What did I just say? Am I really ready? Yes, I think I am Adrian is the best thing that's ever happened to me. He's the first person to have me naked in their bed, he's the first person to make me climax and he's about to be the first person I have sex with.

I hear a wrapper being opened and he comes back on top of me, he looks deep into my eyes

"I'll go slow, you just say if you need me to stop" I press my lips against his and wrap my legs around his waist, I can feel him at my entrance. He slides in gently and I feel him fill me, I gasp and my head rolls back against the pillow it hurts at first but I know it's worth it

"You ok Beautiful?" He whispers in my ear. I've never met anyone so considerate of my feelings. I nod my head and he begins to thrust, slowly at first while I adjust and then the pace increases, his lips crash into mine in a deep passionate kiss as I moan against his lips, I can feel the waves of pleasure building up and up until I feel the climax hit and it's the most intense feeling I've ever felt as I ride the waves of pleasure, just as he groans and reaches his own climax and collapse on top of me.

That was better than I ever imagined it to be. I finally had sex and it felt amazing. I feel a tear roll down my cheek and he meets it with his thumb. I look up and can see the concern in his eyes

"Are you alright? Did I hurt you?" I run my hand down his cheek

"No, that was amazing Adrian, better than I could've hoped for." He rolls over next to me and wraps his arms around me. This is perfect.

I woke up still in his arms and still naked. Last night was the best night of my life, I went to get up and realised I'm a bit sore, totally worth it though, I hope he knows we're doing that again! I get up and leave him sleeping grab a quick shower and throw on my denim shorts, iron maiden tank and my leather boots. I leave my hair to dry naturally, with soft curls and head downstairs. I can smell Izzy's cooking as I head to the kitchen

"Morning Izzy" I smile as I walk through and head for a cup of coffee

"Well what's got you all smiley this morning sweetheart, you got a glow goin' on there" she says waving a spatula around my face, Izzy and I have got quite close since she started teaching me to cook.

"I finally had sex" I whisper realising I do have a grin plastered on my face that won't go.

"You are kidding me girl, you've been in his bed for 2 weeks and he hasn't slept with you, damn he must be in love cos that boy is a panty dropper" she says laughing

"Well I'm glad you two are happy, about time that boy had a decent girl" she says before returning to cooking. The guys filter in for breakfast and I help Izzy lay out the food

"Can you grab the platter out the top shelf over there?" Izzy asks "Sure thing" I reach up to grab the platter off the top shelf when I hear

"What the fuck are they Cece? What the fuck happened?" I turn and see BFG, knuckles, Sonny, Ice and Bullet all looking at me with eyes wide. Fuck, I forgot myself and my top lifted up to show the whole room my scars.

"I need some air" I say to no one in particular as I run out to the parking lot. I go around the side of the building, sit on the floor and light a cigarette, fuck, now they'll all know and look at me like poor little Cordie, little victim. I can't help the tears that run down my cheeks. I'm going to have to leave and go home, maybe I can still see Adrian but I can't be around all these guys if they know what happened. I pull my knees up to my chest as the tears roll suddenly I hear some one walk up to me

"Go away B I don't want to talk right now" I say as they kneel down beside me.