Present

*These parts of this chapter may be sad*

It's still the same day

The last part from the last chapter

Miyeon: I'm so sorry Yuqi *she's still hugging Yuqi* 

Miyeon: I'm so sorry 

Yuqi kept nodding her head while she is still crying and breaking down into sadness. 

Yuqi: No I'm sorry *she wipe down her tears*

Yuqi: You don't deserve this Miyeon

Yuqi: You were only trying to protect me you as one of my best friends forever 

Yuqi: I'm so sorry for ever doubting you Miyeon 

Yuqi: You don't deserve this at all *she said it in a upset tone*

Yuqi cried and cried. 

Shuhua has overheard their conservation this the entire time and it breaks here heart so much. She never knew that Miyeon will do anything to protect them and she just doesn't understands it until she can see through it. Once Miyeon and Yuqi had falling asleep, Shuhua walked out and went outside to get some fresh air for a little while longer. 

If only someone knew that Shuhua has been through so much struggles that nobody doesn't understand her struggles.

Shuhua is sitting on the bench looking a bit numb and distressed. 

She saw the reflection of herself.

The only reflection that she can see is the other half of herself.

The other half of Shuhua isn't exactly who she is before she came out to be into something more than this. 

It's like those pieces of me could never be replaced

The outcome of hers hasn't been the best throughout the process but it only did for her in so many ways. 

For example, Shuhua has never dyed her hair before until she exactly did

She dyed her hair blonde and she loves it so much. 

All her life, Shuhua wanted an brighter future who can turn her frown upside down. 

From the night when Miyeon left her best friends behind, it becomes one of the betrayals that she has never ever faced before. In fact, Shuhua is mad at Miyeon for leaving and she doesn't want to see her again. From the looks of it, Shuhua is glad that Miyeon is back but she is still mad at her for leaving her into this kind of betrayal like this. Shuhua had never ever experienced it before in her entire life. 

She and her best friends had been through alot of hell but they were always have the good times that they could never forget it. As for now, Shuhua felt like she was in deep, deep and deep down into the bottom of the ocean that she could never ever get out of and she couldn't find a way to breathe. After an hour of Shuhua is lying onto the grass, she received a text from Soyeon but then she completely ignores it and turns off her phone. 

Shuhua just wants to be alone right now. 

Shuhua's mind: Why can't I find a way to let go?? 

Shuhua's mind: For once in my life, Miyeon has made me the most happiest person that I could be 

Shuhua kept thinking to herself over and over again 

She can't go back to the way it had been begin from the start of the friendship to the very end.

Once again, Shuhua received another text from Soyeon then she still ignores it and rolled her eyes. 

Shuhua: Can you just leave me alone? *she sends Soyeon an message then she turns off her phone and look at the sky* 

Shuhua's mind: Why can't Soyeon  stop making things hard for me to forgive her??

Shuhua's mind: Every time she messed things up it made me so hard to forgive her 

Shuhua and Soyeon has come an long way together as best friends.

Soyeon is like her first friend before Shuhua has met with Miyeon, Minnie and Yuqi.

They have come such a long of them staying close together. 

For Shuhua and Soyeon, it's different because they were like enemies one time but then they made up and now they became friends. From the start of it, Soyeon has been very nice to Shuhua and will do anything to help her whatever she needs alot of saving with comfort. Soyeon actually built up an safe place for Shuhua and always taught her how to overcome her pressure and shows her confidence.

It's like how Soyeon helped Yuqi to learn how to overcome her confidence of her voice by empracing herself with courage because Yuqi has felt really insecure about her having an deep voice and people will make fun of her for it. 

Shuhua is so lucky to have Soyeon as her friend. 

That's when the messes has started when Soojin came in the picture and it went out of control. 

Soyeon became into this other person that Shuhua doesn't like then the first time when she and Soyeon are in the feud is because Soyeon had ditch her plans to hang out with Shuhua and she started to become mean to people.

Shuhua has a problem with it one time when Soyeon dares her to kiss Yuqi during the truth and dare game when the girls are playing the game for a sleepover. 

Shuhua doesn't like the dare for some reason so she goes off at her and tells Soyeon to stop. 

Soyeon hasn't apologized to her for that afterwards.

Soojin: Soyeon has never admits her fault until the end 

That's what Soojin said to her in the text 

............

Flashback: When the five girls are having a sleepover 

Soyeon: Oh come on it's just one game *she says it in a smile* 

Minnie: Soyeon you know how we feel about playing that childish game 

Soyeon rolled her eyes

Soyeon: Oh quit whining Minnie it will be fine besides Shuhua is going to make some more smores

Yuqi and Shuhua came back in the house with snacks and drinks in their hand.

