My whole body was stiffened. I gulped while looking at my mother who is as shock as I am.

Y/n: W- what are you doing here eomma?

I stuttering while moving my hands around, fixing my clothes nervously.

Mom: I was looking for you. Why in the world are you in there?

Y/n: I- I was just- ouch eomma!

I exclaimed at the stinging sensation as she pinched my arm and pulls me out of the room, I roll my eyes as she continues dragging me to the kitchen. She sit me down on the chair while she still standing and crossed her arms in front of me. Her gaze piercing my skin, I sit quietly, this doesn't look good at all. After couple seconds of silence, I exclaimed again when she pulls me up and starts spanking my butt with her bare hand

Y/n: Eomma it's hurt

It wasn't that hurt but I love being dramatic for no reason

Mom: Good, now tell me why are you in that room?

Y/n: I just went in there to wake him up, that's all

Mom: Don't lie to me Y/n

Y/n: I didn't eomma

She starts spanking me again but harder than before. I know she didn't believe me, I'm such a bad liar.

Y/n: Eomma stop, you're really hurting me now

Mom: Since you were born I never lay my hand on you Kim Y/n, not even a bit, that's why you become the person you're right now. I told you how many times to always be respectable and value your femininity

Y/n: Eomma it's not even that big deal

I whine annoyingly

Mom: It is a big deal, look what you dressed. How can you walk into guy's room like this?

Y/n: Like what eomma? Don't worry that he will see my skin, he already saw more than this

Shit!, I quickly covered my mouth as she gasp in shock

Mom: What did you just say?

Y/n: Nothing

As I tried to walk away, she grabs my wrist and starts spanking my butt again for the third time

Y/n: Ouch eomma!

Mom: You're really out of hand Kim Y/n, no wonder your brother wants to send you back. What with that boy? Did you already did something you're not supposed to with him?

Y/n: What thing?

Mom: You know what I mean

Y/n: I don't-

She raised her hand and about to hit me again but I quickly stopped her by giving her the answer she wanted

Y/n: Y- Yes I did

The tears of disappointment immediately falling from her eyes, she let go of my wrist and sit down on the chair. My eyes also shimmering with tears as I heard she sobbing 

Y/n: Eomma

I gently placed my hand on her shoulder to comfort her but she shoved it off which breaking my heart

Mom: Did eomma and appa raised you wrong? Why are you so different from your brother?

Y/n: I'm sorry

Mom: You didn't only disrespected yourself but you're also disrespected eomma and appa to done something shameful and inglorious like that

Y/n: It's not something inglorious, you and appa did it too

I know I'm very brave to said that but I was pissed too

Mom: At least we did after our marriage and you should reserve yourself for your husband. What would your future husband think if he knows you already lost it too someone else

Y/n: Is that really matter?

Mom: It is matter. What you think virginity is for? It is the most important wedding gift for your husband. No man wanted a girl that already been used, you never gonna find a good husband that will be faithful, loyal and worship you because of your self-disrespect, you think that boy will really gonna take to be his wife and stick with you until the end? I don't think so

Why she had to made me feel so worthless like this? I turn my face away from her, totally trying my best not to cry

Y/n: I don't care, if no one wants to marry me I can just stay alone. Alone is better anyway

Mom: Then who gonna take care of you? Your brother he gonna marry and has his own family soon. Me and your appa, we are old Y/n, we can't stay with you forever. Before we die we just want to see you succeed in something, having a job and settle down with a real man that can take care of you for us, not a boy that will taking advantage and just using you.

She sighed

Mom: Even if I keep talking right now, you will never gonna understand and think that I'm just a whinny old woman, you will realize when it already too late then comes cry on my grave that you're regretted for never listening to me

With that she get up from the chair and walk to the sink to wash some vegetables, I speechlessly staring at her from behind for few seconds then I look down gloomily and walk to my room

***

Jimin: Are you sure, you not coming?

I nodded, Jimin sighed heavily, he pulls me in his embrace and kiss the top of my head

Jimin: I still want you to come tho

Y/n: Sorry, I really can't. Tell Jungkook I said hi

Jimin: Maybe, I can come back to see you tonight?

Y/n: My parent they still furious, I think it better if you not to, wait a little bit more when they're in a good mood you can come visit again

He nodded and released me from his embrace

Jimin: Is everything okay?

