I met Tommy at the Underground later that night. I was still a little crazy headed from what happened earlier, but I didn't think anything else of it as I wanted to watch a fight to get my mind off of shit.

I pull up in the parking lot then walk down the alleyway in front of the door. I knocked four times before someone opened the small opening.

You know the rest.

As soon as they let me inside, I quickly walk the hall to find Tommy. I look around and spotted him next to Damion as a fight was going on. I took my seat next to him and he smiles over at me. "Welcome." He said as he had a drink in his hand. "Want some?" He offered.

I shook my head. "I don't drink, dumbass."

He smiled and took a sip. "I know. I'm messing with you. You're a good girl." He pulls me into a side hug and I quickly push him off.

As the fight was going on, I tried my best to focus on it but my mind was wandering off to somewhere else. I couldn't stop thinking about earlier and I couldn't wrap my brain around the fact that I want to know what the hell was going on in that building.

I look over at Tommy and watch him for a moment. I wanted to talk to him about it, but I wasn't sure if talking about it was such a good idea.

I mean, I don't have to tell Tommy everything that happens. Even though earlier was something a little fucking creepy, I still don't think it matters to tell him.

All I know was that I will not be going back to that building.

After the fight ended, Tommy stood up and walked over to where a group of people were. I watch him for a moment until I look over at Damion. "Did he bet?" I ask.

He nods as he was looking over at me. "Yeah. When does he not bet?" He questions.

I watch as he was standing around people and I watch as they kept handing him money. The amount of money was ridiculous, and I wondered how much of it he got. It looks like he got more than what he usually bets, which is five hundred.

After he came back to sit down. I watch him for a moment. "How much?" I ask.

"Fifteen hundred." He smiles over at me and I couldn't help but stare at him in shock. "I'm getting better and it feels great." He ran his finger through the bills and smiled down at it.

He was getting money almost every chance he got. I don't really mind it not being me because I know that he would split it with me if I asked, and we can finally leave this town.

"Are you saving the money?" I ask.

He looks over at me. "Yeah, a little of it. Why?" He stares at me for a moment until he finally got what I was saying. "Don't worry, D. We have time." He smiles at me and I couldn't help but smile back.

He knew what I was saying without even saying anything. He's just as ready to leave this town as I am. We're in this together and one day, we will leave and not look back.

After the fight was over, I didn't want to go home. I was sick of that place and I didn't want to deal with Johnny and his annoying ass. I've been avoiding him, but I don't know much longer I can without him causing some shit.

"Take care, D." Tommy said as he pulled me into a hug. "Take care of my baby, too." He motioned towards his truck.

I roll my eyes as I hop in and I heard him laugh. That boy was crazy about his truck, and I'm shocked that he let me borrow it.

Sometimes I owe Tommy my fucking life.

I decided to drive around a little. I wasn't in the mood for any hook ups which is weird for me, but I just wasn't in the mood tonight. I wanted to go somewhere quiet and just sit.

I noticed that cafe was still open, even though it was a little after eleven, so I decided to walk in and maybe order something. I lock the doors to the truck as I placed the keys inside my pocket and walked inside the cafe.

I look around as a few people were sitting at tables, and I walk over to the counter to order me a hot chocolate. I paid then walked over and sat down at a table near the window.

Even though it was dark, I could still see a little outside from the streetlights. I watch the headlights of cars go by as I was sipping my hot chocolate every once in a while.

As I was sitting there, I started thinking about Julia and her wife. I slouch in my chair and tried hard not to think about her, but what happened earlier has my mind acting funny.

I thought back to when her wife was yelling at her then forced her to look at her when Julia wasn't. I couldn't wrap my head around the fact that maybe Julia is in an abusive marriage and that's why she goes to drink.

As I thought about it, maybe that's the reason why she hooks up, if she even does, with strangers at bars. I mean, I don't know if she does, because I haven't really talked to her about it and sure as hell don't want to, but we slept together and that's a somewhat proof right there.

Unless I was the only one she slept with.

