Yesterday was Thanksgiving! Not a lot happened. After dinner all the young adults and children went outside, sat around the fire, and played truth or dare. The only exciting thing that happened in all of that was when Ryan dared Andrew to kiss Rachel and he actually did. I personally thought he was going to chicken out. But oh well. Now they spend like every second together. But they "aren't dating".

Ryan and I fell asleep while watching tv and I was waken up by endless tickling. I squeezed my eyes shut. "Ryan stop!" I screamed.

"Well how else was I suppose to wake you up?" He shrugged.

I glared at him. "Not by tickling! Why would you wake me up?"

He pointed over to the doorway. When I looked over I saw Brian standing there smiling at me. "Chips!" Brian yelled.

"Dip!" I jumped off of the couch and ran into his arms. I basically jumped on him. Wrapping my legs around him, we hugged each other tightly.

"I missed you Autie!" He put me down. Brian and I are only five days apart when it comes to age. He's my mom's, friend's, brother's, son. He my most bestest friend in whole universe!! Oh, uh, you know. Next to Rachel...

"How was Miranda's family?" I asked. Miranda is his girlfriend. He was having an early Thanksgiving dinner with them. Which is why he wasn't here yesterday.

"It was nice. We broke up but I didn't mind. Would've been better if you were there though." He nudged me.

~*~

(Ryan's P.O.V.)

I sat there on the couch watching as Autie and "Dip" laughed. Eventually I got up and walked over to Autie, pulled her into my arms.

She brightened up and pulled her friend and I into a group hug. "I'm so glad I have both of you with me now."

I looked up and saw Brian already glaring at me. I returned the favor by glaring at him. When Autie looked up we both smiled at her.

She came up to me and jumped into my arms bridle style. "To the room." She demanded waving goodbye to Brian.

I closed the door with her still in my arms.
I laid her down on the bed and jumped onto her. She laughed. "Ryan get off!"

I kissed her and she stopped pushing me. She grabbed the back of my neck and pulled me closer. I smiled. "I am never letting you be that affectionate to a man ever again."

"Grow up." She said in between kisses. "Brian's just my friend."

I stop kissing her and just laid beside her in bed. "He likes you more than a friend." I told her.

She narrowed her eyes and smirked. "Are you jealous?"

"Yes, yes I am." I replied simply.

She sat up and rolled her eyes. "Despite how cute you are when you jealous you need to trust me! He doesn't like me like that!" Autie insisted.

I shrugged. "Whatever you say."

She glared at me. "Wow. Ok fine. I'm going to take a nap just wake me whenever my mom calls for us." She flipped onto her side angrily, her back to me.

I sighed and closed my eyes. "I'm sorry." I tried to place a hand on her arm but she pushed it off.

"Go away." I heard her mumble.

I pulled her onto my lap despite the kicking and protest. Cupping her face I said sternly, "I am not going to let you go to sleep feeling unloved. Never again for the rest of your life. So look at me when I say your the best thing that's ever happened to me and I.. I.. I really like you Autumn." She closed her eyes and buried her head into the crook of my neck. One or two tears fell from her eyes.

Eventually her breathing steadied and I assumed she was asleep. I laid us both under the covers and set her down on her side of the bed. I laid by her but not too close in case she was still mad at me. After a minute of laying there I couldn't help but not be able to fall asleep. That was so much easier when Autie was closer to me. She had told me stories before of how Alec would stay as far away from her as possible in bed and now that I'm experiencing it myself, I
Realized its 10x harder than i thought.

I decided to wrap my arms around her and pull her up to me so that we were just barely touching. She rolled over and scooted as close to me as possible. It cause me physical and mental pain knowing that I hurt her feelings. I try not to do that considering everything she's been through the past few months.

But now I'm going to have to try and be nice to Brian cause I know it'll make her happy. I just can't help but hate him. He's obviously trying to take Autie away from me. He needs to realize that Autie's mine. Not his. And never will be his.

Autie started to squirm and I held her tighter. "Why don't you like it when I talk to other guys besides the boys and you?" She mumbled.

I sighed and smiled slightly. "I don't like it cause I'm the only guy that gets to fall for you,"

When I saw her smile I know everything was going to be alright. Just three more days and then we can go home and everything will be normal again. I dug my head in the crook of her neck and finally fell asleep.

~*~

(Autie's P.O.V.)
(Autie's dream)

He pinned me back on the bed. "I'm going to do this to you and your not going to do anything."

Tears poured from my eyes as Ryan started to kiss my neck. "Get off." I choked.
He started to take off my pants and no matter how hard I kicked him, he showed no emotion.

"Shut up." Was all he said.

