It's 2 am. And I'm just laying here in bed. Thinking about that kiss. I really really liked it. I never kissed my ex like that. Not once. And it wasn't even that big of a kiss, ya know? But that feeling.. i tossed and turned. I went to bed earlier than everyone else who stayed up drinking more, and yet, I'm pretty sure I'm the only one awake in the house. I groan at my inability to sleep and get out of bed, heading to the kitchen to grab some water.

     The floors creaked under me but only slightly and the light in the kitchen was on. I walked into the Green polished brick walled room and of course with my luck, she was in there. I stopped for a moment, watching her on her phone with her legs crossed on the chair.

      She looks up and puts her phone down quickly, "hey."

     "Oh hey.. i thought i was the only one up." I say crossing the kitchen counter where she sat at and opening the fridge to grab a bottle.

     "Yeah me too." She says. "And about earlier.."

      "Yeah?" Shocked at how quick and upfront she was, i start to compile answers in my head for what i know is coming.

      "How was it?" She asks me a concerned expression on her face, worry a bit.

     "I'm confused." I don't even bother lying to her. "I've never felt... a kiss like that before. It kinda confused me honestly."

     "Do you wanna do it again?" She asks me, obvious that she does too.

     I jump at the offer and speed walk to her side of the counter. She's almost as tall as i am while she's sitting. I nod my head as soon as i get infront of her and she pulls me in, not wasting a single moment. As soon as she kisses me i fall deep under her spell. I melted under her trance and felt her hands Pull me in closer by my waist.

    "Sit on my lap." She whispered against my lips.

      I let my body relax as i lowered myself onto her and felt her adjust a bit under me, but, through all of that our lips never departed. I put my hands behind her neck and pulled her in closer to me. the kiss got deeper with every second that went by and i don't know how we got here but suddenly she's tracing my neck with her tongue and light kisses. I grab her cheeks before i let out a moan and slow it down to a deep breath before i continue on with kissing.

     I pull myself back after a few minutes, trying not to go too far before i can think about things. "I should try to go to bed."

     I hop off her lap and grab the bottle from the counter.

    "Goodnight." She says to me before grabbing her phone and acting as if that didn't just happen.

      I reciprocate the fair well and walk up to my room. Once i shut the door and lay back into bed, I'm in the same position as before. Only now, i have two kisses to stay up thinking about. I mean she kisses like... i don't know. And the way she touches me is so.... fuck, i don't know. And oh my god when she whispered against my lips. FUCK. I DONT KNOW.

My eyes fluttered open to the smell of burning bacon and pancakes. I got up and opened my door to go to the bathroom real quick and freshen up before i put a sweatshirt over my tank top and grab my phone from the room. As soon as i got out i see my friends drinking mimosas with their breakfast. What a way to start the day, i guess.

      "Hey bitch!" Imogen yells after stuffing her face with a piece of her pancake. "Come sit with me!"

      I sit by her side on the island of the kitchen and get handed a plate by Jax. "Has Zara woken up?"

"No, why?" Tabitha asks. "Don't tell me she pulled you in already."

"What? No." I lie. "Of course not. Why... does that happen a lot?"

"She's charming isn't she? Flirtatious in a way that's so subtle you won't even know until you're so deep you're addicted." Tabitha explains. "Everyone falls in love with her whether she wants them to or not but in the past two years that I've known her she's rejected every single person. I just don't want you to be rejected- nothing wrong if you like girls, just don't get hurt."

"So what? She's like an awful person? Why would you be friends with someone who's awful?" I asked, Jax tossing two pancakes on my plate with the spatula.

"Oh no, she's great. Especially as a friend, but, she just has a quality to her that people like and she doesn't mean to hurt people, she's just very... seductive? It's natural. Just be careful girl." Tabitha warns me before sipping her orange juice and getting up from the table.

"Nothing to be careful about, I'm not into her." I shrug off the conversation.

I watch as the guys get up and clean their plates off. There's a basketball court down the street so they wanted to get a workout in before we headed out to walk around the city. Tabitha waited on Imogen to take her to the store to get some groceries for us because none of us packed anything we might need. Tabitha's kind of like the 'fun mom' of the friend group so she decided to be the one to shop for what we're missing. She drinks and parties but at the end of the day she takes care of everyone. Imogen loves to party. She's a sloppy, flirty drunk. When she goes out you have got to stay sober for her. I'm completely opposite from both of them. I'll smoke and drink lightly but never enough to over do it. But Imogen? She was just telling me all about how her and Liam made out last night. And in grave detail too. He's cute, just... eh? To me. Not that theres anything wrong with him, just an observation.

"Good morning guys." Zara walks in grabbing a plate and pancakes.

I stopped and stared at her as soon as she presented herself.

"Hey," Imogen says, "howd you sleep?"

"These beds are so comfortable it's fucking insane." She explains. "How about you guys?"

"Great." Imogen smiles before looking at her phone, "ugh i gotta go. Tabithas waiting in the car for me."

"Did she even tell you she was walking out?" I ask her.