I sigh as I sat there staring at my hot chocolate and I couldn't believe what I was thinking about doing.

There's no way in hell that I'm doing this.

After a few minutes of debating inside my head, I walk out of the cafe and leave the parking lot. I start driving down the road as I could hear my heart in my ears.

I check the time to see that it was thirty minutes before midnight, and I'm driving as I'm mentally cursing myself for doing this stupid shit.

She's probably sleeping right now.

What if her wife is home?

What the hell am I actually doing?

I found Richards street and pulled down the road. I couldn't really tell which house was hers since it was night, and everything was dark. The streetlights wasn't giving enough light to even locate the house that I was looking for.

I finally came up to it, as I saw her car in the driveway. I also didn't see any other vehicle, so I guess her wife wasn't home. I got out as I placed the keys in my pocket and the walk up to her door had my heart pounding.

Dana, what the hell are you doing?

I knock on the door and wait. I heard a few noises from inside then some footsteps, and like what happened before, every time the steps would get closer, my heart would start pounding.

When I heard the locks from inside started unlocking, I was thinking about just running and hiding. But, it was too late as the light from outside came on, then the door swung open to reveal Julia in her pajamas.

She stared at me for a moment as she couldn't figure out if it was me or not. "Dana?"

This was a mistake.

"I'm sorry." I turn to walk away and I heard her yell for me.

I stop at the truck as she was walking towards me. "Dana, what's wrong? What are you doing here?" I didn't say anything as I stood there, not facing her. "Talk to me, please."

I turn around to face her in the dark, but the light from her house gave off enough light to see some of her face. "I didn't mean to come. It was a mistake." I open the door as I was clearly out my fucking mind.

I felt her grab my arm. "Dana, please."

"Let me go!" I yell as I quickly got inside the truck and started it. I quickly pulled out and sped away from there as I was trying hard to understand what the fuck was wrong with me.

As I was driving, I felt like crying. I hated this feeling that was inside my chest. My fucking head was spinning and my heart was beating out of control. I didn't understand what the hell was happening.

I decided to sleep over at Tommy's tonight. I didn't want to go home, but I really didn't want Tommy to see me like this and ask questions.

I don't think I'll go to school tomorrow.

-

"Rise and shine!" Tommy came in the living room and yelled at me. He pulls the blankets from my body and I was left there to shiver.

I quickly get up to see him start running from me. I chase him around the living room and through the kitchen. We run back around the living room and that's when Sara was standing there, but it was too late for me to stop.

I ran smack into that bitch.

"Ugh, what the hell!" She yells as I'm on top of her.

I smirk down at her. "Goodmorning." I lean down in attempt to kiss her and she screams.

"Stop!" She pushes me off of her and quickly gets up and runs away.

I laugh as I stand up and watch her run upstairs. I turn around to see Tommy laughing his ass off. We decided to go make breakfast and I couldn't wait to eat something because my stomach was hungry.

"When was the last time Johnny fed you?" Tommy ask as he lays down a plate for me on the table.

I look down at a plate full of eggs and bacon. I lick my lips and decided to stuff my face. I look over at Tommy as he was watching me and I forgot he asked me a question. "I don't know." I shrug after I swallowed the food.

"I don't like the way he treats you." He said as he took a seat across from me.

I shrug. "It's been like that for years, Tommy. I'm used to it."

"But he's your uncle." He stated.

I stare at him. "So? Doesn't matter to him because he treats me like shit either way." I took another bite of this food and felt my stomach do the happy dance. "This is so good." I said as I look over at Tommy.

He smiled. "Thanks, D."

We sat and ate then talked for a while. It was good to sit down and talk to Tommy because we hardly do that anymore. I miss him and even though I see him at the Underground or whenever we do shit together, we never really hang out to talk about shit.

Sara walks in and I smile at her. She rolls her eyes. "Don't even talk to me."

I chuckle. "Why, babe?"

"Don't call me babe. Don't call me anything." She warned.

I smile. "Can I call you my bitch?"

Tommy starts coughing and I laugh as Sara glares at me. After Tommy was done, he shook his head at me. "Ok, time for school. Go get ready."

