"Erotic longing is really a longing to merge with something greater than oneself. For every kind of love is a force that holds the promise of taking us beyond the limitations of our individual lives."

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MR.COLLINS

Strongest vodka and close to her?I definitely know the place.I've been to plenty of bars in here and when someone mentions strong vodka I know where the place is.

When I opened my club my first costumers were from different bars offering me their different kinds of alcohol.There was an old man who was from Poland and his stuff were the best.

We made a deal if he will bring me one of those delicious alcohol from his I will provide people at his bar.We shook hands and for years it was going smoothly until he was diagnosed with brain cancer.After a week of suffering he passed away and the business went to his son who is a fucking jerk.

He owns the bar now and we always had arguments.He broke the deal and now the only strongest vodka is at his bar.What a fucking story right?

I drive there after locking my office.I was there to kill time because at home I would have nothing to do.I don't want to face that dick but Kim is there so without hesitation I walked in.

A sudden urge of throwing up hit me as I stepped in.This place became a shit hole.The paint from the walls are coming off and I guess he doesn't even care that people are almost naked here.It's almost like my club though it's not even close.I don't even want to compare those two.

I look around and I immediately spot her,and no fucking way.What the actual fuck is she doing?I walk up to her before she could take off her shirt.I turn her towards me and her face screams pain.

She smiles at me but I bet she doesn't even know that I'm actually here.

"Yo dude,you can have her later." A man says who was sitting on a couch and reaches for Kims hand.Before he could touch her I pulled her away and grabbed the mans arm.

"She is not a fucking toy you can play with!" I tell him with gritted teeth.

"Fucking asshole" I finish my sentence and walk away with Kim.Luckily the man realized he didn't want to fuck with me.He stayed there silent and quickly looked away.

I reach my car and I literally had to pull her out of the bar.She looks dead,literally dead.She keeps smiling even though I know she is suffering.I open the car door with one hand and I try to not drop her.I push her inside and close the door.

I sit in as well and put on a seatbelt on the both of us.As I reached for hers she grabs my arm and I stop moving.

"I'm so glad you are here."

...

The ride was silent and the only thing I could hear is her small whimpers.I parked my car and walked inside with her hanging on to me.

I put her down on the couch and put a blanket on her.She is fucking reckless,she's always been.That one time she slept in the building was the first time I saw her drunk but she was sobering up back then but this time it's completely different.She is absolutely unconscious.

I pour myself water and sit down in the kitchen.When she called me I could immediately hear in her voice that something was off.I could sense that she was in danger.When I heard why she wasn't coming to work I felt terrible.We didn't have a proper conversation and we didn't even say goodbye to each other.

When my mom mentioned that girl I felt the guilt rushing through my whole body.I saw how hurt she was and I didn't do anything,I let her go.

I regret every single thing I did to her,I didn't want to hurt her.Being a jerk is kind of part of my personality and sometimes I can't express myself that's why I act the way I do.

My intentions were never against her.

I slowly closed my eyes and darkness took over.I'm tired,I had to drag her out there.I had to keep my anger inside of me and not yell at her for being this reckless.

"Mr.Collins."

"Mr.Collins." I open my eyes as I realized the voice isn't coming from my dream.She was standing next to me in the kitchen.I slept in the chair,which is really uncomfortable.I look at the clock and it's almost 3 am.I slept only 1 hour.

"Kim!Go back to sleep,you are-"

"Please.For once ,don't tell me what to do!I am so sick of it." She says and trembles as she sits down next to me.She is still drunk but not unconscious anymore which I'm really glad for.

"You need sleep." I tell her nicely and stand up and grab her arm.I try to get her back to the couch but she pulls herself away from me.

"Do not tell me what to do!" She says and turns away.I am trying so hard not to push her against the fucking wall and teach her some lesson.

Taking a deep breath I walk in front of her and she looks up at me.

"Look.I'm trying to be nice.I want you to do what I say or-"

"Or what?" She cuts me off again and I roll my eyes.I pick her up and she tries her best to get off me.She keeps hitting my chest as I walk upstairs.Not even listening to her I put her down on my bed.This is weird,seeing a woman in my bed.

She tries to get up but I push her down.

"Stay there!"

"Wait!" I hear as I was about to walk out.I turn around and she looks down.Her mood changed and she no longer looks like an annoying teenager.I walk up to her and sit down on the bed.

"I want you to stay here." She says as she looks at me innocently.I sigh and nod,I don't want her to think that I'm being a jerk by not wanting to stay but I would be just a distraction and she would never go to sleep.

She gives me a warm smile which draws a smile on my face as well.She lays down on her back with her legs hanging off the bed.I do the same and it's like we are staring at the sky.

Silence finally takes over and I think she finally fell asleep so I closed my eyes but I was wrong.

My eyes went wide open when she literally hopped on my lap.I grit my teeth as she hit a sensitive spot and she licks her lips.I follow her movements and she adjusts herself on my lap.She feels so good on me.I slowly sit up to face her and put my hands on her waist.

She falls onto my chest and she looks so comfortable and peaceful.I put my head on hers and after a few minutes she runs her fingers on my chest.

I look down at her and she's looking at me.I breath out as she starts moving her hips.

"What are you doing?" I ask even though I know what she is doing.

"I miss your touch." She says and grabs my hand and puts it on her chest.She makes sure it stays there.I remember back when we were in the same situation but the difference now is that she is drunk and I don't want to take advantage of her even though I crave her as much as she craves me.

"Please touch me sir." She starts kissing my neck and I tilt my head back.Fuck me,I am so attracted to her and I can't even deny it.

"Please" She begins and licks a spot on my neck and moves to my ear whispering in it.

"Fuck" She slowly moves to my other ear and whispers in it too.

"Me"

I pick her up and throw her on her back on the bed.She bites her lip as I get on top of her.She reaches for me but I push down her hands and start kissing her neck making sure she will remember this when she sobers up.

"Mm"

"Don't stop,I need you." She moans and I kiss her cheek and caress my fingers on her cheek.

I take my time enjoying her moans,which made me so hard but I will act mature.I tug a piece of hair behind her ear and look at her.

"I can't baby.Not when you're drunk."