Sandro

I tried to open my eyes and to check if Cara was okay, I hit my car on a tree and I saw Cara closing her eyes while still gripping on her seatbelt. Sht! Kuya Mike will be mad if I put Cara in danger.

"You okay? Cara. Wake up," I said and tapped her shoulders. She opened her eyes one by one and sighed.

"Oh God! I thought I'll gonna die. Sht! You have blood." I stared at myself to the mirror and there's a blood that's rushing from my forehead and I felt a pain on my head. My head hit the steering wheel sa pagkakabunggo ko sa puno but, Chantall.. Si Chantall.

"Cara, go down. You'll come with me in the airport?" I asked her as she opened the door, I took my wallet and phone and good thing wala masyadong tao at bahay dito.

"No.  I'll just ask help from the police about this." I nodded at her and pinasakay ko muna ito, I waited some vehicles and sumakay na din.

"Cong? Okay lang ho ba kayo? Dumudugo 'yung noo ninyo." the driver asked me so I just wiped it my hands and I can literally see a blood.

"Opo, nabangga Po kasi kami. Pero kailangan ko pong habulin 'yung mag-ina ko." I told him and he nodded, we arrived at the airport and I gave him my fare, I ran inside at hinanap ng mata ko yung mga bakas ni Chantall.

"Where are you?" I asked and I ran backwards to go to the departure area, I looked at the schedule flight board and it changed. Nakaalis na siya, hindi ko manlang naabutan. I closed my eyes as I sat on my place, I let her go without me explaining my side. Please, come back, Love.

"Nakaalis na. Did Cara said na uuwi si Chantall sa Manila?" I looked up and it's Jamie who's talking, with Matt. They looked at me pitifully so I smiled at them, tumayo ako at pinunasan yung luha ko.

"Babalik siya diba?" I asked them so they stared at each other.. What's the meaning of this? Hindi ba siya babalik?

"Let's go home," Matt said and tapped my shoulders.

"Uuwi siya diba? Matt?  Babalik siya?"  my breathing started to get heavy,

"Did you get into an any accident? Your forehead." Jamie deviated the topic so I touched my forehead and there's a blood. I looked at Jamie as she gets any tissue from her bag.

"Pero si Chan.."

"Shut it, Sandro. Why don't you fix yourself and the situation? Hayaan mo muna si Chantall, please. Kung babalik siya, babalik siya.. Kung mahal ka niya, babalik 'yun..."

"What if hindi na siya babalik? What if iwan na nila ako? Jame, I can't bear to live a day without her. Jame," I cutted Jamie off and she sighed

"Let's go, Matt. Sa hospital muna tayo." Matt held my arms as he pulled me pero iwinaksi ko ito.

"No, I'll wait here. I'll wait for her," pagmamatigas ko, Chan! Please..

"Sandro! Halika na! Hindi na siya babalik sa ngayon. Anong akala mo sa eroplano? May U-turn? Let's treat your head first." I shake my head to them so they frustratedly pulled my arms at wala akong magawa kundi sumunod sa kanila.

We went back to the hospital for check up and Mom is here with Kuya Mike and Cara.

"I'm sorry, Kuya Mike. Cara." I told them quietly so they stared at each other and sighed,

"It's okay, I understand. Pasalamat nalang sa Diyos na hindi ako napahamak." Cara replied, the nurse are putting the gauze pad on my forehead to stop the bleeding,

"Next time, Sandro. Magingat ka sa pagddrive especially pag may kasama ka. Oh Goodness!" Mom said as she massaged her forehead, I didn't even know na ganun mangyayari eh, and thank God that walang napuruhan sa amin.

We went home and there's no people in the house, I am just looking the unlively house for now, Chantall was the only one who gave life in our house especially if we're not complete. Kahit sa labas ka palang, naririnig mo agad yung sigaw at kanta niya.. But now, she's gone. Wala siya.. Umalis siya.

"You missed going home na unang bumubungad sa'yo ang tawa at pagkanta ni Chantall 'no?" Mom asked me as she wrapped her arms on my waist and rested her head on my shoulder, I wiped my tears and nodded,

"Chantall really gave life and light on us. Especially kay Vincent, super attached 'nun sa Ate Chantall niya. But for sure, babalik siya. She'll come back, don't worry."

"Channy Ba.. Where is she?" Speaking of Vincent, she went out of the house with Simon holding their phones, they're playing a mobile game again.

