16 missed calls from Harry 💕

Harry 💕
Rowan where are you?
Baby please answer
Please
Ro
Talk to me please
Nothing about this is easier
I don't understand
Answer me please Ro

I woke up around 1 pm and saw the missed calls and texts from Harry.

I rubbed my eyes and sighed. I want to cry forever. But I'm trying to convince myself it is for the best. And it would make for less drama and less heart break in the future. The feelings would go away soon enough and he will be able to move on and live his amazing life without me in the way.

I woke up and Emma wasn't in here. I snuck out escaping away from her. I didn't want to talk about it anymore. 

I needed to forget it all. 

I threw my hair up and put on whatever random clothes I could find from Emma's closet not even caring a little bit about what I looked like.

I went to Jake's house which was a constant party. I hadn't seen any of my friends for almost a two months. That doesn't sound like a long time thinking about it but that was the best, craziest, happiest, longest (in a good way) few months.

They were all so happy I was back. I put on a fake smile and pretended I was happy to be back too.

"Where have you been?"

"Are you really dating Harry Styles?"

"How's Harry?"

"Why didn't you bring Harry?"

"How did you meet Harry Styles?"

"Your summer with Harry looks like a dream."

"When can we meet Harry?"

"Major upgrade Ro."

"You were on tour with Harry Styles all summer? You're so lucky."

"You're like famous now."

"What's up with you and Harry Styles?"

I tried to deny that I even knew Harry. But apparently everyone knew some how and there was no denying it. I guess there were plenty of stories with mine and Harry's face as the cover.

I came here to forget about all that and that's all anyone wanted to talk about. I tried to act like I was fine, holding back tears.

Everyone wanted to talk with me and hear everything that had been going on. I tried to be nice but it was hard especially when all they wanted to talk about was Harry which is who I came here to forget about.

It got even worse when Grayson walked over to me.

"Rowan hi." He tried to lean in for a hug which I quickly denied. "I've missed you, we all have."

I turned around and walked away him. Grayson stepped in front of me "You're not even going to talk to me. I was just wondering how you and Harry are?"

"And so is everyone else." I rolled my eyes.

"I'm glad your happy though, you deserve to be."

"Well I'm not so." I walked away tried to walk away, coming here was a huge mistake. 

He pulled me back and wrapped his arms around my waist. "You want me to change that?" He whispered in my ear as he kissed my neck.

"Seriously." I said pulling myself out of his grip.

"Come on just like we used to." He said with a smirk.

"You're such an asshole." I said not wanting to waste anymore time looking at him. That was not what I needed at all.

"Babe, come on." He said as I walked away and as I do meet Emma who has a look of death on her face. 

"I am seriously going to kill you." She scolds me. I turn to walk the other way but my vision is blurry and steps are unsteady so it isn't hard for her to pull me back towards her. 

She doesn't even have words to say to me but the look on her face says it all. "Can I just forget it for a minute?" I ask her. 

"Clearly it is only making you think more about him." She points out. 

'Adore You' starts playing and everyone was yelling at me that this was Harry like I didn't already know. 

I got out of the crowd which calmed me down a little. I came here to forget about Harry not be constantly reminded of him.

I was drinking to forget all my feelings but the alcohol only caused my emotions to heighten. I laid on the bathroom floor blacked out drunk, which I guess was the point, bawling to Emma about how stupid I am for everything.