The wind is blowing gently as I stare into his deep hazel eyes. He takes my hand into his, and I feel a jolt of energy. I can't believe on this night that I am right next to him, and he is actually possibly looking at me like I am someone special. I can't believe that Jason might end up as being mine.

I can't stop smiling as he pulls me closer to him. I can't express myself at this moment, if I am asked to. All I know is that Jason drives me crazy. I don't think he realizes how deep my feelings for him are. I feel myself stop breathing as his forehead touch mine, and his arms cradle me in his muscular arms. Dear, God, he is going to kiss me! My thoughts scream out, running wild.

All I can do is stare deep into his eyes, hoping he can read every single one of my thoughts. Hoping he understands that I'm not like the other girls, and I loved him far longer than I care to admit. I want him to read my mind and understand that this isn't just a one kiss thing. I need him to know that I want tonight to blossom into something special.

He chuckles a little bit, showing his perfect teeth. I suddenly think of the time when we were twelve, and he tried to do a wheelie and fell off his bike. He had broken two teeth that summer. His parents banned him from riding his bike for the rest of the summer. I remember like it was yesterday, because we would take turns riding my pink bike. I start to laugh, thinking back on those days.

"This moment is that funny to you, Melly?" He looks into my brown eyes. I shake my head, unsure of what to say.

"More like unreal." I don't know how the words escape my mouth. I can't stop staring into his eyes. "I love you, Jason." I close my eyes right after saying the words, half scared of what will come next. The next thing I hear is a loud, annoying, buzzing sound.

*****

"Oh, crap," I roll over in my bed and hit the snooze button. There I go again dreaming about my best friend, Jason Scott. I lay my head on my pillow and close my eyes. I don't know why my subconscious mind enjoys torturing me.

My phone rings, and I pick it up slightly annoyed. "Morning."

"Senior year, baby!" I instantly start to smile when I hear the familiar voice of Jason's

"I know, boo. You ready to do it?"

"Did you have to ask me, Melly? Hell yeah! I will be there with coffee and donuts in one hour. Let's go!"

I laugh at his energy. One of the many things I love about him.

He chuckles, and I imagine how he looks at this very moment. His curly hair is probably messy from just waking up. He also probably still has a little sleep in his eyes. I know I'm weak for him, because this still sounds sexy to me.

"Today is the start of Senior year, baby."

"Mmm . . . new year." I mutter softly, knowing exactly where he's going with the conversation. "You know you can do better than her."

Jason's line gets silent, and I just hold the phone in silence, not wanting to say anything more than what I've said about his bitch of an ex-girlfriend. "Can I really?" He sighs a bit.

Geez . . . now I have to perk him right back up. Me and my big mouth. "I'm sure the summer changed her mind on you guys, boo. And if it didn't, look at your sexy self and realize you can get any of those girls."

Leslie is Jason's on again off again girlfriend. They have been playing this game, since the beginning of Junior year. They broke up at the start of summer and now she 'thinks' that she's made a mistake.

We both start to laugh, and I'm instantly happy hearing him laugh. "Thanks, Mel, you always know what to say."

I try to sound cheerful again for his sake. "Bring those donuts and coffee and let's get there early to find your ex, baby." I hate when I do things like this. I want him more than he will ever know.

"Got you. Hey, call Kerri, and let her know what time I will get there."

I look at my phone in disgust. "Got you, boo."

I hang up the phone realizing senior year is probably going to be the worst out of all the years I've known Jason. I pick up my cell and quickly send a text to my second best friend, Kerri Smith.

Ker, Jas on his way soon. Donuts and coffee!! 🙂

She is the only person in the universe that understands my special feelings for Jason. I watch as my phone vibrates, and Kerri's message comes onto my phone.

Jas n u n a car with coffee? Hot yet? Lol

Lets hope.

U too chicken shit. Hope is all u do. Lol

Ikr . . . 😂

I look at the phone and grin. Kerri is right. I've been working on telling Jason my feelings since freshmen year. I just could never get the words out, or find the right words to describe to him how I feel for him. It never feels like the right time

*****

I sit in the passenger's seat of Jason's car. He hands me my coffee, and I just look at him.

