I FINALLY UPDATED!!!!

I'm so sorry it took so long! I know you've all been waiting FOREVER. But hey it's finally here so enjoy reading!

I couldn't help but feel horrible. I'm leaving the people I care about most behind but it's for the best. I will get better and they all can go on with their life's without me. I can't help but fill like I'm always in the way. I think it's best if I go. I need Carter and Brad to find someone else. I don't deserve either of them. I was kissing one and then another. I shouldn't have put the two of them through that. And to think I got mad at them for being with other girls. Hmm, I think sitting here alone in the airport has really got me thinking about my relationship with those two boys. Oh how I will miss them. They're the first boys I actually fell in love with. They're the first to ever show me so much attention and to like me for me. They didn't care about my problems with my dad. They were still there for me. I had two amazing guys and I left them behind. I didn't even tell them how I felt about them. How I really felt. I knew which one I like and which one I love. I can't believe I'm in love. I knew that maybe this day would come. That I would eventually fall in love with someone but I didn't expect it to be so soon. I'm only a teenager and somehow I managed to fall in love. It's weird because I've never been in love before. It's an amazing but scary feeling. Too bad I won't be able to tell him. I think it's for the best. I'm going to miss all of them but mostly my mom, Carter and Brad.

Carter, he's such an amazing guy. He's literally the sweetest guy you'll ever meet. He knows how to make you feel incredible. He's always trying his best to make you happy. He will put you first instead of himself. Don't worry because he will always be there for you no matter what. My favorite thing about him is how nice and cheesy he is. I'm going to miss all his cheesy sayings.

Brad, he's such an incredible guy. Yes he's a jerk but don't let him fool you he's actually a big softie and will care about you so much that it drives him crazy. He might get angry a lot but he's actually really nice. You don't have to worry about being scared of anything or anyone because he will always be there to protect you even if it means he would have to get beat up for you. I'm going to miss all the little dumb arguments we had.

"Excuse me? Are you alright?" A elderly woman asked, sitting across from me.

"Oh, um, yeah I'm fine." I quickly wiped away my tears and sat up straight in my seat. What am I saying? I'm not fine at all. All I want to do is cry and scream. I'm so exhausted from the situations with my dad, leaving the people I care about, starting my life over again. Damn it, stop crying!

"Here you go sweetie." The elderly woman was now standing in front of me handing me a Kleenex.

"Thank you." I sadly smiled, grabbing the Kleenex from her hand and wiping my tears with it.

"You're welcome. I hope you feel better and have a safe flight." She smiled, walking away.

Why can't I stop crying? Did I make the wrong decision? Should I leave? Yes I should. I need to go away for a while. I can't stay here. I just can't. I need to feel better for myself and everyone else. It's not like they will forget about me. Will they? No they won't. Well, at least my mom wouldn't. But would Brad and Carter? I guess it's best if they do. They need to find someone else better than me. Someone who won't play around with both of their feelings and make them wait.

I let out a loud sigh and looked over at the big clock hanging on the wall. I only have four more minutes until I get on my flight. I looked down at my fingers and began playing with them.

If I had to choose between Carter or Brad. Who would it be? I've never really admit it to myself who I wanted until I sat down in this airport all alone and had time to really think about it. I like one of them but I love the other. I know exactly who I would choose. I choose....-

"Kali! Kali!" A voice shouted. That voice. It's him. The one I chose. The one I've fallen madly, deeply in love with. He's here...

I KNOW IM A HORRIBLE PERSON FOR NOT REVEALING WHO IT IS! But I promise I will reveal it in the next update!!

Anyways! How is everyone? It's been so long. Hope you're all doing good!?

Alright well I must go now. Have a great day/night! Hopefully the next update won't take as long as this one...

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