I watched him ride off with the guys, I have no idea what's going on, but he better come back to me in one piece. I love him, I just need to tell him I do. I head back inside and meet Doc in the infirmary

"Ok Doc, what can I do to help?" I turned on the sound system and began moving stuff around and cleaning stuff down, whilst dancing to the music, I couldn't live without music. Doc joins in using a broom handle for a microphone whilst Iron Maidens fear of the dark played out. As I'm sorting stuff out I stop and lean against the counter, my hand may be healing but damn it still hurts when I use it. Doc comes over and takes a look

"You're gonna have a bitchin' scar there" he shoots me a look then says

"Shit sorry Cordelia" fuck, it's too late, I don't know what Adrian said to them, but they already see me differently, fuck this. I take my top off, good job my bra isn't see through today

"What're you doing" he says avoiding looking at me, I turn and show him my back

"Just look, I've hidden them from everyone, but you already know they're there, just get it over with and look" he moves over to me and examines my back. I feel his finger trace one of the lines

"Damn these were cut deep, that tattoo will be awesome when it's done though, I like it" I grab my tank top and put it back on and when I turn around he's taken his shirt off, he lifts his arm and says

"See this I got shot in Afghan, bullet went straight through, in this side and out the back" I lean down and look just below his ribs and can see one scar on his abdomen and one on his back

"We've all got scars Cordelia, don't sweat it, means we're fighters, you wanna ask Ice to show you his back where he got burned." I've found my family, I know it. The man I love and all these guys who reacted completely different to what I expected, I'm home.

We finish up setting up the infirmary as if we're expecting a bus crash to come in and then head outside for a beer and a cigarette, the sun is beaming down and I move a chair to sit in the sun, Doc joins me and we spend the next hour sharing stories from our work, Doc tells me some of the injuries he saw in Afghanistan, I don't know how he dealt with what he saw.

"This was fun, thanks for cheering me up Doc" I say patting him on the thigh before getting up to walk inside

"No problem Cordelia, it's nice to have some one in the medical field to swap gore stories with" I head inside and set up for making dinner, it's been 3 hours since the guys left, I assume they'll be back soon. I turn on the stove and set up for cooking a huge batch of chilli for everyone when I hear engines roaring, my mans back, I can't wait to see him, I turn the stove off and head for the door when Doc meets me

"Quick, we got 3 wounded in the van, come on" we run out the door and head straight to the van. Please don't be Adrian, please don't be Adrian, please don't be Adrian. The doors fly open as Bullet comes out with blood pouring from his leg, then I turn and see Knuckles and Adrian lying on the floor of the van both unconscious. Fuck, I've got to save him.

"Get these men inside now, what am I looking at?" BFG comes from the drivers side and puts his hand on my shoulder

"knuckles has been shot in the gut and Killer took a knife to the chest" ok, love of my life face off, nurse face on, let's do this. I grab BFG and socket and get them to carry Adrian inside, I help Doc carry knuckles, we head into the infirmary and I start my shift

"Ok Doc you take Knuckles, is there an exit wound? B get a tourniquet and tie it round Bullets leg, I'll get looking at this stab wound on Adrian" we all set to work, please god let me save this man so I can tell him I love him.