Three days before war with Russia, Sultan Murad decided that he is going to marry his four daughters off to the men they alone wished for.

My husband Murad wanted to see wedding of their daughters before he would leave for war, because he was afraid if he would return from war alive.

My daughters alone recommended me husbands they would like to marry with, and I accepted all of their proposals. My daughters deserved to be happy and live the life they want with men they want.

Before the wedding ceremony starts, I decided I would meet with each of my daughters alone and have talk with them. The final one, before they leave the Palace to marry off and have their own families.

First daughter I went to visit was my adopted daughter Ismihan Kaya, who I looked for the whole life as my own daughter. I loved Ismihan so much.

I walked into her chambers and I saw her getting ready for her marriage. She was so happy because she is going to marry to third vizier Mehmed Yusuf Paşa.

" Valide, I am so happy to see you now." Ismihan Kaya said as they putted her white wedding dress on her and white veil on her head.

" My Ismihan, you look beautiful like never before." I said to her and hugged her.

She outshined the whole room with the smile on her face, the smile only woman who was in love could have on her face.

" I am so happy Valide that I will finally marry to Mehmed Yusuf. I can't wait for us to have family. I hope our love will be as big as your and father's one." Ismihan said and she made me blush because of her words.

" I have a wedding present for you from me and your father." I said and putted ruby necklace on her neck.

She looked at herself with amazement in the mirror and then hugged me from happiness.

" Thank you Valide for this, it is so beautiful." Ismihan Kaya said to me and my heart felt complete when she would call me her mother, Valide.

" If you ever feel sad and if you won't enjoy your marriage, you always have a home to return to. If he won't treat you well, he will have problems with me." I said to her as I didn't know a lot about her future husband, as I didn't mix into politics a lot. Only what had things to do with my sons.

" Valide, I will always visit you. I wanted to thank you that you raised me and you have been with me for my whole life. You are only mother I know and I feel like I am your real daughter. I love you endlessly, if I would ask for, I would never ask for better mother." Ismihan said and tears started going down my eyes.

" I am sure your real mother Ayse Sultana would also have been proud of you when she would see what kind of beauty her child grew into." I said to her and hugged her.

After Ismihan, I decided to visit my triplets, which were totally diffetent and none was similiar to each other.

First one I decided to visit was Mahinever, eldest of my triplets. She was born only 5 minutes before them. She choosed Gouverneor of Edirne, Abaza Izzet Paşa as her husband, which was really loyal man to our Sultan.

" Valide, welcome!" Mahinever said when I came inside her chambers. I saw she is not even ready for her wedding yet.

" Mahinever, you haven't still prepared for your wedding my dear?" I asked her because I didn't know what is she waiting for.

" I will do it now, Valide. I went once again around the Palace and visited all the places I will remember forever. Who knows if I will return to this Palace and have ability to see them again." Mahinever said and smiled to me.

" This is your home, you can come here whenever you want. You know that your father and I will miss you a lot." I took her hands into mines and smiled back to her.

I took a gift from a box I prepared for her. I got out ring that I wanted to gift her.

" This is the ring your father gifted me when I gave birth to your brother Selim. I want you to have it to always remind you of your family." I said to her and putted the ring on her hand.

" Valide, my family and you will always be in my heart and on my mind. I will visit you as soon as I could." Mahinever said and hugged me tightly.

After her, I went to her younger sister Mahpeyker, which was only 5 minutes younger than her. Mahpeyker decided she wants to marry capitan of Ottoman army, Kapudan Ali Paşa.

I came into her chambers and saw how happy she is to finally get married after so many time she has been dreaming about it.

" Valide, welcome!" Mahpeyker said as she already was dressed in her white wedding dress and was so excited to get married.

" Mahpeyker, my love. I hope you will find true happiness with Kapudan Ali. I hope you will have happiness in your home and that you will be blessed with a lot of children." I said to her happily.

When I saw my children being happy about their marriage, I was even happier then, because I knew they will enjoy their life and be happy in the future no matter if I will be there with them or not.

" I hope to be loved as you are mother, and to love as much as you love mother. My biggest dream is to have family like you have." Mahpeyker said and made me blush.

" I have a gift for you." I said to her and took a box with I gift Murad and I prepared for her.

" This ring I got from your grandmother Kosem Sultana when I became pregnant for the first time. It was very precious to her, and also to me now. I hope it will be precious to you too." I said to her as I putted the ring on her hand.

" Everything that is from you is precious to me, my Valide. I hope to make you happy soon when I bring you grandchildren." Mahpeyker said to me.

And then I continued to chambers of youngest of the triplets, to chambers of my sunshine Mihrimah. Daughter which resembled on me most, and who was most similiar to me.

I opened doors of her chambers and saw her nervously sitting on her sofa from excitement of wedding. She decided to marry to second vizier Kara Iskender Paşa, which was one of the most influential men in the whole country.

" Valide, welcome! I am so happy to see you now!" Mihrimah said as she bowed to me when I entered her chambers.

" How beautiful you are my Mihrimah! I am sure Kara Iskender Paşa won't be able to look at anything else than to you!" I said to her and she blushed.

" Now we will have even more influence on politic life, Valide. Kara Iskender is influential man and he loves me a lot. No one could stand at our way now." Mihrimah said as she took my hands into hers.

" I hope you don't marry just because of his influence?" I asked her and laughed.

" No, it's not just because of that only. I also like him a lot, so this time I got two into once." Mihrimah said and started to laugh.

" Do you remember when you were young and you wanted to have my crown?" I asked her and remembered her childhood when she was crying because she wanted to have my crown.

" Yes, your magnificent crown, Valide. It is the most beautiful one I have ever seen in my life." Mihrimah said and giggled.

" It is yours now." I said to her and gave her my crown.

" Valide... What? Really? Really?" Mihrimah asked me excited as a young child, excatly the way she did while she was young.

" For my Sultana it is a crown that is suitable to you. It is yours from now." I said to her and smiled.

" Valide, thank you, thank you so much!" Mihrimah said and kissed my hand and then went to try how the crown suits herself.

" Attention! Her Imperial Highness Mihrişah Haseki Sultana!" agha on the doors yelled when I walked inside the harem. Everyone bowed to me.

I walked to the throne which was set in the middle of the Harem where I sat together with my daughters who's wedding ceremony was just about to start.

Atike and Gevherhan Sultana came to Harem with their children. My son Ahmed and daughter Safiye also came there with me.

My sons Selim and Suleyman came in Harem and they took all the looks by concubines in Harem. I could see all of them are looking at my sons with hope to become concubines of one of them, because they know after me they cant come to heart of Sultan Murad.

" Mihrişah, where is Şehzade Mehmed? Why he isn't on wedding ceremony of his sisters?" Atike Sultana asked me and raised her eyebrows. I knew she found it suspicious that he isn't here.

Everyone looked at me awaiting for my reaction what will I say. None of my children knew the real reason, they only knew Mehmed isn't feeling fine, and no one should know the real reason.

" Mehmed had a high temperature and he was coughing those days. Doctors are trying to do whatever to help him, so he could be strong for this war. He wants to go there so badly." I lied to them trying to make it seem as more true as possible.

" How will he go to the war if he is sick? He should better stay at the Palace. He shouldn't risk his health." Gevherhan said worriedly for Mehmed, while Atike continued to look at me suspiciously.

" That's what I think too, I talked with him, but he wants to go to war so badly. He wants to be with his father and brothers to see how our army will win." I said and fake smiled to them.