"Augh! Stop pranking me." Vinny said so I sighed and we went inside, the two followed us as we sat in the sala. Vincent are asking where Chantall is and he thought we're playing some pranks on him,

"Your Ate Chantall went back to Manila. Vinny, Simon, don't call or send any messages on her first okay? Just give her some time, to rest, to think. She'll be back." Mom explained to them calmly as Arlin appeared.

"Wala si Miss Chantall po?" She asked innocently and I nodded, inikot nito ang paningin para hanapin siya,

"Nilutuan ko po siya ng favorite spaghetti niya. Tinuruan niya po ako ng version ng mama niya ng spaghetti. Pero wala siya dito. Para po talaga sa kaniya iyon."

"Hindi po sa nanghihimasok ako Congressman, naghiwalay na ba kayo ni Miss Chantall? Hindi na po ba siya babalik?" her voiced cracked so I avoided my gaze so that I can't look at her. Everyone is so attached to Chantall na talaga. Especially Arlin.

"Hija, Arlin. Umuwi lang si Chantall para makapagpahinga at makapag-isip isip. Babalik din 'yun. We'll just eat the spaghetti, don't worry." Mom stood up and went to Arlin to tell that, tumayo na din ako at pumasok ng kwarto para kumuha ng Jack Daniels,

I cried as i reminisce about our happy moments here in this room, where we both share our laughter, tears, love. Dito din yung first kiss namin at dito din ako umamin sa kaniya. I smiled bitterly as I drink the whiskey in the bottle.

I sat on the bed and I opened my phone to watch the videos that I took when I am with Chantall, I am watching it with the tears in my eyes, may pagsisisi na din syempre.

"Ano ba Sandro, putangina naman eh!"

"Hahahahahah! You're so cute, Love."

"Eh kung ipakain ko sa'yo yang phone mo para makita mo kung sinong cute."

This video was taken in the restaurant in our anniversary, we're having a date and she's eating, Puno ang bunganga kaya lumubo ang pisnge so I took a video of her without permission.

I just drown myself in this liquors hoping that Chantall will come, she hated it so much when I'm drunk, she doesn't want me to get wasted with liquors.

"Chan, I'm drunk. Please come back. Kahit pagalitan mo pa ako, kahit hanggang umaga kang magbunganga dahil naglasing ako, okay lang. Just please come back, Love please. I love you so much." I muttered as I am opening my phone and I get frustrated when Chantall blocked me in any social accounts that I have, Facebook, Twitter, Instagram.

"Channnn!" I screamed as I throw my phone to the wall, I hate myself, I hate myself so damn much!

"Arghhhh! Fck you, Sandro! Fck you! This is all your fault, kasalanan mo!" I screamed as I throw the bottle again to suppress my anger, my pain and my hatred for myself.

"Sandro! Oh God!" Mom panicked as she saw me sitting on the floor, wasted.

"Mom, si Chantall. Please call Chantall please." she looked at me pitifully and covered her mouth, she's crying in front of me and held my hand

"Mom! Mommy," I cried and she hugged me so tight.

"Ssshhh! Son, it's okay. It's okay, ssshhhh!"

"Mommy, iniwan niya ako. Iniwan nila ako. And I hated myself for that, I hate myself, Mom! I hurt the girl I love the most, I hurt the girl who I need the most, and I hated myself for hurting her. Mom!"

"Sssshh! Anak, it's okay. It's okay."

"Lasing nga, get some dust pan and vacuum even broom, Vinny. Let's clean his mess." I heard Simon said and he's in the door looking at us,

"I badly want to punch you, Sandro when I heard from Chantall that you made out with Jillian. Hindi lang isang beses. Dalawang beses pa talaga, but I respect you as my brother, so please. Fix yourself and go win Chantall back. I just can't bear seeing you like that."

"Simon, isa!" Mom warns him so he rolled his eyes, he gets my phone and place it to my organizer,

"Take a rest, Sandro. You need rest. Please, Darling." Mom said so I shake my head, I can't sleep knowing na wala si Chantall sa tabi ko and worst, she's hurting right now.

"Please, ayusin mo ang sarili mo. I'll go get some water." Mom said and she kissed my forehead, I closed my eyes irritatedly and Simon went infront of me and stared at me like he's judging me. He gets something on his pocket and my my tears started to rush down again when I saw the ring.

