Song^ This I Promise You by Nsync

Lightning was something that I could handle, but thunder is another story. The flash of lights doesn't bother me so much, but the loud noise that comes with thunder makes me want to hide.

I sat on the couch and watched the rain outside the window. I'm surprised I made it back in time before it started storming because that's exactly what it's doing right now.

I heard footsteps and I turned my head in time to see Olivia walking into the living room with two mugs in her hands. She smiled at me as she stopped in front of the couch and handed me a mug then sat down next to me.

She placed her leg under her other one as she had it stretched out on the floor. I watched as she took a sip from her mug and I couldn't help but smile. She looked over at me and caught me staring at her and smiled back.

"What?" when she moved the mug away from her mouth, I noticed some hot chocolate on her upper lip and I chuckled.

"You have chocolate on your mouth," I watched as she licked it off and I felt a tingle sensation run through my body.

After she was done, she looked at me and smiled, "Is it gone?" I nodded and sipped my hot chocolate. The things this woman does has my body aching for her touch and she has no idea.

I placed my mug on the table in front of the couch then looked at her, "Thanks for letting me borrow your clothes," I looked down at the clothes I was wearing and instantly smiled.

I looked back up and met her blue eyes, "You're welcome," she smiled as she stared at me and I felt butterflies erupt in my stomach. "You look better in them than I do,"

I felt my face burn and I heard her chuckle. I knew that I looked like a tomato and it was only getting worse as she was staring at me.

"Samantha," I looked at her as she was facing towards me. I could see something in her eyes and I knew what she was going to say without even saying it.

I sighed, "I guess it's time to explain, huh?" I looked at her as she nodded.

I remember before I left here, I screamed at her for being like everyone who abadones me and I accidentally told her about Jessica abusing me. I didn't mean for it to come out, but my mind was all jumbled up and I didn't even hear myself say it until it was too late.

"Why did you tell me before?" I shrugged and I heard her sigh, "Samantha,"

I shook my head, "No Olivia, there was reasons why I couldn't tell you," I stared at her. "I'm sorry," I apologized because I felt like I should. I've been lying to her since day one and I would keep apologizing for the rest of my life.

Olivia was someone who I should not have lied to. I should have told her everything from the day she knew something was wrong. If I never lied to her, then I wouldn't feel so bad about telling her the truth now.

I felt her tuck a strand of hair behind my hair, "I understand, Samantha. But, you know that I would of been here for you no matter what," she stared at me. "You know that right?"

I shrugged, "I do now," I stared at her and I felt terrible. I should of known that she was going to be here for me no matter what I told her. If only I did tell her.

"So, where did you run off to earlier?" she stared at me as I was looking at her.

I sighed, "I was um.. visiting my mom," I avoided eye conact with her as I sat there admiring the coffee table in front of me.

We were silent for a while until she spoke, "How was it?" I looked over at her as she was staring at me.

I sighed, "It was great," I smiled a little as I looked away. "I thought back to when she was still here and how she told me things that I now realized, but I should have a long time ago,"

"What did you realize?" I looked over at her as she was staring at me with her head leaning against her hand as it was propped up against the back of the couch.

I smiled, "I realized that running away from my problems won't solve them," she smiled a little as I continued, "She also told me that I would meet the love of my life one day," I stared at her and felt my heart pound.

Her lips curved into a smile and I was instantly mesmerized. "Have you?" those blue eyes were staring back into mine and I could hear my heart in my ears.

I slowly nodded, "I did," I smiled as she smiled and I felt butterflies in my stomach.

There was so much shit running through my mind, and now that I have her here with me, I wanted to ask her so many questions since we're on the topic.

I took a deep breath, "Olivia," she stared at me as I stared back at her. "Tell me about your mom,"

I wanted to know everything about her because I felt like we shared the same pain because both of our moms died due to the same thing.

She stared me, "What do you want to know?"

I smiled, "Everything," I turned to where my body was facing towards hers and I watched as she took a deep breath.

"My mom died when I was sixteen. She had cancer but there was nothing that the doctors could do and til this day, I still don't understand why they couldn't do anything," I saw that she was starting to tear up and it made my heart hurt.

"My mom was my everything. She literally was everything that I had," she sniffed back the tears but I saw one fall.

"What about your dad?" I asked. I watched her as she looked down at the couch,

"He left us when I was about eleven,. He never cared enough to stay," she continued to stare at the couch and it hit me, hard.

Our lives are not so different. We been through the same pain, and our lives are so similiar that it was scary.

I watched as she sighed, "The day my mom died, I lost touch with the world. I didn't talk to anyone for days, and even though I had to go live with my aunt, I didn't speak with anyone. I missed so much school that I was on the edge of failing," she squeezed her eyes shut as I saw a few tears escape her eyes. "It was hard to live without her, but I soon realized that I couldn't live in sorrow forever, so I finally got back on track and started doing better in school, then I finally graduated and went into college for a few years," she looked up and met my eyes.

I felt so much of her pain that it was unbelieveable. We shared so much shit together, and I don't even think she knew.

