Sandro

I woke up with the ring of my phone over my head and it's Mom who's calling. I groaned and I get my phone to answer it.

"Where are you? Chantall's already awake" my eyes widen as I ended the call, I took a quick shower and I changed my clothes, I get some clothes for Chantall also kasi uuwi din siya mamaya dito. I went down to get some foods for her, nagpaluto ako para may maidala ako at may makain si Chantall, i already cleared my schedule because it's Saturday, I have a week to rest, and para paamuhin si Chantall

I drive my car to the hospital and I went straightly on her room but I saw Matt and Jamie arguing infront of the room.

"For God's Sake, Jamie! You can teach her a lesson without doing any scandalous things. Why are you doing such impulsive moves?" Matt said angrily to Jamie but she just smirk and stared at him. My forehead creased.

"What's happening here? Are you two okay?" I asked them so Matt stared at me with frustration and he gave me the phone with Jamie pulling Jillian's hair and kinaladkad ito pababa sa hagdan ng bar.

"Excuse me, that serves her right and it's not enough. Kung wala lang akong takot sa Diyos, napatay ko na 'yan! Alam mo ba, muntik na niyang mapatay si Chantall last year, and now, may madadamay pa siyang innocent baby. I don't care if it gets trending, and excuse me! I know what's right, and I just did that para kay Chantall, she's not even fighting back eh. So ako nalang." Matt closed his eyes as he combed his hair and sighed.

I clicked the video on the Facebook and I heard Jillian's cry and shriek.

"What do you think of me? If Chantall's kind, I'm sorry 'cause I'm not. If she can't hit you, well I'm sorry if I can. You deserve it bitch!" Jamie said as she's keep on pulling Jillian's hair and Jillian fall at kinaladkad ito ni Jamie,

"I hate you more bitch! I hope Chantall will die with frustration! Aahhhh! Let go!" Kinaladkad ito ni Jamie sa hallway habang hila hila ang buhok.

"Don't you dare stop me!" she yelled on the person who took a video as she went down on the stairs with Jillian who's in  the floor, crying and trying to fight back. I just can't continue the video, I paused it and gave it back to Matt.

"Don't worry, Sandro. She can't ever step back here in Norte, all you just need is to win Chantall back." Jamie said and looked at Matt as she went inside the room,

"She really loves Chantall, mas mahal niya pa ata girlfriend mo than me, Bro." Matt said and tapped my shoulder, I looked at Chantall from the door and the nurse are check her up, my Mom is on her side, umuwi na din sina Cara and Xandra. I breathe in some air and let it out as I enter the room, she looked at the door. Expecting someone? She avoided my gaze and just looked at the nurse.

"Hey, Love. Good morning, how are you?" I greeted her first and I put the paper bag of her foods on the table, I went on her to kiss her forehead but she moved for her to avoid my kiss. I stared at my Mother and she nodded,

"Did she already eat, Nurse?" I asked at tinitigan niya si Chantall at ako sabay iling nito.

"Wow! Chan, Ang sarap ng ulam mo oh. Sandro prepared this for you." Jamie said as she gets the Tupperware from the paper bag, good thing they put some plates and utensils on it.

"Darling, Chantall. Dahil nandito na rin lang si Sandro. I'll go muna ha? I will have some rest and I'll be back kasi uuwi tayo mamaya." Mommy said and she caressed Chantall's hair, she nodded at my Mom and gave her a half smile.

"It's okay, Tita. Take your time. I can handle." I am putting some foods on the plates so that I can feed her. I hope she'll eat. Mom went on me to give me a kiss and tapped my shoulder so I smiled at her.

"Love, come. Subuan kita," I told her but she's just looking at the opposite side, she's ignoring me and this is the hardest part for me, my heart gets heavy but, hell. I'm also the reason why she's like that.

I went on her side and sat on the hospital bed at umusog naman ito,

"Come on, let's eat. I know you're hungry and it's your favorite oh.  Longganisa." I tried to act jolly and normal in front of her because i don't have any rights to cry and tell her na pansinin ako. Matt and Jamie are just staring at me,

"Chan, sa labas kami kakain ni Matt ha? We'll be right back. Sandro, ikaw na ang bahala jaan ha? Halika na, Matthew."

