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What felt like forever went by. We sat there. Nobody said a word. Will stood up and started pacing. I watched him going back and forth. I sat numb, no longer feeling anything. I went back to staring at the doors. I just need the doors to open with the doctor telling me that my mom is alright.

Chase got up and left. I went back to watching the doors. Time kept going by. It was going on seven in the morning. Its been a little more than three hours. Alex pulled me over to him. He intertwined our hands. I looked down and stared at our hands.

Will sat down and started shaking his leg. I think we were all losing it slowly. Not really sure what to do. Not sure what to think. Chase came back in the room. "I just called Tyler. Hes going to stay with Nicky. Until we get home."

Will looks at him and nods. I forgot about Nicky. I look at the floor, the rubbed off wax spots where people worry about their loved ones in the other room. I'm trying not to be afraid. My mom will make it. She's all I have. I look at the cracks between the tiles and I have tears slowly making their way down my cheeks. I can't lose her.

The doors open. The doctor comes out. He takes off his mask. He's saying something but I can't hear him. I get up and walk closer. I'm now standing next to Will in front of the doctor. I can see his mouth moving. He looks tired. I look at Will and his face looks tired. Then I hear it. His voice breaks through my ears.

"She's gone. I'm sorry we tried everything. "

I drop to my knees. The hope that I held on to is gone. I'm so broken and I hurt so bad. I just want my mom. I feel like I can't breathe. Make it stop. .. please make it stop. Please take it back. I'm now screaming for my mother. "Momm...please mommy don't go. I still need you."

Im on the floor, crying. The tears are flooding out. I'm still a kid. I need my mom. Chase comes over and picks me up. He's holding me like a little child. I can't breathe. My chest hurts. He's rubbing my back. He's whispering in my ear. I don't understand. I can't see no more the room is turning.

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I wake up in a bed. I look around. I'm in a hospital room. Chase and Alex is sitting by my bed. I look at them. They look so tired. I close my eyes trying to remember but I can't.

"Are you ok?" Alex asks.

"Yeah I think so. What happened? "

"You were hysterical and the doctor gave you something to calm you down. It knocked you out." Chase says picking up my fingers.

"Oh...Chase... She's gone isn't she?" I ask.

"Yeah. ... I'm sorry. She went fast. Her heart gave out." Chase says just loud enough that I can hear.

"Did you want to see her before they take her?" Chase asks.

"Yeah... help me up?" I sit up. I feel like I ran a marathon. I'm so tired and heavy feeling.

He lifts my covers and helps me out of the bed. He holds my hand as we leave the room and go down the hallway. Will is in there talking. He holds her hand. She's laying there, like she is asleep. He kisses her on her forehead. He looks up at me. I climb on the bed next to her. I curl up to her.

I hold on to her hand. "Bring me with you. Don't leave me. I don't want to live without you."