June 5th.
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I laid in my bed again half-naked while Mina watched my body heave up and down. It's been like this for the past three days I've just been having sex with her and then she would leave me to go back to her boyfriend that she claims she has been with for three years.

"I think it's time for me to go Micah," Amina said watching the clock tick on my wall.

"Then leave, nobody is forcing you to stay," I said turning to face the other way.

"I promised I was going to leave him, Micah, so don't act like that." She said.

"But yet you still find your way back there." I rolled my eyes facing the window. She kept telling herself this but didn't act on it which is why my feelings slowly faded away.

"Your not even sure if your fully gay yet Micah, don't even start with me," Amina said getting out of the bed and putting her pants on. "You're with a whole man Amina!" I said facing her as she got her things.

"Ok and it's hard as fuck to leave him, I know what I want but you're coming at me like you do," Amina said.

"If you know what you want then why are you still here?" I asked her.

"You know what fuck you Micah!" She yelled and stormed out of my room slamming the door behind her.

It was a genuine question and she couldn't even answer that so I knew we weren't right for each other. I was just like my mother always would fiend for toxic people and we would wonder why were hurting so bad.

A loud knock came upon and my door slowly opened. It was my Uncle Ryan who was half-asleep but seemed to get woken by Amina loudness.

"Are you out of your damn mind?" Ryan whispered to me from the doorstep.

"What?" I said.

"It's damn near 3 am in the morning and you got bitches leaving the house like it's 9:30." He said.

"It's not my fault and stops whispering," I said.

Ryan closed my door gently enough to not wake up my mother. He walked over to my bed and sat next to me. 

"What's been going on with you?" Ryan asked me as I could now hear his voice clearly.

"I don't know probably that I've been dealing with flashbacks of a murder that happened in my own house." I said staring outside of the window.

Ryan scooted over closer to me and rubbed my back. "Micah I know what your mom did is hurting you deeply but soon it's going to be ok." He said.

"You saying that like it's going to help when it's not, soon y'all are going to be in jail." I said removing his hand off of my back.

"As long as they don't take you we will do the time." He said to me and then going in his pocket.

"I'm only 17, Ryan, how the fuck am I going to live without y'all." I said.

"You going have us forever Micah and that's on everything even if we aren't here physically." Uncle Ryan said handing me over an envelope.

"What's this?" I asked him.

"Don't use it unless you actually need it, Mimi, I need you to stay with your friends until you turn 18 and will be able to get an apartment." He said.

"Ok." I said putting the envelope on the dresser beside me.

"That's going to pay for an apartment and your college tuition, it's all we had alright we love you Micah." Ryan holding my hand.

I knew right then and there life was about to be different..

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June 8th
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"So your Ma just got life?" Chase said as we walked down the street together.

"Yeah according to the news." I sighed.

"Damn what about Ryan?" He asked me.

"He fled to another state but I wouldn't be surprised if they caught him already, they both had a bunch of charges ." I said.

My parents weren't the best but they did what they could for me. I was born while my mother was in jail and was raised with my father who was sick with cancer. My mother got out and that's when my father had died. She prostituted for a while to keep the bills up but she wasn't abusive or anything towards me. I couldn't blame her or anyone just wish my life could've fell differently.

"Shit Mi I don't know how you deal with it." Chase took out his keys and opened up his door.

"That's the thing about it, I don't deal with it." I said placing my bag down on the side of the wall.

I was going to stay with Chase for a while since he didn't have a lot of bullshit going on in his place it just him rather with Eve and Dylan I would have to deal with their relationships.

"You know to make yourself comfortable or whatever, my nigga coming over in a few so call me if you need me." Chase said walking up the stairs.

I had forgotten to mention Chase was gay also so it kind of made that even better and he made sure to be respectful when they got sexual also.

I decided to take my stuff upstairs to the empty room that was next Chase's. I wasn't going to unpack today but I needed to finish up a few things for my first college semester that was coming up in two months.

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We all sat in Eve's living room together surprisingly she didn't start a fight with her older brother being here especially since what happened the last time I saw those two in one space.

"Drinks anyone?" Eve asked as she took out some wine and glasses.

"You know what I want baby." Shawn said.

"I'll take a glass of wine too for me and Rico." Dylan said.

"Ion wants none of that damn feminine shit, no thank you." Rico said and everybody laughed. "Give the men some Hennessey, thanks." Chase added in.

"Alright and water for our young one." Eve gave me the glass and smiled.

"Thanks, Eve." I rolled my eyes taking the glass. I wasn't legal yet nor were any of them except Chase and the rest of the guys but I was still treated as such.

"Aw poor kid can't hang." Rico said doing a fake pout on his face. Ever since I met him he's just been teasing the shit out of me but I didn't buy into his foolishness.

"So how old are you then?" Eve's older brother asked me sipping on his glass of henny. "I'm 17 turning 18 in a few weeks." I told him.

"Damn you is young as hell, how the fuck you meet these birds." He chuckled.

"First off I ain't no damn bird lil boy." Dylan said.

"We all used to play at the same park when we were younger and ever since then we've been friends." I said fiddling with my thumbs.

I wasn't shy around people that much but when he came it was like he brought it out of me. He kinda intimidated me quite a bit since he was so tall and his voice came out so deep. He always seemed serious and wouldn't smile just smirked.

"Hmm that's wassup." He said staring at me and then looking away. It was odd it's like I've seen him from somewhere before but I couldn't click onto it.

"Yall are awkward as hell, anyways ask her real questions, you gay?" Rico asked me.

I accidentally spit my water out once he said that nobody really knew I was unless I told them or they saw me kiss a girl but out of all people I wouldn't think Rico.

"N-no." I stuttered knowing I was lying a little bit since I had situations with women but I wasn't all the way into them.

"Ooo she like a little pussy huh." Rico said laughing.

"I'm going to go to the bathroom." I said getting up and putting my glass down.

"Rico what the fuck!" Dylan yelled at him.

I went inside the bathroom getting on my knees in front of the toilet. I started throwing up constantly and I didn't know where it came from but that conversation out there was just uncalled for.

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To be continued...

Sorry this one was kinda boring and left at a cliffhanger like that I'll do better next time 🥺