He is just too sexy for words, all six foot two inches of him. Everything from his hazel eyes, down to his size thirteen shoes. Jason's hair is dark brown with curls that will make any girl jealous. His complexion is like a butterscotch candy, because his mother is Caucasian and his father is African American. Jason has lusty full lips, and athletic built. Eighteen years old, and he has the ability to drive me crazy without trying.

I clear my throat and watch him drink his coffee like he loves it. "You heard from Leslie, Jas?" I hate saying her name, but I have the urge to know how deep his thoughts are for his ex.

"Naw. I'm just going to talk to her when I get to school. She texted me when she came back from summer vacation." He puts his coffee in the cup holder and smiles at me. My heart just about melt right then and there. "Let's get Kerri and get to school."

I smile at him. "Deal." Bitch would be busing it, if it was up to me. Don't get me wrong. I love my girl, Kerri, but I just want to spend some alone time with him.

I tell myself that this is the year I am going to tell him the truth about how I feel. My feelings are beyond any friendship feelings. Next year he's going away for college, so I have to do it this year. The sooner the better. I've known Jason since the first day in kindergarten, when he asked me to be his friend.

I stare out the window, wondering when the best time to expose my true feelings. Should I tell him before he decides to get back with Leslie, or after she plays with him and rejects him? I glance at him and shake my head.

"You need a boyfriend this year, babe." I look at him in confusion. I needed a boyfriend? Hell, I had one . . . somewhat.

"What, Jason? Are you telling me that I'm lonely and that you're tired of being my date to everything?" I start to laugh, thinking how Jason and I did everything together. I wouldn't have it any other way.

"I'm saying that you're way too pretty and smart not to have one. I'm sure you're tired of me being your default date."

I look at him not sure rather to be overjoyed that he considers me both pretty and smart, or be upset that he considers himself a default date. He is never my default date. He has always been my only choice. I sigh and decide not to make a statement from fear that too much emotion will come out.

"Why are you single?" Jason's question takes me by surprise. He has never asked me that before.

"Looking for someone special." I take a sip of the coffee and try not to study his face. Things are getting intense in his car.

"Maybe we can find you a boyfriend by the time you turn eight-teen, huh?" He grins at me, and I give him a weak smile. "What are we doing for your special day this year, Melly? I was thinking that you should have a party." He glances at me with a big grin on his face.

Jason always make such a big deal out of my birthdays.

"I don't know. We will see how my mom feels about that."

I am so relieved, when we pull up to Kerri's house, and she is already waiting outside.

Kerri jumps into the back seat, and he hands her a coffee and the box of donuts.

"Thanks, love!" Kerri smiles at me and puts her seat belt on. "Okay, you guys, we are going into our fourth year together! I'm so excited!" She screams out at us.

Kerri is a pretty dark skinned girl. She always have crazy energy and kind of loud mouthed. You either love her or you hate her. There's really no middle ground.

I've known Kerri since mid-freshman year when she transferred into our school. Jason had a couple of classes with her and they became friends quickly. Then, he introduced her to me, and we became inseparable.

Jason starts the car and starts on the route to school.

"Now listen to this: He broke up with me in the beginning of summer. Last night he called talking about maybe we can fix us." Kerri shakes her head and takes a bite out of her glazed donut. "Fix us? That dude lost more than his damn mind if he thinks that we're getting back together. Not this time."

Jason and I share knowing glances and secretly smile.

Her and her boyfriend, Terrance Williams, seem to always break up just to make up. Terrance and her have been in a relationship, and I use the term loosely, since Sophomore year. Terrance is the school's play boy, or man slut. Who is also Jason's closest friend, after me. Of course.

"How long are you going make him work before you actually take him back?" Jason questions what we both are thinking.

Kerri has a look of disbelief on her face. "For real? Well, I'm hurt." She drinks some more of her coffee, while Jason and I exchange looks. "Well, I am going back to him, but I am just saying it's unbelievable that he thinks that he can break up with me anytime he wants and then fix his fingers to dial my number the night before the first day of school. That's all I'm saying."

I laugh at her. "It's okay, girl. We understand."

I shake my head and try to keep myself from looking at Jason. I make the decision right then that I will tell him today how I feel about him, after he tells me what happens between him and Leslie.

"Yo, Ker, what do you think about Mel having a pool party at my house for her birthday?" Jason smiles at me.