"Wait, I want to eat here, masarap ang ulam eh." pinanlakihan ito ng mata ni Jamie and tinulak na patayo si Matt at lumabas na. Bati na agad sila? I wish, kami din. I took a spoonful of rice with a slice of Longganisa and inilapit ito sa kaniya.

"Come on, for our baby." I told her calmly and she's trying na umusog pa para maipalayo niya ang mukha niya sa kutsara.

"Please," I whispered so she sighed.

"I'm not hungry, as well as the baby." she said coldly and that hit me hard, it gives shiver through my whole body and made my heart heavier than a while ago. Tinalikuran Ako nito ng pahiga at tumalukbong ng kumot,

I stood up and put the plate back on the table and I just made her a milk, I bought it a while ago when I was going home. While I was pouring a hot water on the mug, I heard her sniffing so I looked back at her and I know she's crying, so I bit my lower lip and went on her, I lay down on her side and hugged her and I also wrapped my arms on her waist as she take off my hand. I tried again but she keeps on taking it off. She's crying silently and I know she wants to let it out.

"I'm sorry." I whispered and my tears are now falling, I want to hug her, I want her to cry in my arms but she doesn't want to. She's rejecting it.

"You hated me that much?" I asked, there's no reply. I sat down on the bed and tried to take off the blanket that is covering her to see her and when I took it off, the pillow and her arms are now wet with her tears,

"Love. I'm sorry," I attempted to hold her hands but she avoided it again and tumalukbong ulit ng kumot. It's very unusual that she's not speaking and talking to me, I'm not used to it and it makes my heart broke. I went back to the table to get the milk and I went back Infront of her.

"Stop crying, Love.  I'm so sorry." I said calmly and I sat on the chair, she sniffs and kinuha ang kumot na nakatalukbong dito, she stared at me so I wiped my tears and smiled at her, she has a puffy reddish eyes, you can clearly see that she cried. Tinalikuran ako nito so I sighed.

"Let's talk, please. Let me explain."

"Please.. Not now, I'm tired." she replied

"Hmm, just rest okay? I love you. Punta muna ako sa office, babalik ako." I told her, there's no reply. I wanted to kiss her but I just sighed and went out of the room.

"How's Chantall?" Jamie asked me, nagkasalubong kami sa hallway, I sighed again and smiled them.

"She's still ignoring me," Matt tapped my shoulder so I looked at him.

"Just give her time, mahirap din sa kaniya 'yan." I nodded at Matt and I went on my car,

"Damn! What did I do? Do I deserve this?" I muttered as I hit my stirring wheel.

"This is all your fault," I breathe in and I started my car, I went on my office to think,

I video called Tita Clara and when she answers it, my tears started to fall..  again..

"Ma'am, I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry, Ma'am." I said as I met my palms.

"Please forgive me, Ma'am. I'm so sorry."

"Why? What happened Sandro?"

"Sino 'yan? Sandro? Bakit?" I heard Daddy Juliano in the other line.

"We're at the Philippines. You want us to go there?"

"Sir, I'm so sorry. Im so sorry Ma'am, Sir, I hurt your daughter. But please don't get Chantall away from me. Please, I'll fix this. I love your daughter so much. Sir."

"Bakit? Anong nangyari?" They are now panicking on the screen,

"Jillian... Jillian set me up. She set me up and Chantall.. She saw us, Ma'am, Sir. I'm so sorry. Please.  Don't take Chantall away from me, I'm begging. I won't hurt her again, this won't happen again." I said.

"No. No, we won't. It's just a phase, wala kang kasalanan. Ang kasalanan mo lang ay nagpadala ka." Tito Jul said so I cried.

"Sir, please. Forgive me.  This won't happen again. Sir,"

"Darling, no. We won't take Chantall away from you. And thank you for telling us about what happened." Tita said.

"I'm so sorry, Ma'am. I'm so sorry."

I explained to them everything and they told me that they are not mad, and it made me guilty because all they give to me is kindness and generosity but the exchange is I hurt their daughter.

I am just reading some papers and signed some. I dozed myself to sleep and I woke up again after an hour because Cara called me.

"Where are you? Nakauwi na ba si Chantall?" Cara asked me so my heartbeat starts beating so fast and my forehead crease.

"I'm at my office? Why?"

"She's not here, baka nakauwi na siya."

