-SINS POV-

One question has been a constant ringing in my head ever since the ball:

Do I like her?

Sure, she's beautiful. Sure, she makes me laugh. Sure, we have good banter.

But I don't do feelings.

I'm a lover of books, a strong romance reader. Since I was young, I adored this idea of romance. But then it hit me that everyone gets tired of me- my mum did after not very long at all with me, for fucks sake.

I liked a girl once. I was fourteen, it was the summer holidays going into year ten. We were dating for about a week, before she got tired of me and slept with someone else.

For me, that was the last straw.

So, thinking about it, the answer is yes. I do like her, and knowing that is one of the most scariest fucking things. Because when you like someone, when they leave, it hurts.

"Sin?" Rhiannon snaps her fingers in my face, causing me to leave my alternative world.

I look at her. "Yes?"

"What you thinking about? We're here trying to discuss baby names with you, and your in a completely different place."

Brandon and her look at me intently. I shake my head, I'd trust Rhiannon with my thoughts perhaps but not Brandon, I don't know him well enough yet.

"Brandon, our baby wants a Mcdonalds. Go get a Mcdonalds, please?" She bats her eyelashes and he rolls his eyes, but hops up straight away and starts getting ready to leave.

Man, that guy is whipped.

Once he leaves, Rhiannon turns to me and leans in, clearly interested in whatever she wants me to say.

"Spill."

I stare at her in confusion, and she sighs. "What were you thinking about when you zoned out?"

"I think, um.." I stutter, before taking a breath and continuing, "you were right, okay? Your always fu- I mean fricking right."

She grins appreciatively, her hands on her belly, a habit she has developed.

"Hold up. I was right? Im always right, but when?" She thinks, then gasps and puts her hand to her mouth.

"I knew it! Omg, your babies will be so cute!"

I roll my eyes. "Shut up, Rhi. And not everyone wants to have kids at this age, no offence."

She frowns but then shakes my comment off, clearly too interested in the first thing I said to have a go at me.

"Anyway, back to you and Cat. My besties together!"

I chuckle. "Rhiannon, I only just admitted to liking her. She definitely doesn't feel the same, and I most likely won't act upon my actions- well, sleeping with her doesn't sound too bad, but dating someone? That does."

"There's the Sin I know."

I swiftly change the subject and speak to her about how she feels about the fact shes going to be a mother, and she tells me the dates of her first proper scan thing or whatever, and how she's already planned how to do a gender reveal when the time comes.

Luckily, Brandon arrives and although I stay for a bit, I leave not too long after he comes back as I have work starting 2am until 6am.

I unlock the door to my room and dump my stuff down. I'm thirsty, so I down a pint of water then instantly need a piss.

The idea of a bath also sounds good (possibly one of my favourite things about this room) so I take my top off ready and open the door.

"Sin! What the fuck!" Lina covers her breasts with her hands, her lower body hidden underneath bubbles.

My jaw drops for a minutes, and I am speechless. I can feel my dick twitching, so I turn around and face the wall.

"I need to piss."

She sighs. "I'm trying to have a fucking bath, can you knock next time? And maybe don't gawp at me for fucking ages, I'm not some girl off pornhub."

"Lock the door next time." I shrug, unbuckling my jeans.

"What do you think your doing?" She asks, and I turn at her, standing in my boxers.

"I'm going for a piss, moody."

Lina pulls over the shower curtain with a loud huff, and I hum whilst I pee to try and avoid her hearing- that's a weird pet peeve I have.

This is not something I'd normally be comfortable doing, but if I didn't go now I would end up wetting my shorts.

When I'm done, I apologise to Lina then wash my hands and leave. I collapse onto my bed and fumble through my draws for a bottle of vodka, then text Zachary and ask him to cover for me tonight as I don't feel up to working.

I swig from the bottle, bored out of my mind.

Lina emerges from the bathroom around twenty minutes later. Her hair is tied up in a tight bun on her head, her eyelashes look curled and her lips are shining, presumably from that lipgloss things girls enjoy using. The gold necklace I haven't seen her without protects her neck, and she is wearing a red tube too with black jeans and those red fishnet tight things that are enough to make anyone swoon.

"You look beautiful, little red." I tell her, a bit too truthfully.

She smiles at me. "Your becoming nice, Sin, be careful, anyone might think your bad reputation is made up."

"My bad reputation is in the past, it's the future that I care about."