Y/n: Yeah, is it

His eyes fixed on me as I avoiding him

Jimin: Okay, I'll leave then

Y/n: Drive safe

He nodded and get inside the car, I waved at him, he started the car and drove away. After he's out of sight, I sighed deeply then walk back inside the house, I go straight to my room and lay down on the bed, staring at the blank ceiling, guess I'll have to spend the weekend sleeping in my room again

***

The weekend passed by so quick actually, even though it was suck but I hate Monday still. I hate coming to classes listening to the professor preaching about something that I will never gonna use in my life, I hate seeing these people walking around, gossiping and giggling, I know they weren't talk about me but it's really annoying to hear them. I hate everything about my life, about this world. If it possible I want to escape to somewhere that is peaceful and no judgmental, so I can live my life without thinking of anything or feel ashamed of my actions.

Yeri: Y/nnn

I was walking in the hallway and lost in my thoughts then I suddenly startled when I heard Yeri shouting my name. I turn back to see her as she running towards me excitedly, when she reached me she snaking her arm on my shoulder, I smile and we continue walking together

Yeri: Do you have plan after this?

Y/n: No, why?

Yeri: Nothing, you wanna come over my house and watch "Our Beloved Summer"?

Y/n: Sure

Yeri: Yayy what episode are you on?

Y/n: Actually I haven't watch it yet

Yeri: No way

Y/n: Yeah

Yeri: That mean I have to restart from the beginning?

Y/n: No no, you can resuming where you left off

Yeri: Is that ok with you?

Y/n: Of course

To be honest I don't really care about the movie, I just don't want to go home. As we continue walking down the stairs, I tilt my head away from Yeri and covered my ear with my hand as she starts squealing out of nowhere

Y/n: Wtf Yeri?

Yeri: You wouldn't believe who I bumped into earlier

Y/n: Who?

Yeri: I don't who he is but he's hot as hell, maybe hotter than hell

She exaggerating, I chuckled and shaking my head

Yeri: It doesn't look like he studying here tho, I bumped into him at the campus café and he helped me pick up my stuff.

Her cheeks start blushing as she keep telling me the story

Yeri: His eyes are very sweet and his feminine lip is so damn attractive, when I look at his face I thought I was in the heaven for a second but then I snapped back when he asked me question if I was okay, even his voice is so euphonious. All the girls in there keep ogling him

Y/n: I bet you wish you get his number

I chuckled

Yeri: Yeah, no. I mean he has girlfriend, that's a bad news

Y/n: Did he tell you that?

Yeri: We kinda had a short conversation, he said he's there to buy his girlfriend something

Y/n: Wow, he's really good guy. Men like that are rare you know

Yeri: Agree

She nodding her head then sighed in disappointed. We finally reached the ground floor and proceeded to the entrance to exit the building

Yeri: I still want you to see him tho, he's like bloody hot-

Y/n: Forget about him Yeri, he has a girlfriend

I remind her and she pout sadly

Yeri: Oh, look speak of the devil

All of the sudden, she step back and hiding behind me

Y/n: What?

I turn my head back to look at her. Her cheeks getting red again

Yeri: The guy that I just talking about

I turn my head back and look forward, seeing no one but Jimin, Jimin? What is he doing here? He lean on his back against the car and waving his hand at me as I staring at him dumbfounded

Jimin: Let's go

He shouted, I left Yeri and approaching him

Y/n: What are you doing here?

Jimin: To pick you up

He smile and placed both of his hands on my hips then pulls me towards him. I look around as every girls that walk pass us keep sending him eyes. To show the bitches who he's belonging to I wrap my arms around his neck and kiss him, we make out for a minute then we parted our lips. Jimin went to open the door on the passenger seat side for me, after I get in, he closed the door and went back to the driver side.

Jimin: How was classes?

Y/n: It was okay

He silently studying my face

Jimin: Is there something bothers you?

Y/n: No

Jimin: There must be something, you told me not to come to your house then you barely answer my text or call, did I did something wrong? Tell me so I can fix it

Y/n: No, Jimin it wasn't you, it's me. I just feel tired and annoying, I want to be alone for awhile, I needed space and time to think about things

I raised my voice out of frustration

Jimin: I see

I start to feel guilty when I see the expression on his face, he starts the car and drive away. We're going to his apartment that he rent with Jungkook which supposed to be 20 minutes away but we just arrived here in 10 minutes because of the speed he was going. After pulling over, Jimin went to open the door for me, he grabbed my bag and lead me into the building.