"Nope. That's Tabitha." She shrugs.

As soon as we heard the door shut, Zara comes to sit next to me. I freeze a little before getting up and going to wash my plate. She smelled kind of floral. Refreshing. I'm not weird i swear, it's just something I've noticed. I guess she noticed my sudden move's demeanor because she got up and went to walk behind me. She put her hand on my waist and i flinched at the feeling. It just shocked me a bit.

"Am i making you nervous?" She asks me.

I nod my head.

"Why?" She asks laying her chin on my shoulder.

I shrugged.

"No, Tell me. With your words." She wraps her arms around me.

I say nothing. I turn off the water, and stand there. Saying nothing.

"Are you attracted to me?" She asks me, swaying us both back and forth.

I nod my head, feeling her lips getting close to my neck. She plants a small kiss on it and i threw my head back on her shoulder, trying not to let out a moan. I felt her smile into my neck before doing it again. And again. And again. She turned me around and moved me to the side a bit so that she can sit me on the countertop. Here i am falling for her trap, not caring at all about what Tabitha said. She has never felt Zara's hands on her thighs the way that i am right now. Never had her lips pressed against hers the way they're pressed to mine. She slid her hand up. And up again. And further up on my thigh until... holy shit maybe i do care about what Tabitha said. I pushed her back and jumped down.

"Im gonna go in my room.." i shout back at her before running off.

"See ya later!" She shouts back at me.

You can tell she's enjoying this. Not in a sick and twisted way but, she can tell what she's doing to me. She knows i can't resist her already. I waited the two hours until Imogen got back to leave my room. I was worried I'd go out there with Zara and do something I'd... well definitely not regret. As soon as i heard them i walked out to help them with the groceries and didn't see Zara anywhere so I'm guessing she's in her room getting ready. We brought everything in slowly and put it all away and after about another hour we were all getting ready to go out. The guys had just gotten in and went to shower and get ready. Today is gonna be a fun one.

We got back from the city- shopping complete. I got a few new dresses, some jewelry. I tried my best to keep away from Zara. It didn't work as much. There's so much tension there honestly like how could i ? we exchanged in little touches and looks, but, Very few words. We all went our separate ways to our rooms real quick. I'm trying on all of the things i got and right now I've got on a light blue dress- tight fit and flowy at the end.

As i look at myself in all angles through the glass mirror closet doors, i turn when i hear my door open slightly. Peaking through, Zara looks me up and down.

"Hey," she smirks. "You look great."

"Thank you." I smile, "did you need something?"

"Actually i wanted to talk to you." She sits down on my bed and i follow her lead and sit beside her. "Is it just me or are you denying this incredibly intense tension between us? Like looking at you in that dress right now is making me wanna jump your bones."

I laugh, blushing at her words. "I wanna kiss you too.. but- i don't want it to go too far. I've never done anything with a girl and it's kinda freaking me out. I really really wanna kiss you though."

"I won't try anything you don't want me to do. I promise. Just some making out to get me through the trip." She shrugs.

      "Is that all i am to you?" I laugh. "Just some kind of urge you need to fulfill?"

      She rolls her eyes at me and suddenly i feel her pull me towards her with my legs as she climbs in between my thighs and on top of me. "Just kissing, i promise." She whispers.

       I wrap my arms around her shoulders and pull her in- for once, making the first move. I try to pull her in deeper, but, she pulls away and smiles. I pout a little but her hands running through my hair makes it hard to be upset about anything. I tried to reconnect our lips again, but she opened her mouth wider so that i couldn't. All she did was look me up and down from my eyes to my lips- and play with my hair. I tried one more time, my breathing picking up and my lips craving her even more.

      "Are you teasing me?" I whisper against her skin.

     "Just wanna see how much you want it.." she smirks.

      I try it once more and here she goes again. This time pinning my arms down with one hand and caressing my skin with the other, lightly grazing up my jawline and lifting my chin up. I leaned in, this time making a connection no matter how much she pulls back. Feeling her relax into the kiss i go to wrap my arms around her neck. Zara fixes her hair to one side of her body, grabbing my throat lightly and lifting my head up so that my neck was fully exposed but before she did anything there, she bites down on my lip hard enough for the pain to pierce through. A moan escapes my lips and it's louder than expected. She uses her free hand to cover my mouth.

      "Shut up." She aggressively whispers in my ear, leaving a trail of small pecks of kisses down my jawline and onto my neck.

       Her breathing gets heavier, matching my pace. Her tongue is wet and soft against my skin, feeling her bite down once more onto it and soothing it with her tongue. Her hand muffles my groans of pain and pleasure. I guess hearing me and feeling me squirm underneath her makes her happy because the way she smiles against my skin as she tries her best to keep her lips attached and sucking onto my skin. Knocking on the door and the knob jiggling causes her to stop what she's doing and both of us to look over.

       "Hello?" Imogen's voice seeps through.

      I mouth 'fuck' before responding. "What's up!?"

       "Just want your opinion on an outfit." She shouts.

     "Hide." I push Zara off me a little and open the door once she's out of sight.