Cecilia's p.o.v

I knew that what I was doing was wrong I knew that I shouldn't have gotten attached to her but Skylar was such a sweet gentle caring person. She was the only friend I had the only person who took the time to get to know me.

I wanted to tell her everything I couldn't hold it in anymore it was tearing me apart inside but I couldn't risk my brothers life for hers. He was my family the only family I had left and I would not lose him. Even if I did find away to tell her he was always watching me he never left my side. I was trapped regardless of what I did I would have someone's innocent blood on my hands.

I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't realize that there was someone standing in front of me until I collided with their body and we fell to the floor. That's when I felt it.

The shocks the wave of want flowing over me. This possibly couldn't have gotten worse. I slowly got off the back of the man I had knocked over careful not to touch him anymore than I already had. I slowly backed away from him and his friend who was staring at me with amusement and prayed to the goddess that he didn't feel any of what I just felt.

I began to turn and sprint away when a rather large arm snakes itself around my torso and yanked me back into the chest of the man I just ran over like a pile driver. And he said the one thing I feared most.

'Mate.' He whispered into my ear. His voice sounded like velvet his warm breath washing over me calming my tense body. He sounded happy.

He slowly released his tight hold on me but only enough to turn me around to stare at me. His eyes raked my body before landing back on my face. His eyes didn't hold lust or desire but something else something that I've seen before. He smiled softly and put his head in the crook of my neck he held me tightly as if afraid I'd disappear and he inhaled my scent.

'I waited so long for you.' He spoke. This man this beautiful man was my mate. But I couldn't have him he would never want me knowing what I was really hear for he would hate me. He would reject me.

'Let go.' I managed to say after finding my voice.

'Beautiful.' He said softly looking into my eyes once again. Something within me stirred he was tugging at something in my chest.

'Kiss him.' My wolf Angelica purred in my head. I didn't need to be told more than once this was probably the only time I'd be able to touch my mate the only time he would look at me with love.

I stepped into his embrace more causing our chests to meet. I brought my hands up to his shoulders and stood on my tippy toes as I brought my lips to his.

This kiss was unlike anything I've ever felt. It consumed me. The raw passion and desire made me weak at the knees. I could kiss this man for the rest of my life I didn't need oxygen to survive just his kiss.

He was taken aback by me kissing him but it was long before his arms tightened around me and his was nipping at my bottom lip. His hand left my back and moved towards my butt brining me even closer to his bulge. I gasped at the feel of how big he was and he took that chance to plunge his tongue into my mouth. The kiss became feverish. It's was like we couldn't get enough of each other.

But it came to an end and he pulled away leaving us both gasping for air. I was slowly coming back to my senses and my peace was leaving.

'What is your name my little mate.' He asked smiling down at me as his thumb caressed my cheek.

'No.' I said barely above a whisper. Slowly stepping out of his embrace.

'No?' He questioned a frown marring his beautiful face. He was like a Greek God I couldn't tear my eyes away.

'I don't want a mate.' I said keeping my head down I was afraid that he would be able to see the tears forming in my eyes.

'What?' He said as if he was assaulted by my words.

'I have someone waiting for me. I don't need you.' I said it was true my brother was waiting for me but the moon goddess knows I needed this man in front of me he was my soul mate my second half.

'I am the only one you need the only one.' He said the pain and hurt evident in his voice. I finally looked up and my heart stopped. The tears in his eyes the look of pain and betrayal blatant on his face I wanted nothing more than to hold him and reassure him that I was his and needed nothing more than him.

'I don't want you.' I say quietly.

He looked empty his eyes vacant. No emotion showed. I hurt for the pain I caused him I wanted to take it back but I couldn't I mumbled a sorry before dashing off. I ran until I was across the pack house. I ran into the library and was welcomed by the emptiness it was the only thing I knew.

'I have to hand it to you.' Said a voice that sent chills down my spine. 'I've never seen someone look so lifeless. Danny boy really didn't deserve that.' He said smirking. His smirk was disturbing to say the least.

'He didn't.' I said quietly agreeing. He didn't he deserved to be happy and with me it wasn't an option.

'And you were so heartless about it. I guess you rogues are all one on the same.' He laughed before leaving the room again.

As the door shut and I was left alone with the silence I cried. I cried until I had no tears left. I wiped my face and crawled over to the window looking out at all of the happy children running carefree as their mothers watched.

I heard the door open and turned to see Sky standing there tentatively coming towards me as if any moment I'd break. I have to tell her I was going to tell her but not while he was here. I had to get her and the Alpha alone they had no idea who their were trusting with their lives and plans.

But how? How do I tell her? Can I tell her? She'll hate me.