"Yes, dad." I say as I stand up. I instantly cringe then look at him. "Nevermind." I shake my head as I ran out the kitchen and upstairs.

I wasn't planning on going to school, but last night got me thinking about a lot. I shouldn't let Julia or these fucking emotions control my life. I still don't understand what is going on, but I should not let it get in the way of my life.

Tommy has some of my clothes here for whenever I want to come and stay. I never have to bring clothes because I already have some here for when I need them. I told him that I needed to leave some over here for when I want to leave Johnny for a while.

He didn't care.

I quickly get dressed then brush my hair and my teeth. I jog downstairs to see Sara standing in the hall looking at her phone. I roll my eyes as I find Tommy and tell him goodbye.

"Be careful. Don't get into trouble. I love you." He kisses my temple and I quickly get into the truck and leave the driveway.

On the way to school, I couldn't control my fucking nervousness about seeing Julia today. I know she's going to question about what happened last night, but if I could try to avoid her then that will be just peachy.

But avoiding Julia Taylor is something impossible to do.

After I park, I got out and walked towards the building. For some reason, my nerves were shot. I knew that it had to do with what happened last night and there was a small chance of Julia talking to me about it, but I shouldn't let it make me this fucking nervous.

I walk through the halls and towards my locker. As I'm opening it, I felt someone from behind me place their hands over my eyes. My first instinct was to punch whoever the hell it was, but I soon relaxed when I heard a voice.

"It's Amber." She giggled. She let her hands go, then I turned around to see her smiling. "Good morning."

I roll my eyes. "Why must you be all perky in the mornings?" I open my locker to grab my book before turning towards her.

"I love mornings." She smiled. "Why do you have to be so grumpy?" She asks.

I couldn't help but chuckle. "Whatever." I walk around her before she grabs my arm.

"Dana, we hardly talk anymore." She said as she was staring at me. "What's going on?" She asks.

I shrug. "Nothing really. You and Trey are busy, and so am I." I watch as she stares at me and I knew she was about to get emotional.

"Yeah, but it's like we're not even friends anymore." She looks down and I hated when she got like this.

I sigh. "We are friends, Amber. Best friends." She looks back up and I smile. "We'll always be friends, and some times friends need space away from each other, but that doesn't mean they're not close anymore." I reassured.

She pulled me into a hug, and even though I wanted to push her off, I let her. I stood there as she was hugging me, and it started getting awkward since I wasn't hugging back.

When she pulled back she smiled at me. "I love you, Dana."

I nod. "Ok."

We talked for a while until the bell rung, and I was dreading classes already. But, I didn't want to skip, so I decided to sit through this damn torture for seven hours and pray it goes by fast.

-

After lunch came around, I decided to roam the halls instead of sit on my ass and do nothing. I wasn't hungry, so I skipped lunch. I brought money, but I wasn't about to spend it on nasty cafeteria food.

Amber and Trey are still busy with college applications, so they're not with me. I still need to figure out what I'm going to do with my college shit, but then again, I don't want to worry about it now because I want to leave this town when I graduate.

I look around as I was walking and I came across the front office. I hesitantly stop as I didn't want to walk past it, or even be near it. I stared at the entrance for a moment until my feet decided to walk right in there without consulting me first.

I walk to Miss Valerie's desk as she was sitting there, and when she looked up, I felt like hiding. When she saw it was me, she didn't look too happy. This woman has always had a smile on her face, even with bad kids who walk in here, but the look she was giving me, told me that she was not happy to see me.

"What do you want, Dana?" She asks.

I stared at her as I felt bad from the shit I did the other day. "I wanted to come to apologize." I said. I did want to, but it wasn't the main reason I walked in here.

"For what?" She said as she was staring at me.

I sigh. "For what I did the other day. I shouldn't have lied to you, and I want to apologize for my behavior." I felt like cringing from the words that came from my mouth.

"Go on." She said.

