I don't think I've ever slept better. I woke still in his strong arms the clock said 10am, I gently moved out of his arms and headed downstairs for coffee. I let Max outside and went back to pour myself a cup, I leaned against the counter drinking my coffee and looking out at my garden.

Last night was perfect. He just held me, no questions asked. No psycho analysis, no judgement, nothing. I slept without nightmares and woke up feeling safe. I suddenly felt 2 hands on my hips, followed by arms around my waist, I leant back against his strong chest and sighed, if this could stay just like this it would be perfect.

He leant down and gently kissed my shoulder. I suddenly felt exposed in my thin material shorts and camisole pyjamas but while I felt uncomfortable with those guys last night, here I feel safe. I ran my hands up and down his arms while he continued to kiss along my collarbone to my neck, I tilted my head to give him better access to my neck and couldn't help but moan softly at his rough skin touching my neck so softly. He spun me round and his lips crashed into mine, he bit my bottom lip causing me to gasp and open my mouth allowing his tongue access, that familiar taste filled my body with warmth and sent sparks flying all over my body.

He pulled away and placed a kiss on my forehead. I reached over and poured him some coffee, handing him the mug I said

"You hungry? I can't boil water but I'm sure I can make something for breakfast" I said smiling. He took a sip of his coffee and looked into my eyes

"I can't stay, got to get to the clubhouse." He looked like he was going to say something but was arguing whether to say it or not. I knew where this was going, the questions were coming, his view on me would change and he'd be gone. This is why I don't let anyone close. When my mom found out what happened the way she looked at me changed. The friends I was out with that night they stopped speaking to me, anyone who knows what happened looks at me differently. That is why no one knows the full story and why I don't have friends because people get close I open up and they change, then they're gone. I jumped up from leaning against the counter

"Ok then you go so I can get ready for walking Max, I'll see you around" I said smiling and walked out the kitchen, upstairs and into my bedroom. Hopefully he won't follow he'll just go, the way he makes me feel I can't take his view changing. I've never felt this way about anyone, no one has ever made me feel safe, wanted and sexy like he does.

I picked out my clothes and turned to walk to my bathroom, there he was stood in the doorway, damn, take the hint man. He walked up to me, his eyes staring into my soul I swear he could see so deep into me that he already knew, he put his hands on my face and said

"Are you ok? Something is up and I can't figure out what it is" I looked down at my feet, here it is I either lie and he gets mad and leaves or I tell him and he leaves. "It's nothing, I'm just weird it's fine" I walked into the bathroom, closed the door and started to change my clothes. I took my shorts off and put my jeans on, took my top off and put my bra on. The door opened, how could I not lock it? Idiot. I turned to hide my see through bra but then panicked and turned to hide my back.

He stood in the door, but I know he saw it, I'm trying to cover my scars with tattoos but between the healing on the scars and my work schedule it's taking longer than I wanted. He flew at me and spun me around to look at my back

"you like my tattoo?" I laughed, with the most fake laugh I've ever created.

"What the fuck happened Cordelia?" He ran his fingers over the six long lines running from my bra down to my tail bone, six perfect lines parallel with each other all across my back. I had a cherry blossom tree tattoo but it wasn't covering the scars, so I was having more colour added in. Only the nurse in the ER has seen these and my tattoo artist, no one else knows they are there, not even my Mom. When I didn't answer he span me round and sat me on the bathroom counter. His eyes piercing mine. This is it.