Chapter 26: Scared of love

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Ashima's POV

I slowly walked towards my bed and sat on it with much difficulty and recalled my conversation with Edward.

This is what I was fearing of I should have known this was going to happen I still can't believe what Edward said to me, it's all my fault I was the one who let him so near me I should have maintained a safe distance between us from the beginning.

I looked down at my phone as it started ringing it's Edward I don't want to talk to anyone right now and specially not Edward.

What to do now I had only one friend here but now our friendship is spoiled because Edward has crossed the friend zone.

He loves you but do you feel the same for him, I asked myself no of course not I don't love him, I can't love him. Love just makes a person weak and helpless and I don't want to feel that way ever.

Tears flowed from my eyes as I recalled Edward's expression when I asked him to go away he looked hurt I never wanted to hurt him but he has to understand that there can't be anything like love between us.

"I'll just forget everything that happened today, I'll forget him" I whispered while wiping away my tears.

It's too late to do that Ms. Mehra you can't forget him so easily because you love him too it's just that you don't realize it and even if you do realize you won't accept it just because you are scared of love, my subconscious spoke in my head.

"No no I don't love him he's just a good friend or should I say was a good friend because maybe we are no longer friends now" I whispered.

Okay so you don't love him then why did you let him so near you knowing that you'll end up hurting him emotionally and that's what you did today, my subconscious said or rather taunted.

"I didn't wanted to hurt him..." I replied but stopped realizing that I'm talking to myself. Great! now I started to talk to myself soon I'll go mad.

I shook my head to clear off all Edward's thoughts and decided to sleep to forget all this for a while but sleep is far away from me because he is not leaving my head but after few hours I finally fell into a deep sleep.

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Edward's POV

I threw my phone on the bed in anger as she's not receiving my calls.

What the hell is this, I don't understand her I confessed my feelings for her and she's just ignoring me great, I know it's all too sudden but I don't like her ignoring me.

"Atleast talk to me Ashima" I whispered covering my face with my palms while sitting on my bed and after few minutes I called her again but the same happened she didn't receive my call, so I decided to meet her tomorrow and talk to her directly.

And the next morning I went to her place.

"What are you doing here" she asked as soon as she opened the door.

"I just wanted to see you" I replied stepped in even though she tried to stop me.

"You saw me now you can leave" she said avoiding looking at me.

"I wanted to talk about last night I...I'll come straight to the point, whatever I said last night is true I don't know when I started to feel this way for you but now it's too late I can't stop myself from loving you I can't be away from you" I replied "All I want to say is please give us a chance" I continued.

"There is no us and I don't feel the same for you, get that in your head and leave right now and don't come here again" she said rudely which hurt my ego no one talks to me like that but still I controlled my anger not wanting to say something which I'll regret later.

"It just takes a moment to fall in love but it can take a life time to realize it for some people and I hope you are not one of those" saying this I left her place leaving her confused.

My phone started ringing as I was driving to my office with still a bad mood. I received after seeing its Mack, why is he calling me I'm in no mood to talk with anyone.

"Edward I found out about that number you told me to search for" he said as soon as I received his call, I almost forgot about this thing.

"Okay can you come to my office we'll talk about it there" I replied.

"Fine" he said before hanging up leaving me worried thinking who it would be.

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Ashima's POV

I stared at his retreating figure, I tried my best to be rude with him so that he wouldn't want to see me again but I don't think it's going to work.

And what did he mean by I hope you are not one of those.

Stupid he indirectly said that you love him too which is the truth no matter how much you deny it, my subconscious spoke.

No I...my thoughts were interrupted by the ringing of my phone it's a video call from Pia so I received it quickly, I really needed someone to talk with.

"Hey how are you" I asked with a smile as she appeared on the screen.

"What happened to you" she asked instead of answering me.

"Nothing" I replied with a shrug.

"Then why are you looking so sad just tell me, you know you can't hide things from me" she said in a bored voice and I know she won't let it go so I told her everything.

"Is he that bad looking that you can't love him back" she said jokingly after hearing everything.

"No he's really good looking..." I stopped realizing what I was saying looking at her teasing expression.

"I meant he's really nice he took care of me when I was in the hospital he understands me really well and what more can I say about him he's such a sweet and good person with a beautiful heart and he..." I was going on and on talking about him when Pia interrupted me.

"You love him" she said in an obvious voice with a grin.

"Don't talk non sense Pia" I replied rolling my eyes.

"Believe me I can tell you love him deeply by the way you talk about him I can see it in your eyes, you just don't want to admit it" she said with a shrug. "And that's because you are scared of love I don't know why though" she continued when I didn't say anything.

"Pia I'll talk to you later bye" I replied as I don't want to talk on this topic anymore.

"Okay bye" she said smiling before her face disappeared from the screen as I hanged up.

Is she really right...ugh stop it Ashima.

God, I really need something to distract myself and forget about him and what could be more better then going back to work because if I stay home all day then the only person I'll think about is Edward.

Yeah it's a good idea I'll go back to work from tomorrow itself although the doctor told me to rest for two weeks atleast but I just can't stay home all day anymore, I thought to myself.

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