He left me on his bed in his shirt. The first thing I did was put on my headphones, I don't need to hear my thoughts today, so my music will drown them out. All Adrian ever seems to do is save me and pick me up, I'm sick of being a little girl who needs a man to look after her. I picked myself up and sorted my life out last time. I need to do that again. I need to be strong, be a fighter, if not for me, for Max, he hates it when I get upset, he can sense it.

I take Adrian's shirt off and put on my work out clothes, I sneak across the compound hoping no one will see me and head to the gym. I need to get all my feeling out of my head and then I'll be ready to step up and stand strong. I turn on the sound system as loud as I can and begin working the punching bag.

I picture Nathan, the first time I met him and when I killed him. I picture Dragon, when he beat me the first time, stabbing my hand and then the second time when he stabbed me in the back. All of my wounds hurt and I know my knuckles are bleeding but I don't care. I like the burn and the pain I feel, it's better than feeling anything else.

Adrian comes in and stops me, I tell him I want to learn to fight and he agrees. He takes me to the infirmary so I can clean and wrap my knuckles.

"I'll get Bullet to teach you how to shoot and I'll work on your hand to hand combat" he says standing in between my legs as I sit on a table wrapping my hand.

"Ok, but don't go easy on me, I can take it, I want to be able to take some one down myself" I reply as he lifts my chin to meet his gaze.

"Before we start anything though, I need to talk to you about your clothes. While I'm happy you're comfortable showing your body off, you are mine and if you carry on walking around here like this the guys are going to be tripping over their tongues." He says running his hand down the bare skin of my side.

"They were watching the cameras while you were in the gym, drooling all over you. You're my girl Beautiful, I'm the only one who gets to drool over you" he says sliding his hand into the back of my shorts and squeezing my ass.

"Deal, I'll go put a shirt on and we can get started" I brush my lips against his before heading upstairs for a shirt.

The past few weeks went by with Bullet teaching me how to shoot, apparently I'm a natural, and Adrian teaching me to fight. I could tell he was going easy on me and it was pissing me off. It was 8am and I was sat in the kitchen drinking coffee, before heading out for another fighting session with Adrian.

"What's with the face Masochist?" Knuckles walks up to me, the nickname is sticking and I hate it.

"I'm about to head to the gym with Killer for more practice, but I'm sick of him going easy on me. If I get attacked again they won't go easy on me and I won't be able to defend myself" Knuckles laughs. He's a big man 6ft4 and just as wide, covered in tattoos and muscles with short brown hair, brown eyes and a beard.

"I wouldn't fight my old lady, I wouldn't want to hurt her because I love her. But I get where you're coming from, how about I fight you, I won't go easy on you, but I'll let you tap out when you want" my face lights up and I run over and hug him

"Thank you! Come on let's go, I wanna fight" I say linking my arm around his and dragging him out the door. We head into the gym and Adrian is there setting up stuff

"Change of plans Killy, I've got a real fight on my hands today" I say letting go of Knuckles arm and moving over to wrap my knuckles ready to fight.

"What the fuck Knuckles? If you hurt my girl you'll have to deal with me" he says storming over to me

"What are you thinking? You've been hurt enough Cordelia" he says wrapping an arm around me

"I'm thinking I'm sick of you going easy on me, if I get attacked again they won't go easy so I need to be prepared, I love you for protecting me but it's time I protect myself" I say turning to kiss him. The kiss is interrupted by knuckles

"Come on Masochist, stop making kissy faces and fight me" we walk over to the mat and then all the guys walk into the gym, BFG, Ice, Sonny, Bullet, Socket and the rest of the crew. I look around at them all

"Come on Masochist, we wanna see Knuckles get his ass handed to him by a girl" Ice says as they all take a seat to watch.

"Forget them, focus on me, think of everything that makes you angry, take it out on me, but don't forget to tap out when you give up, Masochist, I don't think you have it in you to beat me" Knuckles says against my ear. Game on bitch. I get into the stance Adrian taught me and manage to dodge the first couple of hits, I manage to get a couple of hits in myself when bam, Knuckles gets me square in the jaw, I have to fight to stay on my feet, fuck. That hurt, he definitely isn't going easy, good, let's do this. I spit the blood out of my mouth and I see Adrian approaching

"Killy so help me god if you try to stop this fight you will be sorry" I say in a stern voice, he moves back so we can continue.