Yuqi: We're back with popcorn

Shuhua: Also we got some smores 

Soyeon squeal with excitement.

Soyeon: Thank you so much Shuhua 

Miyeon: Can we do something else instead of playing truth or dare??

Soyeon: No you all are joining along with me *said it in a smile*

Miyeon, Minnie, Yuqi and Shuhua groan in annoyance. 

Soyeon: Come on don't be mad at me it's just a game 

Soyeon: Now let's start hey Shuhua truth or dare??

Shuhua: Truth I guess 

Soyeon gives her a glare. 

Shuhua: What?? 

Soyeon: Boorriing you have to do dare you couldn't even handle the truth 

That made Miyeon, Minnie and Yuqi looked at each other while eating some treats from the sleepover.

Yuqi: Soyeon come on you have to be joking *she laughs nervously* 

Soyeon: No I'm not 

Soyeon: Shuhua do dare for me please honey *she does the puppy dog eyes* 

Shuhua hated when Soyeon does the puppy dog eyes. 

She would told her no but she doesn't know what happens if Shuhua declines it. 

Shuhua sighs.

Shuhua: Okay fine I'll do the dare 

Soyeon claps her hands happily. 

Soyeon: Congrats Shushu you made the right choice 

Shuhua: What's the dare?? 

Soyeon whispers something into Miyeon and Minnie's ear then she just gives Yuqi and Shuhua an teasing look on her face. 

Soyeon: I dare you to kiss Yuqi 

Shuhua started to cough up the popcorn that she was eating then Miyeon helped her out by letting the one popcorn out of her mouth. 

Miyeon: Are you okay?? *she asks her* 

Shuhua: I'm okay thank you Miyeon

Minnie: Soyeon this is stupid and a bit mean that you try to force her to do the dare 

Soyeon gives her a mean look.

Soyeon: Shut up Minnie *said it in a mean tone*

Soyeon: Now as to what I am saying.... 

Soyeon: Kiss Yuqi 

Yuqi: Soyeon please don't I don't like the sound of this 

Soyeon: Oh come on it's just a dare Shuhua wouldn't mind it at all would you Shushu??

Shuhua gulped an didn't say a word. 

Soyeon: Come on Shuhua you will be denying to really know how it's like to kiss a girl before right?? Have you kiss anyone before?? 

Shuhua: No 

Soyeon almost laugh like she's trying to embarrass her. 

Minnie: Soyeon stop *she says it in a seriously

Soyeon ignores her. 

Soyeon: It's okay if you never kissed anyone before especially if you liked Soojin for a while now. Don't worry Shuhua your secret is safe with us right?? 

Miyeon, Minnie and Yuqi just nodded. 

Shuhua: Soyeon I don't want to do the dare 

Soyeon scoffs. 

Soyeon: Oh come on just do it it's only a dare 

Shuhua: No I can't because Yuqi is my friend

Soyeon: Omfg I know that Yuqi is your friend idiot like I said before it's just a dare so you don't have to be all shy about it

Yuqi whispered into Shuhua's ear. 

Yuqi: We don't have to do it if we don't want to *she whispers into Shuhua's ear*

Shuhua: I'm fine Yuqi 

Shuhua gives Yuqi a pat on the shoulder. 

Shuhua: I just don't want to do it but Soyeon is going to go crazy if I try to decline it

Soyeon: Umm hello?? Are you just going to sit here like a idiot or what?? *she crosses her arms and look at Shuhua with a glare look*

Miyeon: Maybe see should do something else instead like watching a movie *tries to change the topic* 

Soyeon: It's only a dare Shuhua just do it so you can get over with 

Shuhua: I don't want to do it

Soyeon: Oh come on Shuhua one kiss wouldn't bite you 

Shuhua: Stop *said it in a stern tone*

Soyeon continues to pressure her and that's when Shuhua snapped. 

Shuhua: I SAID FUCKING STOP *she shouted at Soyeon*

Soyeon looks at her in disbelief. 

Miyeon, Minnie and Yuqi are all sitting here looking shocked and worried at the same time.

Soyeon: Did you just shouted at me?? *she went towards Shuhua and looks at her in a very mean look on her face* 

Soyeon: Do you know who you are messing with Shuhua?? *said it in a mean tone*

Shuhua: I JUST DON'T WANT TO DO THE DARE CAN'T YOU JUST ACCPET THAT SOYEON?? 