"Hinanap ko before tayo pumunta ng hospital," he said and tinalkuran na ako. I almost forgot about this ring, sa dinami-daming nangyari, I am just focused on Chantall and I almost forgot that she get this ring of from hers and that's the most painful thing.

"Wala na ba talagang pag-asa?" I asked the ring na parang si Chantall ang kinakausap ko.

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Chantall

It's been 5 days since I am staying here in our house, I didn't stay at Condo kasi walang magaasikaso sa akin, wala si Sandro. I am currently staying at the guest room because I can't stay in my room, there's a lot of memories of me and Sandro there, it's just painful to stay and to remember everything. I didn't open my phone, so that wala akong masagap na balita mula sa kanila. I just need to heal first and to take care of the baby at the same time.

Someone knocks on my door and Dad appeared, he smiled at me so I gave him a half smile.

"How are you?" He asked me while he's walking towards me,

"I don't know, Dad. I'm not okay, I missed him so much." I whispered at yumuko para hindi makita ni Daddy na umiiyak ako.

I missed Sandro so much, I am always thinking how was him, did he eat his meals? It's Holy Week so I'm sure he's resting, nagpapahinga ba talaga? Knowing our current situation, ayaw ko lang talaga na makita siya kasi naaalala ko ang nangyari at mas nasasaktan ako.

"He missed you too." He said so I stared at my Father and chuckled.

"For sure,"

"Baby, why don't you try to listen to him? Why don't you try to validate his side? Pareho lang kayo ang nahihirapan, pareho lang kayo ang nasasaktan, pareho kayo ang may kasalanan. Mas pinapahirapan niyo lang ang sarili ninyo." I stared at my Dad, why would I listen? Magsisinungaling na naman siya? Sasabihin na sinet-up siya? Dalawang beses na 'yun. If set up man ang nasa bar, he has a choice kung uulitin niya or hindi. But he chose na magpadala, at kay Jillian pa talaga.

"Why don't you fix it? Magkakaanak na kayo, hindi na kayo mga bata, Chan."

"Daddy, sino ba anak ninyo? Ako o siya?" he laughed at me and hugged me, he tapped and caressed my head as he kissed my forehead,

"'Yung baby ko. Marunong nang gumawa ng baby at magkakababy na," he still tries to joke around, he's trying his best to make me laugh, ever since. If he saw me stressed about my acads, he's  always joking around so that made me laugh and made my atmosphere lighten

"Wow, so how about me? Ayaw niyo ako isama sa moment ninyo mag-ama?" We heard my mother's voice kaya nilingon namin ang pinto, she's there, standing.

"Daddy and Daughter Bonding lang." Dad said so my Mom rolled her eyes to my Dad,

"Whatever, may bisita ka, Love." Mom said so my eyebrows lifted automatically, my heartbeat started to race on what she said,

"P-po?"

"Baba na tayo, may bisita ka." is it Sandro? I don't want to see him for now, so I sighed.

"Who?" I asked her so she smiled sweetly and confirmed,

"Secret, dali na." Hinila na ako ni Daddy patayo so I don't have a choice kundi sumunod. Kinakabahan ako na natatakot na naiiyak at nasasaktan dahil makikita ko si Sandro, I bit my lips as I went down the stairs.

"We missed you," my eyes widen when I saw him, he rushed towards me and gave me a tight hug,

"Please, come back. Everyone misses you. Vinny misses you," he whispered to me and kumawala sa yakap ko, Mom and Dad nodded at us at umakyat na din sa taas.

"Umuwi ka na, or ako talaga ang hindi makakauwi sa Ilocos." I slapped his arm as he joked around.

"What are you doing here? Did you fly from Laoag?" I asked him and he nodded,

"Yes, I'm just here to check you up, how are you?" he asked me as we are walking to our garden para doon kami makapag-usap.

"Simon, it's still painful. Masakit pa din. Hindi pa ako okay." I answered him and he smiled at me. We sat and the helpers gave us some snacks to eat.

"How is he?" I asked Simon so he stared at me,

"He's not okay. He's sulking on his room, still waiting for you to come back. He's not even eating his meals and binabantayan ni Mommy because anytime he can go here and puntahan ka. He's drowning his self sa alak." he told me, and my heart clenched on what I heard,

"You love him right?" he asked me so I looked at him,

"Balik ka na," I closed my eyes as the tears flow from my eyes,

"I'm sorry," I whispered.