Damn, this was going to be hard as fuck to get out of my mouth. I hate apologizing to people and it's a rare thing that I do, if I even do it. I hate the thought of apologizing, and I don't know why.

"I just wanted to let you know how.. deeply sorry I am and how my behavior was unexceptable that day." I watch as she stares at me, so I continue. "I am sorry."

She stares at me for a moment. "The question that I would like to know, Dana, is why you did it in the first place."

"I, uh.."

Before any words came out, I heard a door open. When I looked over, I saw Julia walking out of her office and when she saw me, she instantly stopped and watched us for a moment.

"Oh," She spoke after a moment. "I was just about to come look for you." She said as she was watching me. I gave her a confused look as why the hell she was about to come look for me. She smiles over at Miss Valerie. "May I borrow her for a few minutes?"

Miss Valerie nods and Julia motions for me to walk into her office with her. I don't know what's about to happen, but I have a feeling that it's not going to go so well.

After I shut the door, Julia walks over to her desk and motions for me to sit in front of her. After I did, she began speaking. "So, I was wanting to talk to you." She started.

"Ok." I nod as I watch her.

"About last night." I lean my head back as I knew that this was going to happen. I sigh as I stare up at the ceiling, and I heard her voice. "Talk to me, Dana."

I shook my head. "There's nothing to talk about." I look back at her. "It was a misunderstanding."

"How?" She asks. "How was that a misunderstaning last night? You clearly had a purpose of driving all the way to my house close to midnight." She continues to stare at. "I want to know."

I stare at her for a moment. "No, Julia. You don't get to know. I don't care if you're my principal, because even so, some things need to be kept to myself without you always knowing what the hell goes on inside my head."

"Dana-"

I groan then instantly stand up. "No, no. Shut up for five seconds." I walk around the room until I stop to look at her. "You're always inside my head and you drive me crazy. I don't know why or how, but the thought of you drives me completely insane. I don't know if it's because of what happened between us," I motioned towards us both. "or what, but it's like I can't concentrate on anything because you're inside my head!"

I breathe in and watch her for a moment.

"Ok," She started. She soon stood up and walked around her desk. "here's something to add on top of all that." She stares at me for a moment. "It's the same damn way with you. I can't seem to get you out of my head, and I don't know why, but you're always there. And maybe what you said about what happened between us might be the reason, I don't know. But it's driving me crazy too."

We stood there for a moment until I look somewhere. "Glad to know I'm not the only one going fucking insane." I heard her chuckle and I look over at her. "We might need a therapist."

She laughed and I watched her for a moment until she looks at me. "Maybe, but what is that going to do?"

I shrug. "Help us?"

"How?" She asks.

"I don't fucking know, but anything would be better than having these fucking emotions and feelings inside my chest and all this crazy shit that's been happening." I said as I ran my hand through my hair.

Julia stares at me for a moment. "What?"

"What?" I ask, clearly confused.

"What did you say?" She asks, again.

I gave her a confused look. "What do you mean? I said that anything would be better."

"Yes, but you said something about feelings?"

I instantly stop as I didn't mean for that to slip out. Julia was staring at me, clearly confused as I was standing there looking like an idiot.

"I didn't say anything about feelings." I tried covering my tracks, but Julia caught it.

She stared at me for a moment and I knew that there was no way in hell that I was getting out of this one. I didn't intend for it to slip out, but I was jumbling my words up and I didn't catch it until it was too late.

We stood there for a moment. "I'm pretty sure you did." She stares at me as I stand there feeling my heart start hammering against my chest. "Look," She said after a few moments. "it really doesn't matter because none of this is real. It's not real." She looks somewhere else as I watch her for a moment.

"What's not real?" I ask, clearly confused. She stands there for a moment as I watch her stare at something else. She shook her head after a moment, but I knew she was wanting to tell me something. "No, Julia, tell me." I watch as she shakes her head again.

"I can't, Dana." She says as she looks somewhere else. "I can't tell you."

I stare at her. "Why? What's so bad that you can't tell me? That's another thing that irritates the shit out of me when it comes to you. You always act like this, like you have something to fucking hide,