"Please!" I cried. The door bursted open and Alec ran in. He calmly walked up to us and placed a hand on Ryan's shoulder.

"Me next buddy." He smirked evilly at me.

Screaming I cried out for help but eventually I became mute and could do nothing but just lay there helplessly..

(End of dream)

"Autie! Autie wake up! Stop screaming please! Your scaring me!" I opened my eyes and saw Ryan sitting above me. His eyes were puffy and red like he'd been crying.

"I'm awake." I muttered wishing he would stop touching me.

"What did I do?" A single tear dropped.

"It was just a dream don't worry about it." I look around the room, not wanting to look at Ryan.

"But you kept. Screaming for me to stop and you were kicking and crying. What did I do?"

I shrugged. "It's not a big deal. You just teamed up with Alec and took turns raping me."

He glared at me and pulled me into his lap. "Stop. Stop doing this."

I looked at him in confusion. "Stop doing what?"

"Stop not trusting me Autumn! I really like you. Fuck it, I love you and you keep acting like you don't love me as much I do you. I want to be the only guy you love for the rest of your life dammit! Why don't you trust me?"

I gulped slightly. "I trust you. I love you." His eyes widened as if he just now realized what he said. I look down at my lap. "I'm sorry." I felt like crying but I didn't.

"Ok."

That's all he said.. Ok.. Nothing else. "Where is my family?"

He seemed happy to change the subject. "They went bowling."

I narrowed my eyes at him. "Brian and Sam didn't. They hate bowling. Where are they?"

"Swimming." He told me.

I smiled at him and gave him a kiss. "Let's go swim with them." He went into our bathroom to change and I stayed out in the room.

Ryan came out just as I pulled on my bottoms. "You know, you could've asked if I was done changing."

He came up to me and started giving my neck small kisses. "A guys gotta tried." I rolled my eyes and hopped onto his back.

"To the pool." I ordered.

Rolling his eyes he started walking. "Are you ever gonna walk again?"

"Probably not since you'll always be around." I smiled.

He put me down once we got into the pool area. I saw Brian smirk at Ryan right before I was about to pass him. When I got next to him Brian pulled me into his lap. "You can sit here if you want."

Reading my mind, Ryan picked me up and sat in the chair next to Brian, with me on his lap. "I think I like this chair better." I smiled.

~*~

(Ryan's P.O.V.)

I laid down and let her lay on top of me. I opened one of my eyes and saw Brian glaring at the ground muttering softly. I put my hands on her waist and closed my eyes again.

"Ryan." Autie whispered into me ear.

"Yeah?" I asked kissing down her neck and onto her shoulder.

"You were right about Brian." She said, bringing my lips to her.

"Look at him after I say this okay?" I whispered into her ear.

"Okay?"

"Hey babe?" I said loud enough for him to here.

"Yeah?" She answered knowing what I was doing now.

"I love you."

She flipped over so our faces were inches apart. "I love you too." She kissed me on the lips before shifting her gaze to Brian. He wasn't there anymore. He was stomping towards the pool steps.

~*~

(Autie's P.O.V.)

To anyone else this would be wierd but it's not for Sam. She always carries a camera with her so when Brian wadded into the pool angrily, she took a picture. "Aww you look so cute Brian!"

She ran out of the pool and whispered something into Ryan's ear. He nodded before picking me up and walking to the edge of the pool.

"You ready?" He asked me.

I nodded before he jumped into the pulled still holding me. While we were underwater he floated above me and gave me a kiss. We sorta, kinda of forgot we were under water. And when we tried to open our mouths, water got in.

When he realized I was struggling he quickly pulled me out of the water. When we got to the surface I gasped for air. Being the horny bastard Ryan is he laid me on the side of the pool and tried to accomplish "mouth to mouth". Even though the other two around saw it as making out.

"Aww look at the picture I got of Ryan and Autie kissing under the water Brian!" I heard Sam exclaim. "And the one where Ryan is giving Autie 'mouth to mouth' "she smiled putting air quotes around "mouth to mouth".

Brian growled slightly. "Thank you, Sam. But you can go now."

She shrugged. "Nah that's okay. I'll stay here."

Brian took the camera and threw it underwater. "Oops."

"It's a waterproof camera dumbass!" She rolled her eyes.

Brian got out of the water and stumbled inside. Leaving the rest of us laughing. "I thought he was suppose to be an adult?" Ryan laughed.

Sam sighed. "I should probably go make sure the big baby's okay."

She went inside after Brian, leaving Ryan and I in the pool. He came up to me and pulled me close to him. "I really do love you." He told me.

"I know." I smiled kissing him."

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