"Hey beautiful you want to take Sammy to the park?" Alex ask me coming into his room.

"Sure." I answer. It's been two weeks since then. Alex and I talked about it and he doesn't hate me for killing her like I thought he would. He said she deserved it for betraying her pack and helping kidnap Sammy. It's just he didn't like that I did it, he wishes someone else did it but he understands why I had to do it. Sammy stays really close to us now. Won't even let Vanna or alpha hold him. Poor baby lost his father, his mother, kidnapped all before the age of ten months old.

He started sleeping with Alex and I because he wouldn't sleep on his own and when he did he'd wake up screaming. I'm hoping he forgets this as he gets older. That's gotta do something to him phycological right? Yeah I think so too. I pick up Sammy heading for the door when Alex stops me. He cups my face and leans down.

"You know I love you?" he ask me.

"I know." I answer. He leans in tilting my head up and kisses me passionately leaving me breathless. He breaks the kiss putting his forehead to mine both of us breathing heavily. I keep my eyes closed just enjoying the closeness when I'm hit in the face.

"Ma" Sammy says hitting my cheek. I snap my head to him shocked. I look up at Alex to see him smiling.

"Is he saying what I think he's saying?" I ask shocked.

"Yes he is." Alex answers smiling. I didn't know what to say or do. I was in shock. Why on earth is this little guy calling me ma for. I suck at being a mother.

Besides what the hell am I going to do when I have to leave? I don't know what to do.

"Come on momma." Alex says pulling my hand. He drags us out of the room down the stairs. He grabs Sammy's bag and pulls us out to the car. I buckle Sammy in still in my daze. I get in the front seat. "You alright?" Alex ask me.

"Yeah." I answer numbly. What the hell do I do? I got a mate that I think I like. I have a kid calling me ma. I'm going to be leaving. How on earth did I get into this mess? This was suppose to be a job nothing more. We were suppose to come here do our job and leave. I had no intentions on staying. Now I'm torn between staying here and my job. "We're here." Alex says bringing me out of my thoughts. I nod and get out. I get Sammy out and we go to his favorite thing. The swings. I set him and start pushing him. Then I hear it.

'guys home' Tate says. I froze and I could feel the color drain from my face.

"What's wrong?" Alex ask. I couldn't answer. I was literally frozen. "Your going aren't you?" Alex ask me. I look at him to see him sitting with his knees kinda to his chest and forearms on his knees on the ground with his eyes closed.

"Yeah." I say truthfully. I think. I'm not so sure anymore. He nods bowing it.

"Please stay." he whispers.

"I can't." I say.

"Bullshit!" he yells jumping up. "You said it yourself you can! You just won't!" he yells at me.

"What about my job?" I ask calmly. I get that he's upset. "What about me?! What about Sammy?!" he yells at me. "Oh that's right you don't care about us. How could I be so stupid." he says. He comes over taking Sammy out of the swing.

"Alex please don't do this." I say calmly.

"Screw you you heartless bitch." he says walking away.

"Alex!" I yell at him. He just keeps walking away. "Alex!" I yell again but nothing.

He gets in the car buckling up Sammy then drives away. I watch until I can't see him anymore. I plop down on a regular swing sighing. I put my head in my hands and cry. I actually cry over this. I don't know what to do. I sit there and cry for I don't know how long until Tate interrupts me.

'Anissa' he calls.

'what' I ask.

'are you okay' he ask.

'yeah'

'what's going on'

'nothing'

'bullshit Anissa Alex comes storming in the house cussing you without you behind him'

'he's mad' I say.

'well no shit what for' he ask.

'he wants me to stay' I say.

'oh and your not' he ask.

'no' I say.

'where you at' he ask.

'park' I answer.

'I'm on my way' he says. I nod an okay. I know he can't see me and I have no clue why I do that. I dry my tears as I walk to the curb and wait for him.

When he pulls up I get in and let the tears fall again. He says nothing just let's me cry and drives. He takes us to an ice cream shop. We get out and go in. I sit down while he orders us some ice cream. He bring it back and we eat in silence. When we are done we go home.

"Maybe he's calm now so you two can talk." he offers as we pull up to the house. I just nod knowing it isn't true. We get out go inside. I go straight to my room and start packing. When I'm done I think what's the harm in talking? So I get up take my bag downstairs go back up upstairs. I get to his door gently knocking on it.

"What?" he snaps. I sigh heavily opening the door to see him laying on the bed staring at the ceiling. "Oh it's you." he grunts.

"Alex don't do this." I say.

"Just leave Anissa the sooner you get out of here the better. I won't have to look at your face anymore and I can move on to someone better prettier not as heartless." he sneers. I close my eyes.

"Please stop." I whisper almost in tears again.

"LEAVE!" he bellows standing up.