"How sweet." She says sarcastically, like most the shit that comes out of her mouth.

I stick my finger up at her, before checking my messages.

Zach: Bullshit are you ill, you little liar. But yeah, I need the money anyway so I'll cover for you my guy, chat later yhyh?
Rhiannon: Still can't believe you😱😱xx

I roll my eyes at both of their messages- Zach because he's a roadman and Rhiannon because she seems so excited about something so little.

Lina lays on her bed, headphones on her ears, smoking as per. Her music is so loud, I can hear Nirvana I think bursting from them, her head moving to the music.

I receive a text from Jagger, saying Arianna and Paige are at his, inviting Lina and I.

"Little red." I say, but she doesn't hear me, so I pull her headphones off.

Her eyes send daggers at me and I gulp, I wouldn't admit it to her but she's kinda scary.

Kinda.

"What do you want?" She sighs, whilst yanking her headphones out of my hands.

I grin. "Nice to see you too, moody. We're going to Jaggers, get ready."

"And why do you think I'll come with you?" She challenges, sitting up, clearly pissed that I interrupted her.

I shrug, then sit on my bed. "Your lonely, aren't you? Just sitting on your bed listening to music."

"Music is my life, Sin, it doesn't make me lonely."

"Says a loner who sits around listening to music all the time."

She leans forward, biting her lip, glaring at me.

"Fine, dickhead. I'm coming. But only so you don't start crying again, crybaby." She ruffles my hair, fucking up my style that took way too long to do, something she knows angers me.

Lina grabs a jacket and puts her headphones on, then we leave and head to Jaggers.

"You didn't tell me she was coming." Paige says once we arrive, looking at Lina in disgust.

Lina laughs. "Trust me, if I knew you were coming, I would've at least gotten high beforehand so I wouldn't remember the joys of your company."

"Oh wow, getting high like always? How aren't you dead yet."

Jagger and I cough awkwardly. "Let's not argue girls." He says, trying to release the tension.

Arianna looks between everyone. "Guys, lets be honest, this is long overdue, just let them at each other, they'll feel better."

Paige grins. "Listen up you little slut. I don't like you. You're a prick, and you're a drug addict."

"Who do you think supplies me with those drugs, dumbass? Your perfect little boyfriend, and the way he asks me to pay him for them, well...." Lina winks at Paige before sitting beside Arianna.

Paige furrows her eyebrows, glaring at Lina.

Oh shit.

"Is it bad this is turning me on?" Jagger whispers, causing me to quietly chuckle.

"Yes."

Jagger may be my best mate, but some of the shit he says is so weird. However, he never fails to amuse me.

We watch as war begins - now would be a really good time to have popcorn.

"You little slut-"

Lina rolls her eyes. "Please stop talking, I do love a good workout but your really not worth the calories I burn talking to you."

"You're a bitch."

A smirk forms on Lina's face, and I know her response to being called a bitch off by heart by now.
"I know, thank you!"

Paige looks her up and down in disgust. "Hopefully the drugs take you."

"I've been thinking that too, but I guess I have a strong immune system, sucks, doesn't it?" Lina shrugs, before turning to Arianna, clearly done with arguing.

"You're going to die a drug addict. Is that how your mum died too? Was she a little druggie like you?"

What the fuck?

"You just crossed a line, Paige, get the fuck out." Jagger, Arianna and I say in unison.

I watch Lina as her hand shakes and she gnaws violently on her lips, her breathing shaky.

Then she steps forward, and the hand that was just shaking collides with Paige's face.

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Hello, hello, hello!
Sooo, Sin likes Lina! Bout fucking time he realised it! x

Anyone else want to kill Paige? She's arguing how the 'popular girls' in secondary did in like year seven!

The thing about her mum really crossed the line though.

Sorry for the grammar mistakes, grammar is not one of my specialities so I am sorry and I am trying to work on it!

Warning notice:

Beware, the next chapter contains mature scenes such as:

⚠️ drug themes
⚠️ sexual themes

Themes like this and other sensitive topics will feature throughout my book. Please be careful, I will remind you every few chapters but please if a scene is affecting you mentally, skip it and don't stay for my crap writing, put your mental health first!

I hope you enjoyed this chapter. This writers block thing really isn't going away, and it's making me doubt my writing, but I'm pushing through it!

Love, anonymous a <3 xoxo