Rose pov

We reach the house after a drive of silence.

I'm mad I guess.

Not to the point of ignoring him, but if we talk now my mom might become the subject of the conversation and that would just annoy me more.

I realized from my trip home that there was only one place I could live at and be kinda happy at the same time.

And it's here, with Ryder.

Which is kinda sad, considering I've only known him for a couple weeks.

I guess he grew on me.

He's still annoying as fuck and he needs to learn to keep his hands off me.

But other than that he's fine and better than my mom so...

Yeah, it's cool.

I glance over at him, seeing his jaw clenched and his obvious anger.

I sigh.

"Ryder, let's go."

"It's my birthday today." He says suddenly.

Oh...shit.

I start to feel a little regret.

Damn I really have the worst timing, don't I?

I laugh awkwardly.

"Ha... sorry, happy birthday though, I think we-"

"Don't ever run away from me again."

His face remains stoic throughout his sentence.

He's still mad.

...I guess I can care today it's his birthday. 

"The boys set up a surprise party for me at the hideout. I came back to get you and you were gone."

Ouch, he's going to rub this one in, isn't he?

"I won't, run away again I mean," I respond.

"I won't let you ever again."

Of course.

A few guys come and take my suitcase, and we're off.

We remain in silence, which I'm perfectly fine with.

Why's he so bothered? I barely know him and he barely knows me. I'm just some girl he picked up for some reason and won't let leave.

He doesn't know what he's dealing with. He has no clue.

At this point, I've warned him and I've tried to help him escape me, but he's the one that doesn't want to let go.

And honestly, I'm kinda grateful for that...

-*-

After the hella, sucky party, Ryder and I drive back home.

I scowl at him, glaring at him through my eyelashes, slouching in the seat, with my arms crossed against my chest."

"Get that look off your face, you know why I-" I cut him off.

"I know, you followed me around for the last 4 hours just cause I-"

"Because you ran away!" He shouts pulling over, slamming his fists into the steering wheel. 

I frown.

"You left me, and I'm not letting you go again, I told you I wouldn't, I don't care if you're mad, I don't care because you didn't care when you decided to go!" His body trembles as his gaze snaps to mine.

"Ryder, I don't get it. We didn't know each other a month ago. You just want me as your gang's slave and you're mad cause I'm playing hard to get and you don't like it. I left because I didn't want to be used, not by you." I shout, clenching my fists so hard I might be bleeding.

Silence fills the car.

"That's not it. I really like being around you, Rose. You make me feel... I don't even know how to explain it, but I know I want you with me, and when you left this morning I felt my heart drop in my chest, and I had to get you back. Besides being Queen is like being the leader except for you're female. I promise you it would be the complete opposite of what you have in mind."

I turn away from him, looking back out my window.

"Let's just go home," I say, sighing out.

The quiet fills the air again yet the car doesn't start.

I exhale loudly, turning my head back to face him.

"Come on, Ryde-"

I'm cut off by a warm sensation pressing against my lips.

Fuckin-

He really wants to die, doesn't he?

His tongue pries its way into my mouth, as his arm comes around my back and pulls me closer to him.

I struggle against him but...

His kiss feels... soft somehow, like his lips are melting onto mine, and yet intense at the same time.

It's kinda alright.

...

NOPE.

What did I even just think?

Ryder's lips part from mine and he stares into my eyes intensely.

"That's how I feel about you."

I stare at him.

He turns and finally starts the car.

The only thought that repeats in my mind is...

Did I like that?

And if I did, well I wouldn't cause that would be stupid as fuck, and I'm not stupid at all..., right? 

Oh, God.
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I'm starting this book up again, because i feel like my motivation for it is back and I can balance both it and my new book psycho (which u guys should go check out) but I'm so sorry for the wait and I'll try to update twice a week.

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