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PHIWAYINKOSI

I've just gotten out Calistos and I'm driving to the East right now to go see my baby, yes she dropped her location.
I'm grateful for the fact that she agreed to this lunch I really thought she was going to be difficult about it eish kodwa bafwethu I really see a future with this woman, her physical appearance is everything and more, her eyes OH MY DAYZZ! Her eyes drive me crazy, Her voice kuthi ngiye awuu madoda MaZulu!
right now I'm listening to Call Me Up by Thabiso Lavish and I'm vibing this song sets me now that I relate.
1:55pm I just arrived and I call her
ME:mama?
MAZULU:hi
ME:ngise gatini, please tell unogada ukuthi avule la
She hangs up, eh I must tap that respect into her lo.
                               MOMENTS LATER
HER:Hey, unjani?
ME:ngya'phila MaGumede, wena unjani?
I say looking into her eyes, she doesn't look okay putting aside how she's dressed I can feel it, I don't know how but feel it.
HER:I'm...I'm uhh well I guess
See? She's a little skeptical of how she feels and I'll know how she feels by the end of our lunch.
I sit in the lounge, make myself comfortable and 10 min later she comes in with our food, tray and a damp cloth.

I'm definitely wifing her by 2023.

OLOTHANDO

3:25pm
We've just finished eating and now we watching a movie on Showmax, Love Lives Here by Lungile Radu,i honestly just love this movie and he pauses the movie then looks at me, oh well now I feel awkward,whats he doing? So I ask
ME:wenzani?
HIM:uthi kwenzekeni earlier? Something about you almost dying I'd like to think
First of all let me admit I was way overly exaggerating, but anyway.
ME:it's not that deep really hey.
HIM:No! it is clearly because right now you don't look okay and I'm just really trying to help you feel better, khuluma nami Olothando, ngithi kwenzekeni and kwenzakalani?
I get scared and I tell him everything from the dream, to my bathroom dilemma and funny enough I am allowing myself to feel for the first time in forever, I'm allowing myself to cry, feel angry, feel sad and feel hate. I also feel like I'm ready to take the journey of healing.
He ran me a bubble bath with my bath salts and later I got out and ordered in for us, I get dressed in my sheep cotton oneziey, socks, doek and rabbit slippers.
I go check on him and he's watch a match between Aston Villa and Chelsea,I'm called to say that my Mr D is at the gate I let him in receive the food and uPhiwa use'muva kwam as I receive this food, guess what? Just so he could pay, he takes the food from me and I carry the smaller paper bag atleast.
7:30pm we've just eaten and there's a knock on the door and he gets up, comes back with a duffel Nike bag, uhhhm ok?
He comes back about 30min later and he smells nice, fresh and like Aqua type and he's changed, into comfortable clothes, he looks and smells sexy, I don't know how he smells sexy but nje.
I tell him I'm going to sleep and I go check if the doors are locked, he helps me out here and there, we get into my bed, uhhhg? My guy, guestroom perhaps? Yazini I'm way too tired from the crying I'm not even going to intervene.
Lights off, I'm facing the other way, he pulls me to him and we sleep in that position.
2:30am

He just woke me up from my painful nightmare that happened 15years ago, it scares me how it still haunts me, how i  never forgot all of this even after I ran away from Durban,lord help me.
PHIWA:It's okay, Thando I'm here.
He's brushing my back, while cuddling my back and I'm hysterically crying right now, It hurts so bad, it hurts because I was 12 years old but it still lives rent free in my head, that year lives rent free in my head,so many times he anuly raped me a disgusting thing he found sexually pleasing never raped me in my lady part, disgusting fat pig and I hope and pray he got HIV from he's disgusting dirty shit and died, people like him have hot seats in Hell far from the devil, not even the devil wants people like him.
PHIWA:Lala mama, we'll talk about it in the morning.
I untangle myself from him, get on my knees and pray when I'm done I get up open my drawer, take out my weed open my bedroom sliding door and get my matches from the balcony, I keep it there it's the only place I smoke, I smoke and the night cool breeze sends chills down my spine and I feel him standing behind me making me feel way too short for my liking he's in he's sweat pants and black Nike socks, very much shirtless, eight pack is out to play mfana, he holds me from behind and takes the weed out my hand and he puffs, we looking at the moon,he blows it on my face and I giggle and say...
ME:hehh ennah Phiwa, NO!
I say giggling and he chuckles
PHIWA:you know my father's mother was the only person who called me that may her soul rest in peace, then you came along and you now call me that,everybody else calls me ngo'Nkosi.
ME:this feels weird, we met just Wednesday afternoon and Friday midnight you in my bed comforting me.
HIM:I don't care how fast this feels or how rushed but it's our thing and it's meant to different, unga'naki what people will have to say, I don't know what I'm doing but I know I'm not going anywhere,never.
ME:FOREVER?
HIM:Till the casket drops MaGumede.
ME:ok, I hope we can withstand what's next, I have a feeling we about to start world war
HIM:akube njalo.
I think we both about to have this shit kick in, because we a bit quiet, I think we letting it settle in.
He turns me around and brushes he's lips on mine and in he goes, I don't let him in yet, he stops he looks into my eyes and I have a feeling this kiss would be a stamp that we destined forever, he gives me an assuring look, this look says so much and he brushes he's lips on mine again and this time I let him in and just like that bahlali, ngi'thathiwe, forever that being.
He carries me into my room closes and locks the sliding door, covers with the curtain and into bed he puts me but not before I take my mini speaker and connect to the Bluetooth from my phone, there's a song playing in my head, I play the song and it's... First Time by TEEKS and into dream world we go.