"A pool party? Didn't we do that last year for her b-day? That's fine. Last year was a great party, so this year it should be better."

"I'm going to set it up, Mel." Jason gives me a tiny smile and goes back to driving.

My phone vibrates, and I look at the text from Kerri.

Hes goin to set it up, Mel.

I heard. No need to repeat.

Mmm . . . I kno. Just makin sure u heard.

I giggle, putting the phone in my book bag.

*****

Jason pulls the car to the front of the school to let Kerri out. He looks at me and smiles. "Are you getting out, or going with me to park?"

Did he seriously have to ask? "Boo, we're going to do senior year together. Know that."

I spot Kerri rolling her eyes as she gets out the car. "Catch you guys in a bit." She smiles secretly at me, blows me a kiss, and walks away. I quickly look at him to see if he caught any of those hints, but he is already scoping the area for Leslie. I can see it in his eyes.

Jason finds a parking spot quickly and looks at me and sighs. "I'm kind of glad that Kerri went alone without us. I wanted to speak to you for a few minutes."

With just those few words he spoke, my heart feels like it is going to leap the hell out of my chest. Is he going to tell me the things that I need to tell him? Is this why he asked me why I am single? Or maybe this is the reason why he refers to himself as a default date? Oh my God, he has me at a point where it is becoming really difficult to breathe.

"What's up?" I breathe out, having the most difficult time breathing. I clear my throat and try to calm my heart and mind. My palms start to get sweaty, and he's just looking at me.

"Babe, you good? Maybe we should get out of this car and get you some fresh air."

Aww . . . so fucking sweet! I smile a little at him and shake my head. Damn it! Just tell me what you want to talk about. A whole three minutes passed, and I'm freaking the hell out!

"I'm good." I speak quietly to control my breathing a little better.

He leans his seat back and looks at me. "I think I'm in love, and I don't know what to do."

I open my mouth and then close it again. I blink my eyes a couple times and then decide to pinch myself. Ouch . . . Okay, I'm very awake. What do I say? I open my mouth getting ready to tell him that I've been in love with him since we set the pet hamster free in the first grade.

"And I know she isn't good for me. I've tried all summer to get pass this, but it's hard. All I think about is her and thinking of ways to make us better."

I close my mouth again. What? Wait? He is not in love with me? I'm suddenly filled with aggravation and became annoyed talking about her ass. No one wants to hear about Leslie and him. Not I especially.

"Well, I'm single, so I don't know what the hell to tell you about these things." With that said, I grab my book bag and unlock the door, and he grabs my arm gently. I look at him. "What? I don't know about relationships, boo."

"You mad at me, or something? I know you don't want me to be with her and that you think I can do better. Who do you suggest I date?"

Is he fucking serious? I shake my head thinking how Kerri would have died laughing, if she was in the car. "I don't know." Its hard to cover the sadness in my voice. What am I supposed to tell him? Him and I share a brief moment of eye contact before the knock on his window rip his eyes from mine. We both look up, and I automatically grimace at the sight of Leslie.

Leslie roll her honey colored eyes at me. She flips her red weave over her shoulders, dramatically. She really isn't a bad looking girl, but her attitude automatically takes her from a ten to a negative one.

He rolls down his window and greets Leslie with a big smile. "Hey."

It makes me sick watching how he sounds like this is his first crush. I roll my eyes and just look out my window feeling uncomfortable.

"Well, you said that you wanted to talk about us, but I see you sitting in the car with her making goo goo eyes. You are really off to a bad start, Jay." She walks away with her nasty attitude following her.

I glance at him as he grabs the remaining donuts and his backpack. "I got to go, Mel. She's pissed and . . . - - -"

"I know." I nod at him and begin grabbing my things.

He smiles at me and grabs my book bag. "I got you, girl. I lost the bet over summer, remember? Now I got to hold your bag to every class for the first week." We both share a laugh getting out the car.

Jason and I made a bet over the summer about who was the better swimmer, and I won. I forgot all about the bet, until he mentioned it at this moment. I can't take my eyes off him as he puts his fitted cap on.

"You always hold my bag anyways, Jas."

"I know, right? You treat me like I'm your slave."

We walk up to the school together, and in my own little world, with him holding my bag, I actually feel like I'm with him.