Few months had passed and I spent almost every night with Murad and I was really happy, even though Safiye hated me and tried to get rid of me because she was jealous.

My relationship with Nurbanu was never better, she always protected me helped me if I needed something, without her, I'm pretty sure that Safiye would kill me.

In the meantime I got along with Ismihan Sultan, she was my best friend, we would go to the garden very often, I played with her son Mehmed who was 3 and he really liked me...

While Şah Sultan hated me, she was always so rude to me, she even tried to blame me for death of Murad's favorite, Aysegul hatun, when she tripped and fell down the stairs.

Gevherhan, I don't know her that well, we respected each other but we never talked that much.
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That day I was sitting on sofa in my chambers drinking my coffee when I heard the knock on my door.

,,Come in" I said.

That was Ahmed agha. ,,Muazzez hatun, your younger sister Gulbahar hatun sent you this letter"  he said. He handed me the letter and left the chambers, I opened it and started reading it.

,,Dear sister, I have some sad new for you. As you know my husband Hasan Paşa cheated on me and I divorced him, so our mother wanted to come to my palace and see me. She sent me letter few days ago saying she is starting her journey to our palace. And yesterday I got the news that tyrants attacked her and killed her and everyone on the carriage. I don't have where to go so I hope I can stay with you in harem.

Your sister Gulbahar.

At that moment I felt like someone punched me so hard in the stomach. I couldn't accept the fact that my own mother is dead, the person who gave me life is gone. I was crying so hard, that everyone in harem heard me.

The door of my room opened and there was Akiye hatun and Gulizar kafla.

,,Muazzez hatun what happened why are you screaming and crying, whole harem hears you!" Gulizar kalfa asked me.

Akiye hatun came up to me and hugged me.

,,My valide- My valide was killed" I said and began to cry even harder.

After few minutes Ismihan Sultan entered my chambers, she sat on the sofa with me and hugged me. ,,Muazze dear, I just heard the news, I am so sorry!" She said.

,,It's okay." I replied wiping the tears off my cheeks.

Then we heard someone knocking on the door.

,,Come in" I said.

That was Ahmed agha again. ,,Muazzez hatun, Sultana" he said as he bowed.

,,Speak" I said.

,,Muazzez hatun, Sehzade Murad wants to see you" he said.

,,No, no one can see me like this, I will come later." I said.

,,But you have to go-" Ahmed said.

,,Didn't you hear her, she will come later, now leave." Ismihan said. Amed agha bowed and left.

,,Thank you for this Sultana, I'm really thankful." I said placing my head on her shoulder.

,,No problem, I'm always here for you if you need something." She said.

That moment Murad came to mu room. I got up and bowed.

,,Murad, what are you doing here, Muazzez said that she will come to you later." Ismihan said.

,,I just wanted to see Muazzez, calm down." Murad said.

,,Well I should leave now." Ismihan said and left.

,,Muazzez I just heard the news, may she Rest In Peace." He said.

,,Amin" I replied.

,,I can't imagine how are you feeling right now." Murad said as he sat on the sofa with me.

That moment I started to feel dizzy, ,,Muazzez are you ok!!" Murad asked me.

,,N-no Murad I'm feeling di-dizzy." I said and everything was so blurry and I couldn't hear anything.

After that I woke up and saw Murad next to me.

,,Muazzez, you're finally awake." He said.

,,Murad, what happened to me?" I asked him, I was so weak that I couldn't even talk, I whispered.

,, Muazzez, we'll become parents soon, you're pregnant for two months now." Murad said with a huge smile on his face.

When he told me that, I almost jumped out of bed. Murad kissed mu head and I was still in shock from what I heard.

,,Murad I will hive you many sehzades and sultanas, we'll have a big family." I said.

After that day Nurbanu Sultan called me.

,,Sultana" I said as I bowed.

,,Muazzez I need to talk to you, come sit down." Nurbanu said.

,,So first of all, I heard that your valide sadly passed away, may she Rest In Paradise, you mist be really broken." she said.

,,Amin" I said.

,,I know It's hard but you have to be strong for the child in your stomach." She said.

,,I will Sultana, don't worry." I said

,You better give brith to a boy, otherwise Murad wouldn't love you anymore and no one would respect you." Se said.

,,I know Sultana..." I said letting out a sigh. I knew that she was right but it still hurts.

,,Glad you're aware of it." Nurbanu said.

,,Anyways Sultana, can I ask you one question?"

,,Yes sure ask me" Nurbanu replied.

,,Since my younger sister Gulbahar is divorced and our valide died, she asked me if she could stay in harem with us?" I asked her.

,,Of course she can, you know I had a little sister too, but I don't know where she is now." Nurbanu said.

,,Thank you so much Sultana, I'm really grateful." I said.

After I left her chambers Murad called me. We cuddled.

,,Muazzez, is that you, Muazzez I know is never silent." He said.

,,Murad is it true that If I give brith to a girl that you wouldn't love e anymore?" I asked him.

,,Of course not, I would love my child unconditionally, who told you that?"

,,Your valide Murad, I'm really worried." I said

,,You shouldn't be worried Muazzez" he said and kissed my forehead.