he didn't even see me bleed, he finished he's evil deed and left.
I was so scared, I couldn't walk, I was numb, he raped me I knew this because they taught us about good touch and bad touch back in the orphanage and I knew that was definitely a bad touch. Mrs Cason later came in helped me wash and put me in bedroom with the other girls,l cried myself to sleep, no one cared. I realised the next morning that they were used to that, that was the life that they were used to, I ran away to a different orphanage and I begged them not to take me away to another fosta home, I told them what happened and they promised not, that was the last time I ever spoke about it, the ladies took care of me and they sent me to school but when I was 18years old the orphanage sponsors started to harass me and thats when my nightmares became worse, I always dreamt of Mr Cason coming after me, same thing every night.

I was a crying mess by the time I was done,he hugged me so tight, like he's life was depending on it.
I was crying out so hard and so loud.

PHIWAYINKOSI

I'm going to find the Cason Family and I'm going to make sure they die a slow, painful and miserable death, no one and I mean no one gets to make MaPhakathwayo feel so much pain and get away with it, it's about rain blood.

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