"Wait, jan ka muna. I'll go there." I ended the call and I went on my car and drive it as fast as I can,

"Don't tell me you left." I whispered, oh God! Please.. No..

"Don't leave me, please.. Chan."

I arrived at the hospital and ran inside, the nurses and doctors are staring at me even the patients, I saw Cara outside the room of Chantall.

"Sands." I opened the room and it's empty. There's no one, even Chantall.

"Fck!" I muttered as I kicked the door that's why Cara stepped back. I get my phone to dial her number but it's out of coverage. I sat down on the couch and frustratedly comb my hair as my tears are falling from my eyes.

"She left me," I told Cara and she avoided my gaze.

"She just need time, she'll be back." she's trying to comfort me but I know, she won't be back, she'll never be.

"I'm scared that I might lose them, Car. I don't know where to start without Chantall." Cara sat beside me and tapped my shoulder,

"No, don't say that. Chantall loves you so much, she'll be back. Masyado lang siyang emotional and masyadong fresh pa ang mga pangyayari,"

"Cara, what if hindi na sila bumalik? What if iniwan niya ako? Cara, God knows how much I deplored about what happened, I don't want that to happened, I don't know anymore.. I don't know Cara."

"What if hindi siya bumalik? What if iniwan ka? Sandro, don't you trust her enough? Don't you trust the love that she have for you? Hayaan mo muna siya, babalik siya. Mahal na mahal ka 'nun. And also, give and fix yourself a time. Para if okay na Ang lahat, kalmado niyong mapag-usapan ang nangyari." Cara hugged me as I cry in her arms. She'll be back, I'll find her. Uuwi ka sa akin.

"Sandro, she's in airport. Sabi ni Jamie sakin pero secr..." Cara said cheerfully so that caught me on guard, I looked at her and she avoided my gaze and she cursed.

"Patay.." I heard her whispered so I stood up.

"Let's go! Habulin natin sila. I want Chantall to stay and I want to take care of her. And win her back." I said and we went outside the room, we walked as fast as we can and went inside my car.

"Please Chan. Lord, do everything for her flight to delay." I whispered as I started the engine.

"Sandro, huwag na. Secret lang namin ng girls 'to eh." thank God dahil nadulas si Cara. I drive my car as fast as I can.

"Chan please. Not now, let's fix this." I whispered and Cara is staring at me worriedly as gripping on the seatbelt

"Mike, ikaw na ang bahala sa mga anak natin." I heard Cara whispered,

Chan, please.. Please.. I will let you go back to Manila but please, just a hug and an explanation for now please. I can't lose you. Please..

"Sandro!" Cara screams as my eyes widen because I can see another car who is also overtaking towards us as  my heartbeat starts to beat faster habang iniikot ko ang manibela at inaapakan ang preno ng sasakyan para makaiwas sa sasakyan na makakasalubong namin sa iisang daan. But I think we can't avoid it.

"Oh God! Not now please. Please," I whispered.

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Chantall

He left the room as Jamie went inside, I wiped my tears as I manually get my IV, oh God! I badly want to hug him a while ago, I badly want to talk to him but everytime I saw him, his face, I remember everything, from last night, from his celebration. Everything went back, the scene that I am currently moving forward and to forget because I thought, I thought everything went well. Everything will go well because we're engaged, but last night happened and it was ruined.

"Are you sure? Aalis ka talaga?" Jamie asked me so I nodded my head, my tears are starting to fall again so I wiped it immediately,

"I don't know kung kailan ako makakabalik.."  or hindi na, I don't know what to do with my life anymore.

"Ayaw niyo ba ayusin 'to, Chan? Sandro loves you so much and grabe yung pagsisisi niya. Please fix this." I looked at Jamie who's holding my hands and seated beside me.

"I don't know anymore, Jame. Sa ngayon, sobrang sakit pa... It hurts. I don't know what to do Jame. I don't know." I said and I started to cry so she hugged me, she rubbed my back for me to be calm

"Ssshhh! Don't cry. I'm always here for you. The baby will get sad din eh."

"Ano bang pagkukulang ko Jame? All I did is to love him unconditionally, why did this happen? Why did he cheat on me?"

"Hindi lang isa... dalawa. Dalawang beses, Jame. Dalawa, pinagmukha niya akong tanga."