Shuhua: YOU CAN'T HAVE THINGS YOUR WAY ALL THE DAMN TIME SO JUST STOP IT AND LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE OKAY?? I'M YOUR BEST FRIEND NOT A DAMN PUPPET THAT YOU CAN PULL UP STRING WITH THAT YOU CAN DRAG ME INTO EVERYTHING ALL THE TIME. *she shouted at her* 

The girls couldn't believe it. 

Shuhua never goes off at someone like that before. 

After that, Shuhua walk away leaving Soyeon watches her leave and felt guilty for trying to pressure like this especially not in this situation like this before.

Minnie: See?? Have you done quite enough?? 

Miyeon: Yeah what you did is very wrong Soyeon

Soyeon looked at Yuqi. 

Yuqi: Miyeon is right 

Yuqi: You shouldn't have never done that Soyeon and I told her that she doesn't have to do the dare to kiss me if she doesn't want to but all you did is to keep on pressuring her.

Soyeon sighs. 

Soyeon: You are right 

Soyeon: I'm so sorry I just wanted to help her by confessing her feelings to Soojin 

Minnie scoffed. 

Minnie: By making her kiss Yuqi?? 

Miyeon: There are so many ways for you to help her instead of doing that 

Soyeon: I know 

Soyeon: You know it's even more embarrassing when Shuhua never had her first kiss before and it made me curious about something

Yuqi: Don't do it 

Minnie: You could just apologize to her 

Soyeon: Me?? Apologize?? *she laughs with sarcasm* 

Soyeon: No way *she walk away in anger* 

The three girls couldn't deal with Soyeon sometimes and it frustrates them every time.

End of Flashback 

Back to the Present

Shuhua has made it back home.

When she finally got back home, Soyeon looks at her with an angry expression on her face. At first Shuhua is about to go back into her room but then Soyeon pulls her back downstairs then she blocked her way so Shuhua wouldn't leave. Miyeon, Minnie and Yuqi just stand there and doesn't know what is going to happen next. 

Miyeon has a feeling that the two of them are going to fight. 

Same with Minnie and Yuqi 

Soyeon: Where have you been Shuhua?? *she asks her* 

Shuhua hasn't said a word. 

She just looked at her with a scared expression on her face. 

Soyeon: I have tried texting and calling you but you haven't responded

Soyeon: What did you do?? You didn't meet with Soojin again haven't you?? 

Shuhua: What?? 

Shuhua: No I haven't gosh you are insane

Shuhua tries to leave but Soyeon kept on preventing her from trying to pass her. 

Soyeon: I'm not asking you again

Soyeon: WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN?? *she yells at her* 

Yuqi came towards her.

Yuqi: Babe it's okay you need to calm down 

Minnie: Please let her talk I'm sure it's all a big misunderstanding

Shuhua had no idea what is going on.

Shuhua: What do you mean it's just a big misunderstanding?? *she asks Minnie* 

Minnie: I'm sorry Shuhua

Minnie: Me and Soyeon may have gone into your diary

Shuhua is starting to get mad. 

Shuhua: WHAT?? 

Shuhua turned to Soyeon.

Shuhua: YOU WENT THROUGH MY DIARY?? *she really is mad*

Soyeon: Oh don't you dare get upset with me little girl 

Soyeon: We promised that we wouldn't have to see Soojin again until further notice but you just have to try and cross just so you can meet your crazy ex lover right behind my back?? *she shouted at Shuhua* 

Shuhua has enough. 

Shuhua: You have no business going through my diary without any circumstances because I need some privacy. First of all I wasn't going to meet with Soojin again and second of all if yoh have known me well enough then you will know that I could never get over with Soojin ever. Yes I admit that I hated her a bunch of times and I still do but I still couldn't help myself from being in love with her too much that I couldn't just get over over. 

Shuhua: You're the reason that Soojin gets her revenge on us then you acted shocked when anyone has done something back to you. 

Shuhua: God Soyeon have you not been thinking clearly??

Shuhua: Have you not understand on what is really happening between us?? *said it in a upset voice* 

Miyeon, Minnie and Yuqi have felt the same way as Shuhua did. 

They have tried to reach out to Soyeon about it but she doesn't listen. 

Soyeon did some terrible things but she's trying to change for the better and she's always has been there for her best friends so much but she doesn't know about their struggles into all of this that has happened to them. 

Soyeon can see it very clearly now. 

Soyeon: Shuhua----- 

Shuhua: Don't you ever dare came to me and said that you know how I'm feeling because you don't get it at all 

After that, Shuhua ran upstairs to her room and closes the door. 

Soyeon almost about to burst into tears. 

Miyeon and Yuqi are right by her side to comfort her. 

Minnie on the other hand gives Soyeon a big hug.

Soyeon: I... messed...up *she's crying* 

Minnie: I know I know just let it out *she's still hugging Minnie* 

Soyeon continues to cry harder. 