I titled my head and stared at her as she stared at me. "Your turn," I gave her a confused look as she stared at me. "Tell me about your mom,"

I smiled a little, "Similiar to your story, my mom was also my everything. She was also everything that I had since my dad left us before she died, and Jessica was on drugs so bad that she was hardly there," I continued to stare at her. "She had so much advice for me and it helped me so much after she died. She gave me so much hope as I was entering high school, or with anything I was facing. She would help me solve any problem, and I never had to face them alone,"

She smiled, "Same thing with my mom. She could ease any pain that I felt, and if I had a probem, she would help me solve them no matter what," she smiled down for a moment, "I miss her everyday," I could see the pain in her eyes and I knew what she was feeling, because I feel it too.

I scooted closer to her, "You don't have to go through it alone," she stared up at me as I was staring at her. "I feel your pain. I know what it's like to lose someone who was such a big part of your life, and no matter can take their place," I continued to stare at her, "Nobody can make you feel protected like she does,"

Ever since my mom died, I felt unprotected because she would always keep everything away from me that would hurt me. I never had to worry about anyone or anything hurting me because my mom was there to protect me.

I looked down at the couch, "All those years that Jessica abused me, I didn't have anyone to protect me. I couldn't defend for myself because I didn't have enough strength like she does, and I knew that if I fought back, it'll only be worse," I continued to stare down at the couch as I felt my heart hurt. Every memory was coming back and it was getting me emotional.

Nobody was there because I didn't let anyone in. I was afraid to let anybody in because I knew the consequences that were behind it. I didn't want to deal with them, so I continued to live my life in fear and hopelessness.

I felt her lift my chin up until our eyes met and she stared at me for a moment. She slowly shook her head as her eyes were staring into mine, "You don't have to worry about that anymore," she continued to stare at me. "I'm here, and I will take care of you and keep you protected,"

Remembering what my mom said instantly hit me and I clinged to her as I buried my face in her neck and wrapped my arms around her back as her arms found their way around me.

We stayed like that for a moment until I pulled back and looked at her as she was staring at me. I smiled a little, "Thank you," this is what I needed.

After all of these years, my life is finally starting to have meaning.

She caressed my cheek as she smiled at me, "You're welcome, Sammy," I smiled at her and leaned my face against the palm of her hand.

We stared at each other for a few seconds with neither one of us looking away. I mean, why would we want to?

I watched as she was leaning in and the moment our lips touched, I felt a spark light up inside of me as I was pulling her closer to me. I grabbed the end of her tank top to bring her closer to me, if that was possible.

Her hand found the back of my neck and I felt her smile against my lips as she pulled me closer. I guess it was possible to get closer because I was pratically on top of her.

I felt her starting to lean backwards and soon enough, I was on top of her but neither one of us broke the kiss. I felt my heart start pounding as her hand found their way down my side. I felt my body quiver and I felt her smile against my lips.

I leaned up and straddled her while staring down at her. She stared up at me, "What's wrong?" she continued to stare as me, "If we're moving too fast, we don't have to-"

I shook my head to cut her off, "No, it's not that," I stared at her as in hopes for her to read my mind so I won't have to tell her.

It took her a minute, but she finally understood. "It's ok. Like I said, we don't have to do anything if you're not ready," she held my sides and I held her hands.

I stared down at her as a million thoughts ran through my head. I wanted this woman more than anything, and I know that no matter what, she wouldn't hurt me in any way.

The only thing that I'm afraid of is giving myself to her, then she would leave. But I know that it wouldn't be true because she told me she would be here for me.

She'll protect me.

I stared down at the woman laying beneath me and I let her hands go as I never broke eye contact. I pressed my hands on her stomach as I leaned down and hovered over her lips as I stared into her eyes, "I'm ready,"

The next few seconds were a blur as I was sitting up with her and straddling her. Our lips never broke contact as I was pulling her closer to me.

She broke the kiss and looked at me as her eyes were staring into mine. She asked with her eyes as her hands were holding the ends of my shirt. I nodded and watched as she lifted my shirt up and over my head.

I watched as she stared down at my chest for a moment until she leaned over and left tiny kisses all over. I felt my heart race after every kiss and I knew she heard it. She pulled back and lookd at me as I stared at her.

I decided to grab the ends of her her tank top and ask with my eyes as she did. She smiled and nodded as I was pulling it over her head and tossed it on the floor somewhere.

Without hesitation I reached behind her to unhook her bra with my face inches from hers. She smiled at me and pecked my lips as I was pulled her bra off and tossed in onto the floor.

I was completely mesmerized at the woman in front of me as my eyes traveled down. After a moment, she reached behind me and pulled my bra off also. As we were both topless and staring at each other, I felt my face turn red and it made her chuckle.

She pulled me to her and our lips collided. We slowly leaned back down on the couch with our lips still connected. My hands found her face as hers found the end of my back.

Somewhere along the way, our bottoms were off and it was nothing put our underwear. I could feel everything in my body heat up when her hands would roam my back. Chills ran down my spine and I quivered under her touch.

I knew that this was love because I felt it with every touch. She loved me and she was protecting me. She didn't care about what might happen, and neither did I.

The only thing on our minds at the moment was each other and just how far this can go.