"Sshhh! It's okay, it's okay. You'll get over it." Jamie said and she let me cry on her shoulder, the pain didn't ease even though I'm crying, it's still heavy in my heart. Nung nahimasmasan na ako, I took a quick shower because I will fly back to Manila, sa bahay muna ako magsstay and I will attend the Fashion Week for the next month,

"Ayaw mo talaga sabihin sa kaniya 'to? He'll get worried if he knows that you will be gone." I shake my head to Kuya Matt,

"Even sina Cara and Xandra, walang alam." Sabi din ni Jamie, we are here in the car of Kuya Matt and we're heading to the Airport,

"I'll just tell them later if nakalapag na ako." I said and they nodded, I looked at the window and I see the tarpaulin and billboard of Sandro and that made me want to cry more. I bit my lips and sighed as I shake my head. I want to go back, I want to be with him. I want to hug him and say sorry. I love Sandro so bad.

"Kuya Matt." I bit my tongue, no. No, Chan. Choose yourself, not all the time siya ang pipiliin mo. Choose and heal yourself first.

"Why? Are you okay?" Kuya Matt asked so I closed my eyes.

"Chantall, hoy!" Jamie panicked so I opened my eyes and smiled at her.

"Oh God! I thought you fainted again. Jesus!"

"And by the way, I messaged the two girls that you'll going back to Manila." I nodded at Jamie nalang.

"What is it Chan? Why?" I looked at Kuya Matt in the rear view mirror and I shake my head,

"None, Kuya." I rested my head to the window and I held the pendant of the necklace. I closed my eyes and I remember everything. From the first day we met, in the  New York, his first call, first meeting here in the Philippines, on how he admitted that he likes me, the Drunk Sandro who called me Mahal, everything, about him.. About us, made me cry because for sure even though we will try again, we will never be like before. Jillian ruined us.

I opened my phone and I saw my lockscreen wallpaper, it's me and Sandro in Bangui, this was the time when he's still courting me. I smiled bitterly as my tears fall from my eyes into my screen.

"I missed you," I whispered. I blocked Sandro's number, even his socials.

"Sorry, ako muna ha." i closed the screen and I put it back on my bag. We arrived at the airport and Jamie is so emotional like we will never see each other again.. Well, there's a chance, but...

"Chan, dito ka nalang please. Huwag ka na umuwi." Jamie said as she hugged me,

"I'm so sorry, Jame. I'll fix myself first," I told her and I can feel that everyone are staring at us.

"No taking of photos please!" He yelled, I think it's his role. Telling people of no taking of photos.

"You'll be back right?" Jamie asked me and stared at me, I didn't answer because I don't know if babalik ba ako. Ayaw ko naman siyang paasahin, babalik ba ako dito?

"Chantall Davis! You'll be back. I will decide on your life and may inaanak ako sa tyan mo." I sighed.

"Please come back, Chan. Let Sandro take care of you and your baby. Fix yourself first, kami na ang bahala kay Sandro. Babalik ka." Kuya Matt said, itong dalawang 'to. Desisyunavility sa life ko. I went on the departure area because my flight was announced so said goodbye on them and Jamie is crying and parang ayaw na ako pakawalan.

"Yung baby Chantall ha? Ingatan mo. Take care of yourself also. Magpacheck up pag lapag mo ha? I love you, Channy." She said as I waved my hands to say goodbye to them. I don't have any bags and luggages na dala dahil di na ako nakauwi sa bahay.

We arrived in NAIA and my Mom and Dad are waiting for me, as I opened the door of the van, my tears started falling as I saw my Mom.

"Mommy,"

"Ssshhh! Baby. It's okay. It's okay." Mom said and she hugged me, she kissed my forehead as I am crying,

"Sandro told us everything, he admitted it. Sshhh! It's okay. It's okay," Mommy told me,

"I love him so much, Mom." i said in between my sobs and I feel Mommy nodding.

"He loves you more, Chan. Hindi lang ikaw ang nasasaktan Chan. We saw kung pa..."

"Dad, not now please. I don't want to hear anything about him." I cut my Dad off and Mom slapped his arm

"We'll go straight to the OB for your check up, you need check up and we'll buy some medicine." Mom said and Dad told the driver to bring us in St. Luke's for check up.

I just slept in the shoulder of my Mom because my eyes are so heavy because I cried all day.