"Alex please well see each other again." I say. "Who knows maybe I'll have to come back again." I don't know why I said that. It's like I expect him to wait for me.

"You expect me to wait on you?" he chuckles darkly. "Not a chance in hell! Oh no I'm going to move on. I'm going to find Sammy a perfect mother. Someone who loves him and thinks of him instead of herself. Leave Anissa before Sammy wake up!" he growls.

"Why can't you understand I have a job?" I ask him. He can say all the mean things he wants to me but I know he doesn't mean them.

"Oh I understand your job perfectly well. I get it. You'd rather kill then have your mate, a family, people who love you like I do. Like I said before you get off on that shit." he says.

"Your asking me to give up everything Alex." I tell him.

"No I'm not. Maybe cut back but I didn't ask you to give it up completely Anissa but no with you it's all or nothing. You know what just leave I want you gone before Sammy wakes up and I'm not going to argue with you over this." he says sitting down on his bed.

"I'm not trying to argue Alex I want to talk about this."

"We'll I'm done. You made your decision so just go. Leave. Go kill, I'll move on, find a better fuck. Go on Anissa." he says.

"Alex." I start. Now he's pissing me off.

"LEAVE!" he roars.

"That's right that's all I was wasn't I? You really don't want me to stay. Do you? Your only trying to keep me here because I killed your precious little girlfriend huh? Good luck fucking a grave asshole." I say turning on my heels and slamming the door shut. I start downstairs when I hear his door open.

"Damn right at least it'll be better than fucking you!" he yells after me.

"Oh real mature you fucking dick head!" I yell back. I don't know wether to laugh or be mad. I know he's upset but really?

"Didn't go to well I take it?" Tate ask as I hit the bottom of the stairs.

"Let's just go." I say grabbing my bag. I walk out the door and walk on the bus.

My heartbreaks with each step. I didn't get the goodbye I wanted. I didn't get to say goodbye to Sammy. I didn't even say goodbye to Alisha. I sit in my seat and cry as the bus pulls away. Why is it so damn hard to leave? It wasn't meant to be this hard. Something in my gut told me not to go and my heart was telling me something else that I couldn't get. I couldn't comprehend it.

"What is that?" I whisper to myself.

"It's love baby girl." Tate says above me. I look up him in shock.

"No way!" I say shocked.

"Yes my friend." he laughs. "You can do this Nissa. I'll save you a spot on the team." he tells me. Could I do this? Could I give up everything I've ever known for him? Could I only do this part time? I jump up.

"Stop!" I yell. The bus suddenly stops making me almost fall. I grab my bag and run down the isle.

"Good luck Nissa." Blake says. I just nod running.

"I'll call you guy!" I yell as I jump off the bus.

I run I swear like I never ran before. Luckily we weren't to far away from the mansion. I run right in up the stairs and to his room. I fling the door open just to see him throwing stuff around.

"Stupid bitch thinks she can just up and leave me." he grunts throwing a lamp.

"Are you done now?" I ask amused. He stops as he reaches for another lamp.

"No let me throw this at you." he grunts picking it up.

"You can try." I say as I run to him. I leap for him wrapping my legs around his waist and arms around his neck making him drop the lamp. "I'm so attached to you." I whisper. What? Its the only thing I could think of to say. He chuckles wrapping his arms around my waist and burying his head in my neck.

"Is that your way of saying you love me?" he mutter.

"Yes." I say nodding. He chuckles again.

"Does this mean your staying?" he ask. I nod again.

"But I'm not quitting completely." I tell him honestly. He nods into my neck.

"I'm sorry for everything I said earlier." he mutter. I just shrug.

"You were mad I get it." I tell him honestly.

"I love you so much and I could never move on from you." he mutters.

"Are you sure fucking a grave wouldn't be better than fucking me?" I tease. He laughs.

"I have no idea where that come from. I just wanted the last word." he laughs.

"And you still didn't get it." I say.

"I know. I though where the fuck did that come from? And then when I came up with a actually good come back you were already gone." he tells me.

"So you decided to cuss me while throwing a fit?" I tease. He nods. "Your an idiot." I laugh.

"An idiot that loves a heartless bitch." he says chuckling.

"Yeah yeah and don't forget it." I say slapping him on the back of the head.

"Never." he says. "I love you Nissa." he says kissing my neck. That's the first time he's ever called me Nissa. Oh right more important thing here.

I can say it. I know I can. It's Alex Anissa you know you do. So I take a deep breathe.

"I love you too Alex." I say closing my eyes. He takes us to the bed laying us down.

"Do you now?" he ask teasingly nibbling my neck.

"Watch it now Mr. Alpha I just might change my mind." I tease.

"After tonight you won't." he say pressing his lips to mine kissing me passionately.

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