It's Monday, I walk to the bus stop and go to campus at my regular time as usual. When I arrived at my ethics class, I paused at the doorway as I saw Namjoon already sitting in the classroom but he was focusing on his book so he didn't notice my presence. I feel a little bit awkward and ashamed because of what happened at the party, I know we both drunk and Namjoon told me not to think about it but how am I supposed to put it all in the back of my head and act like nothing happened when his face keeps reminding me of the incident. He's a good kisser, I gotta admit. I wasn't regretted that it happened but I just feel guilty. I feel like I'm cheating on someone which is ridiculous because I'm not even in a relationship. Who could I possibly cheated on? A ghost? I sighed then straggling into the classroom with a group of students.

Namjoon: Hey, Y/n!

My whole body suddenly stiffened when I heard his voice

Y/n: H- Hey, Namjoon

Seriously, I tried to avoid him that's why I blended myself into those people but that was stupid of me to think that I can avoid him. We're in the same class, I will eventually have to talk to him. 

Namjoon: Are you okay?

I snapped and shook my head, he looks concerned

Y/n: Yeah I am

The way he looks at me, it makes me feel something in my stomach, I can't help but keep thinking about that night. I don't know what is wrong with me but if it happens again I don't think I will stop him this time. Fuck, I'm starting to feel horny again. What the fuck was I thinking? Oh my gosh, this is embarrassing. I snapped back again when I feel someone shaking my arm, I look up at the person standing in front of me, it was Namjoon, what the hell? When did he get here?

Namjoon: Are you sure you're okay?

I nodded

Namjoon: You wanna sit with me today?

We have test today, so why the fuck not

Y/n: Is it okay with you?

He chuckled then grabs my hand and pulls me with him towards his desk. All the girls in the class starts rolling their eyes, they probably jealous because I get to sit with the smartest and hottest student in the campus, the one and only Kim Namjoon. I smile while staring at him, I'm so proud being friend with him, even though we just know each other few days ago but he always so cute and helped me with my homework from other classes.

The professor entered the room and gave us our test, everyone look at their exam sheet stressfully and started whining except Namjoon, that boy was so prepared, he's the only person who excited about the exam, I wish I had his brain so maybe I wouldn't stuck in here and waiting for him to give me the answers like a stupid useless bitch.

An hour later, some of the students are done with their exam and turn it in while some still working on it. Me and Namjoon also done with ours, after gave the answer sheet to professor we both come back and sit down, Namjoon took out a book and start reading in silent. How can someone be so studious and clever. I'm so jealous of how he living his life, his parent probably never disappointed in him. I been staring at him for a while now, I'm pretty sure he probably thinks that I'm a creep at this point but I just can't help it. I clear my throat softly to get my mind together then I turn to face the white board in front the classroom, we have 30 minutes left until the class ended. So, we just have to stay here waiting for the rest to finish the exam.

While waiting I also take out a textbook and start reading since I don't know what to do and I start to feeling bored. This book isn't help anything, it makes me feel dizzy, I turn to look at Namjoon again as he still paying all his attention to the book. I sighed and turn to look outside the window. There's a couple sitting at the bench and making out, I think I found my entertainment. The bench is quite far away from the building but such an eagle eyes I have, I could see all the details of what those two are doing. The girl sitting on the guy's lap, her head turning around looking out for people while the guy slide his hand inside her shorts. I don't know why do I enjoy watching them so much, what a pervert? While watching he fingers her, I squeeze my thighs together desperately, she must feel so goods by the way her body response. Gosh, I miss that feeling. The more I keep watching them the hornier I get. Fuck, I can't do this anymore, I get up and left the room, as I rushing to the bathroom I accidentally bumped into some students in the hallway and dropped my phone.

Y/n: Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry

I kneel down to grab my phone then stand up straight and turn to them, my eyes widened when I realized who they were

Jimin: Y/n?

My face turn to frowning right away, I remain silent as he walk up to me and grabs one of my hand. I shoved his hands away and continue running to the girl's restroom. Why the fuck is he here? Well, for whatever reason is it, it's not my business anymore. We're done, yes right. I sighed and walk into one of the toilet room, I put the toilet lid down and sit on top of it. I feel so uncomfortable because of my panties. I spread my legs a little and pull my panties down, great how I'm gonna wear it like this? I was so wet earlier because of that freaky couple, now my panties is soaked. I facepalming then shoved it inside my pocket. I need to go home, yeah I should but first I need to go grab my bag, wait am I actually gonna walk around campus without a panties? And why do I have a skirt on today? Oh gosh, I hate myself. Or should I just text Namjoon to bring me my bag and my sweater. I look at my phone debating whether I should text him or not, suddenly my eyes widened when I heard a knock on the door

Jimin: Y/n, I know you're in there, come out

What the fuck? Jimin, is he fucking crazy? I get up and open the door

Y/n: What the fuck are you doing? This is women's restroom. Get out

I try to push him to the bathroom entrance but he refuses to move and grabs both of my hands

Jimin: I don't fucking care, I want to talk to you, why you ran away like that?

Y/n: Because I don't want to see you and I don't have anything to talk

I push him out of the way and proceed to the entrance

Jimin: Y/n, I'm sorry. It was my fault that we ended up like this but-

Y/n: Sorry? I can't even count how many times I've heard this word from you. All you know is saying you're sorry, sorry and sorry but you never change, you only see yourself and care about your ego. You hurt me countless times and I still stupidly gave you a chance, why? Because I trusted you, all I expected is you to trust me back but you never did, not even a bit. You mad because I deleted the tape when I should be the one covered with rage, you promised me that you won't share it with anyone then you showed it to your friends, you might not feel anything because you probably fucked numerous girls in front of your friends already but me, I don't and you promised me Jimin. You fucking promised. And that night, you just left me there alone, you know how cold is it and how dangerous is it for a girl to sit there alone in the middle of the night but you still left me, you fucking left me. I sat there by myself, I cried until I became exhausted, I waited several hours, I waited for you to come back but you didn't, it's proved that you never care about me. That's all I want to say, now is your turn

He just remains silent and staring at me with his red eyes as he trying to control his tears, I know what I said might hurt him too but his pain can't even compare to mine.

Y/n: That's what I thought. From now on leave me the fuck alone, just know that I regretted knowing a jerk like you and I don't want to be regret again, so stay the fuck out of my life

Tears escaped from my eyes, I wipe them off and exist the bathroom.

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