This chapter is Rowan listening to the album. They go through each song and Harry explains a bit about each. I made the interpretations to fit THIS story. I am NOT trying to analyze the songs nor do I think everything said in this chapter is really what the songs are about. A lot of these are not even my own interpretations of the songs just put together to fit this specific story. I am NOT speaking for Harry in anyway. Every song is so special to Harry and everyone that listens. Each song has it's own special meaning to each different person.

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Harry has been working on finishing up the new album. He won't let me see any of it and it is driving me insane.

Even the few he sang to me that were hardly started on tour I don't get to hear. He wants the album to me complete and perfect before I hear it.

I have no idea how many songs there are, the names of them, the name of the album, the cover photo, nothing.

All he has told me is he 'writes from experience so, yes there's some songs about you, about us.'

I get butterflies thinking about it.

I know they all won't be happy songs and listening to the sad ones are going to hurt like hell. But they are apart of our story and I know how the story goes. We end up together, happy.

Harry told me the album is almost finished, it feels like months ago he told me I would get to hear it next week.

"You ready, baby?" Harry asked one last time as we sat in the studio ready to play the album.

"Yes." I beg him. "I've been ready since you started writing."

"Are you sure? There's no going back once you hear it. You could hate it." He continues to delay playing the songs.

"I am going to love it, that's not even a question. Just play it already." I continue to convince him.

"Ok, here we go." He begins taking a deep breath. I can see he is nervous but he knows I will love the album and him no matter what.

"The album is called Harry's House. The album is a peak into my life, my thoughts, my house. I want to add that my house wouldn't be anything without you. You make me feel at home, where ever we go as long as I am with you I'm at home." He goes on to explain a bit about what that means to him and why he chose it as the title. He plays the songs through not giving me anytime to fully process what is even happening. He doesn't say anything just watches my reactions.

I already know he can read my emotions and facial expressions so easily. Some of the songs make me want to dance, some of them make me want to curl up in a ball and cry and as some of the lyrics click my jaw drops or my face lights up.

Harry let me process everything before going back and explain each song for me.

"Music For A Sushi Restaurant was so fun to write, it just kind of came together. Mitch and I were out getting sushi one day and one of my songs came on, and I thought this is an odd song for a sushi restaurant. The thought stuck with me for some reason and this song just fell into place.

Late Night Talking I wrote before you came on tour. I don't know what it was about you that had me hooked from the very beginning. We'd been talking all day and all into the night. I couldn't stop thinking about you. So I wrote this song." He giggled at his memory of writing it. "It was like I want more than anything to get to know you and make you happy. And the now you're in my life is like it all worked out.

Wish I was around//I just wanna make you happier, baby. There were times I wanted to be there for you, just make you happy.

I've never been a fan of change//But I'd follow you to any place. Has never been so true. I hate change, especially during such a big part of my career, touring. But there was no way I was going to give up. The line more literally would be 'I want you to follow me to any place.'

Can't get you off my mind//I won't even try. As I know you heard the second we met, I couldn't stop thinking about you, talking about you. I didn't even try and hide it.

Then it kind of transformed when you were back at school again doing All This Late Night Talking.

Grapejuice I wrote when you were away at school. I missed you more than I could even begin to explain. There was so much change that happened between us.

There's just no getting through//Without you//A bottle of rouge//Just me and you . I thought about the times we spent just me and you and a bottle of wine, some of my favorite most perfect memories. I was like tonight would be the perfect night for a date like that but we were miles apart. There was no getting through without you.

Sitting in the garden, I'm a couple glasses in//I was tryna count up all the places we've been//You're always there, so don't overthink. I had a couple glasses myself thinking about all the places and memories we've created. I remember we were talking about something and you were sad you weren't here with me and were going to miss the show. I wanted you to know that you're always there and have been throughout everything and to not overthink too much because I know you're pretty good at it.

There's never been someone who's so perfect for me. He sang again to me pulling me into a hug. "I mean that. It's true and always will be." He says kissing my neck where his head rests.

As It Was has many meanings and I think everyone can related to it in someway. Things change and it can be bittersweet. Things aren't always the same as they were.

Daylight is one I played a bit for you on your birthday. It was just a few lyrics and barely a melody back then. It's one of my favorites about you because it holds such a special memory from when I played it for you the first time. The lyrics are all so special to me too because they hold such a strong meaning.