When we reached his apartment Jimin take out the key and open the door, as we entering everyone turn to look at us, my eyes widened when I saw Namjoon

Jungkook: What's up Y/n?

I draw my eyes to Jungkook who locks his eyes on the screen, busying with the game

Y/n: Hey

I replied him then Jimin grabs my hand and pulls me with him inside a bedroom, once we both are in, he closed the door then placed my bag on the small couch and went to lay down on the bed quietly. He didn't talk to me since the campus, I know I was wrong for let it out on him but I was really stressed and annoying that my parent treated me like I don't exist anymore, it was my fault after all, I can't really do anything.

As Jimin laying on the bed with both of his hands behind his head, I slowly climb on the bed and take one of he arm out, I laying down beside him and use his arm as a pillow, I cuddle him tightly and inhale all his scent.

Y/n: I'm sorry

I mumbling and look up at him

Jimin: About what?

Y/n: I yelled at you earlier

He chuckled and wraps his arms around my body, trapped me inside his embrace

Jimin: I don't take apology

I move my hands up and cupping his face

Y/n: What should I do then?

Jimin: Give me something else

Y/n: And what do you want mister?

I caring his bottom lip with my thumb, he smile then removes my hand and gently nibbling my lip afterwards

Jimin: I want you to sleep with me here tonight

My smile dropped, I digging my head back in his chest and cuddled him tighter

Y/n: I can't Jimin, my parent they still not talking to me yet, I don't want to make things worse

Jimin: I'm sorry

Y/n: It wasn't your fault

Jimin: It was

Y/n: I was the one went to your room so it was my fault but you know what? I never regret anything I've done. Before I feel so suffocated to live under my parent's rules. Even though it's not who I am but I always followed their demands, I barely talk back to them because I was scared that people will judge and unlike me for being such a rebellious, I endured for years until I graduated from high school, I want to move away from my parent, so I enrolled to Seoul University and when I met you, I really don't know how to say it but I feel like you giving me some power and the courage to confront my family

Jimin: You know that bad right?

Y/n: Yes, but if it will free me out from those rules that they set then I don't care. I want to live my life how I want, I want to feel free to be myself and most importantly I want to be with you because every time I'm with you I seem to forget all of my problems

Jimin: Let get marry then

Y/n: Very funny joke

Jimin: Who said I was joking?

I detached my head from his chest and look up at him seriously

Jimin: I already tell Jungkook's parent, they gonna come here next week to see you and talk with your parent

Y/n: Why Jungkook's parent?

Jimin: You know I don't have good relationship with my parent either so I ask his parent instead but his parent are like mine, so it's okay

Y/n: Jimin are you serious?

Jimin: I am serious

Y/n: You really want to marry me?

Jimin: Of course

Y/n: But...

Jimin: It's okay if you're not ready, let get engaged first then we can marry right after you graduate or whenever you're ready

I smile at him and nodded my head

Y/n: Okay

He smile and kiss my lip passionately, I wrapping my arms around his neck as he changed position and get on top of me, we continue devouring each other's lips for couple minutes then Jimin pulls away, I look at him confusingly

Jimin: Are you hungry?

Y/n: A little bit

Jimin: I forgot I bought you something earlier

Y/n: What is it?

Jimin: It's dessert, I bought it from the café at your campus

Y/n: Wait hold on, did you happen to bumped into someone there?

Jimin: Oh yeah I did, how did you know?

He chuckled, my blood start boiling, I poked my tongue inside my cheek and look at him with my furious eyes then push him off from me

Y/n: Get off from me you flirty jerk

Jimin: What did I do?

Y/n: You're fucking cheater, you were flirting with the girls in the café

Jimin: No, I didn't

Y/n: Liar

He rest his face on his palm and sighed as I sit up and crossed my arms furiously, I don't know why my mood keeps changing, maybe my period is coming soon.

Y/n: Am I annoying?

I turn to look at him with my red and watery eyes

Jimin: No

Y/n: You lying

I sob quietly, I feel like he start to get really irritating at this point

Jimin: Come here

I quickly wipe my tears and crawling towards him, he kiss my head then grabs my hand, we both get off from the bed then walk outside, his friends keep looking at us as he takes me to the kitchen. Jimin sit me down on the stool at the counter then went to grab a plate to put the desserts that he bought for me

Jimin: Eat this first I'll try to cook something

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