Minnie: You need to make things up with Shuhua

Soyeon: How?? She hates me *she wipe her tears*

Minnie: She doesn't hate you Soyeon

Minnie: She hates the idea of you becoming a huge mess up friend to her from all those times that Shuhua will do anything to save you before she can save herself. 

Soyeon looked directly at her. 

Soyeon: Really?? 

Minnie nods. 

Minnie: Of course *she's still hugging Soyeon* 

Now Soyeon knows how to fix here mess between her and Shuhua. 

.......

Meanwhile

Shuhua went into her room and started to burst into tears. 

Shuhua: Why can't Soyeon stop making me feel like shit when I all did is trying to help her overcome an better person?? *she cried and cried * 

Shuhua even had a meltdown and started to throw things. 

She holds onto a picture frame with the picture inside of it. It's a picture of her and Soyeon together with their smiley faces on it. Whenever Shuhua is feeling down, she will always have a picture of her and Soyeon together. Every time she looks at the photo, it made her smile but this time it made her sad even more. 

Shuhua's mind: Why can't Soyeon let me save you before she can save me??

Flashback: It's another flashback of her and Soyeon

A picture has been taking by Soyeon with just a single flash that is secretly has been flashed upon them to complete the photo. 

Soyeon: Come on let's ride on a ferris wheel

Shuhua: Aww but we're just having fun at the beach *she pouts* 

Soyeon: I know but the ferris wheel is more fun 

Shuhua: No way can we stay here at the beach for a while longer??? 

Shuhua is hugging her. 

Shuhua: Please Karen *she does the puppy dog eyes* 

Soyeon playfully rolled her eyes. 

Soyeon: Ugh fine but you own me for not letting me go at the ferris wheel 

Shuhua puts on a happy face. 

Shuhua snuck behind Soyeon and she begins to picked up Soyeon and starting to carry her. Soyeon started to laugh when Shuhua gives her a piggyback ride. 

Soyeon: SHUHUA PUT ME DOWN YOU DO THIS EVERYTIME 

Soyeon laughs. 

Shuhua: Btw we are going to the Ferris wheel 

Soyeon cheers with excitement. 

Shuhua: Do you want me to continue giving you a piggyback ride or do you want me to stop?? 

Soyeon is clinging onto Shuhua's back. 

Soyeon: More piggyback rides Shushu *says it while she's laughing* 

Shuhua: Okay let's go

Shuhua and Soyeon: WOOO *cheered* 

Shuhua and Soyeon have made it to the ferris wheel and it was a lot of fun. 

The two best friends will do anything to be on the lookout for each other. 

Soyeon and Shuhua had always been the bestest of friends. 

End of Flashback

Back to the Present 

A little warning: Self harm 

Soyeon went into Shuhua's room and she saw that Shuhua has been crying and noticed that some of her things are being thrown off to the ground. Soyeon came towards her to comfort her then Shuhua yelled at her and tells her to leave. This is causes the two of them to fight. Soyeon has tried to get Shuhua to calm down but Shuhua refuses and she still yells at Soyeon. 

Soyeon yells at her back. 

While, Soyeon and Shuhua are still continuing to fight, Soyeon noticed that she saw some burn marks onto Shuhua's arm. 

Soyeon: What is this on your arm?? 

Soyeon: Shuhua who do this to you??

Soyeon: Have you burned yourself?? 

Before, Shuhua runs and tries to leave, Soyeon pulls her back into the room and had another argument. 

Soyeon got on top of Shuhua then the two of them are wrestling.

Shuhua: GET OFF OF ME SOYEON I HATE YOU 

Soyeon: SHOW ME WHERE YOU HAVE BURNED YOURSELF *says it in a upset voice* 

Soyeon: SHOW ME 

Shuhua gets off from the bed. 

Shuhua: FINE YOU WANNA SEE *she shows some of the burn marks to Soyeon* 

Soyeon couldn't believe it . 

In fact, Soyeon has tears into her eyes. 

Shuhua: Yes I admit it.... I burned myself *she starts to cry again* 

Soyeon: WHY?? WHY??? 

Soyeon: WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO YOURSELF?? 

Shuhua: I'M TRYING TO GET RID OF THE PAIN BUT NOTHING ELSE WOULDN'T LET ME GO OF THIS FUCKING PAIN 

Shuhua: I'M ONLY TRYING TO BE THERE FOR YOU SOYEON

Shuhua: IF I COULDN'T SAVE YOU THEN WHO ELSE WOULD WHILE I AM DEALING WITH THIS PAIN SO MUCH?? *she's