I'm on the roof//You're in your airplane seat//I was nose bleeding//Looking for life out there//Reading your horoscope//You were just doing cocaine//In my kitchen, you never listen//I hope you're missing me by now. I was, well not sober right after you left. And you were on the airplane." He giggled at the obvious line. "I was thinking about what life was going to be like away from each other. I read our horoscopes and looked deep into our zodiac signs to see how they align. I was reading deep into a lot of things and overthinking everything while trying to be strong for you. The few days before you left we tried to not think about it at all, to just be here in the moment. You would never listen." He emphasizes the last part. "You were in the kitchen and I came in to find you all in your head again thinking about the future like you weren't supposed to be." He gives me a look.

If I was a bluebird//I would fly to you//You'd be the spoon//Dip you in honey so I could be sticking to you. I would have done anything to drop everything and fly home to you, and I know you wanted, and did, the same thing. I would do anything to be stuck with you forever.

Daylight//You got me cursing the daylight//Daylight//You got me cursing the daylight//You got me calling at all times//Ain't gonna sleep 'til the daylight. We would stay up talking for hours every night. I cursed the daylight because we were both busy with things barely getting to talk or some nights when we would talk all night into the morning, seeing the daylight without getting a minute of sleep. Then times when you or I would be visiting and we again would be up all through the night doing lots of things and not sleeping until we saw the daylight.

Little Freak is about someone I used to know. They weren't good for me. It was one of those relationships you never really know what it is. They kept leading me on, playing games but never fully committing. I thought about what I thought our relationship could look like but it never got anywhere, we were always just friends, funny enough we actually never even kissed. The way they acted around me and treated me, how we treated each other was like there was something and we had talked about it a bit. It was all mind games it seemed though. I thought about their point of view and the way they were thinking about everything to try and make it make sense.

Matilda I think everyone can relate to in someway and I hope this song can be the thing everyone needs to hear in one way or another. It is for a specific person however. I'm going to leave it at that.

Cinema well, let's just say I thought about you a lot when making these two movies. In acting, you're acting. But there were certain scenes where all I thought about was you. And you know, you remember, we would practice some of them." Harry stutters a little finding the right words to say without actually saying what he means. We both smile knowing exactly what he means. "You can listen to the lyrics and make your own interpretation but I think you know exactly what I mean."

Daydreaming is what I know I did most of the time we were away. And I know you told me many, many times all the daydreaming you did about us. Whether they were memories or future plans you were always living in a daydream.

Keep Driving is bits a pieces of stories of us. Little memories tied into one song. They are all kind of random little lines that we know hold each memory.

Maple syrup, coffee//Pancakes for two//Hash brown, egg yolk. When I wrote this I didn't realize how many special memories we have during just breakfast. Our first date out for breakfast, all the times you've made us pancakes in bed, and the many times on tour we stayed in bed all day ordering room service.

I will always love you. I wrote in the sand the other day because I do and I will, forever and ever and ever Ro.

The whole song is just lots of little memories tied into one song, memories I want to hold on to for a lifetime.

Satellite I wrote about when you left for the first time. In case you didn't notice I left out the one I did write right after you left. It felt unfair to put it on the album and it just didn't fit with the rest of the songs. But I think this song kind of captures how I was feeling during the days leading up until you left and then when you were gone.

Spinning out, waiting for ya to pull me in. I was spinning in circles during those few days before you left. My mind was going around and around trying to think of anything I could do to get you to open up. I was waiting for you to be reading to pull me in.

I can see you're lonely down there//Don't you know that I am right here. It was so hard to see you so lost and alone when I was right there wanting to do anything to make it all better, to take it all away.

I'm here, right here//Wishing I could be there for ya. In the song is how I picture myself trying to get you to open up.

Boyfriends I wrote for you. It just is a big 'fuck you' to boyfriends basically. Growing up watching your friends get heartbroken or break hearts, growing up with a sister hearing all about the shitty things guys did to her and her friends. It also definitely has a bit of self awareness in it. But after meeting you and hearing about how you were treated, seeing how much it effected you and your future relationship broke my heart.

Love Of My Life baby, you are the love of my life." He says pulling me into a big hug before placing his lips on mine.

"I love it and I love you more than I can even begin to explain." I kiss him before continuing and kissing him in between each sentence trying to express my feeling towards him and his work. "I am more than proud of you for everything you have done. "The album is beautiful, I am obsessed with every part about it. I am obsessed with you and I love you with all I have. I will have these songs are repeat forever and ever. And I can't wait to hear them live and get to tour again." I smile before using these two lyrics. "I will always love you. You are the love of my life, H."

"I will always love you, my love. This album is because of you. You are the love of my life."