- a week later-

My birthday was in 2 days. I didn't really feel any different, I was only going on 16 not 30. Ray decided that he'd do the deal at the house so he called me down and told me "don't make any noise cause mouse will think your not here Aight?".

It was bright and early 8am and I was on my phone playing iMessage games with ash. I didn't even know he was up but when he text "hey." I smiled and sent a hey back before agreeing to play with him.

After about 20 minutes of mouse being there, I heard arguing. It consisted of Ray confronting mouse about his prices and mouse questioning where rays loyalty stood. Out of nowhere I heard gun shots. Well one specifically. I then heard the door slam and I ran downstairs quickly to find Ray laying on the floor, blood leaving his chest.

"Hey, hey Ray." I say running up to him. "Hey Mari." He says weakly giving me a small smile. "We're gonna get you to a hospital ok?" I say to him. "Ok." He mutters and I scramble around for my phone. "Mari, my nightstand. The letter." He says quietly before his eyes start to close. "Ray, Raymond." I say shaking him. "I love you." He says.

"I love you too, but open your fucking eyes." I say and shake him. The door was creaked open so I took the opportunity and yelled. "Someone help! I need help! Ashtray, fez, anyone!" I yell out and that's when I look down to Ray, taking his last breath. "Ray. Please," I cry into his shoulder.

"Ray wake up!" I yell the feel someone pulling my away from him. It was ashtray. Fez stood at the front door calling someone, hopefully the police because Ray wasn't gone. Not my brother.

I tried to pull away from ash and get back to Ray but he just held me closer until I broke down. "He's not gone." I say shaking my head in tears as ash hugs me close. "He's not gone!" I shout weakly before I hear sirens down the street and ash lifts me up and takes me upstairs.

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It was 12. I looked to my left on the floor. Ash was sleeping. He refused to leave me no matter how many times I said I wanted to be alone. I held the letter in my hands, "read at 12" was written in it. I quietly opened it before reading.

Dear Amari,

If your reading this I'm gone.
Happy birthday though.
I knew that I'd probably not be alive by the time you were 16.
Yea, but as I'm writing this your currently 12.

Not sure how I went out,
but I hope I didn't take shit from anyone in my last moments
I don't want you to sit around and mope alright?

I want you to know that even if I'm not there,
I'll always be there.
And I love you no less than I did when I was walking the earth

You gave me a chance of having a daughter,
Because I knew I probably wouldn't live to have one
You always made my day.

The days I felt like quitting,
The days I wanted to just dissolve,
You were there.

So enjoy your 16th kid.
I'll be watching ,
So don't do dumb shit.

Also I'm not sure where we are now.

Much love to you little sister

                                                 Sincerely, ray.

I looked up from the wet letter from my tears and stared outside. I looked at one certain star that was shining brighter than the rest. "You missed the cupcakes dummy." I say before laughing, breaking down afterwards.

"Hey, it's ok I got you." Ash says climbing into the bed. "He missed the cupcakes." I repeat and ash lifts me up, taking me downstairs. He opened the fridge and placed the bowl of pre-mixed batter on the counter. "Don't think he did." He says and saddened smile appears on my face.

Soon me and ash were done backing and we iced 3 cupcakes. I lit one candle and began to speak. "I wish that every star I see, every sunset I look at, a glimpse of Ray will be in it." I say wiping a stray tear. "Cheers." I say clanking my cupcake with ashtrays then rays. "Cheers." Ash says and we bite into them, looking at the lone one on the counter never going to be touched but the right person.

A/N: ALEXA PLAY SPACE SONG😭😭
He missed the cupcakes...
Y'all I took that interaction with them from the scene when Eddie was dying.

Dustin: "we're gonna get you to a hospital ok?"
Eddie: "ok."

I'm sobbing rn.